Biffed pretty hard on this V3, so had to film the second attempt. Most of my ambitions in life are driven by other peopleās desires and impressions on me. I used to wake up every single day within a cage of depression and anxiety. About where my life is, where I should be, where others are, and the heaviest... what does my family think. Itās no secret I struggle with mental health, but in the past 3 months Iāve started meds for the first time. Something I was sworn against, and never wanted to explore. But sitting at the skatepark drinking a beer on a weeknight and chatting, the homie says ādude youāre in your twenties, youāve wasted no time, just try itā. I donāt know or think it will be forever, but my dudes it has made this winter a fraction of how bad the others were. Iāve always been a private person due to not wanting to be a burden on other peopleās lives. But Iāve been trying to have more conversations, and initiating those conversations. With my folks, with friends, everybody about life and our struggles. For the first time last weekend during one of my most vulnerable conversations my mom said, really said āwe are so proud of you, and whatever you want to do in life. You shouldnāt worry about what we think, or our opinions, just do what you know is right for yourself, and get what you want out of life.ā It was a huge step, but also only the first. But something Iām going to think about, and have thought about, everyday. So if things are shifting, just gotta let u know itās time.š¤š» #climbing #rockclimbing #bouldering #firstascent #firstascenthumboldt #letsclimbchicago #mentalhealth #tattooedclimbers #cultrunner #blackdiamond #v3 (at First Ascent Humboldt Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bupe2v6g_rY/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1310blq089snd
