Biffed pretty hard on this V3, so had to film the second attempt. Most of my ambitions in life are driven by other people’s desires and impressions on me. I used to wake up every single day within a cage of depression and anxiety. About where my life is, where I should be, where others are, and the heaviest... what does my family think. It’s no secret I struggle with mental health, but in the past 3 months I’ve started meds for the first time. Something I was sworn against, and never wanted to explore. But sitting at the skatepark drinking a beer on a weeknight and chatting, the homie says “dude you’re in your twenties, you’ve wasted no time, just try it”. I don’t know or think it will be forever, but my dudes it has made this winter a fraction of how bad the others were. I’ve always been a private person due to not wanting to be a burden on other people’s lives. But I’ve been trying to have more conversations, and initiating those conversations. With my folks, with friends, everybody about life and our struggles. For the first time last weekend during one of my most vulnerable conversations my mom said, really said “we are so proud of you, and whatever you want to do in life. You shouldn’t worry about what we think, or our opinions, just do what you know is right for yourself, and get what you want out of life.” It was a huge step, but also only the first. But something I’m going to think about, and have thought about, everyday. So if things are shifting, just gotta let u know it’s time.🤙🏻 #climbing #rockclimbing #bouldering #firstascent #firstascenthumboldt #letsclimbchicago #mentalhealth #tattooedclimbers #cultrunner #blackdiamond #v3 (at First Ascent Humboldt Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bupe2v6g_rY/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1310blq089snd
