curly-bob replied to your post:hate crashing hate pain hate missing classes ...
If you want to chat about constant pain, I feel I may be able to relate. Either way, hope things get better for you. xx
I... don't know if there's even much to chat about. Like, pain is pain, and it's a thing I'm pretty used to by now (even if it's still super-annoying and occasionally makes me want to self-lobotomise the pain centres in my brain). It's just. You know. A thing that's there. I think it probably bothers other people more than it bothers me sometimes.
What's really getting to me isn't the pain itself, it's the things it stops me from doing. Like. I am okay-ish with having finger pain. I am not okay with being unable to write by hand and slow, agonising typing. I am okay-ish with headaches. I am not okay with the fibro fog and general bleh-ness stopping me from focusing on anything. I am okay-ish with hip and leg pain, as long as I have a stick or am sitting down. I am not remotely okay with being unable to stand up, walk to labs, or survive labs if I got there, just as I am not okay with the hideous anxiety I had yesterday when I was sure my left side was going to paralyse halfway to the zoology building.
But I'm equally not sure those are things I can chat about, because every time I mention it to anyone I feel like I'm simultaneously over- and underplaying it, and also I don't know how I'm feeling or what the problem is.
...sorry. What I meant to say is thanks for the concern. A lot. And I appreciate the thought, but I just... don't know if it would do any good.