It’s been a while since i felt something positive crawling out from the bottom of my guts. I’ve never really had any positive options or thoughts because hell, im damned. that is what pretty much what consumes my mind; not to others, but to myself.
You don’t know how hard it is to look in a freakin mirror and hate what the hell you see. The urge coming through my stomach, my mind saying “go punch it.”
Then again i ain’t here to discuss this crap. I’m here to tell you that, after several years, it has been a long, long time since there was a pinpoint of positivity felt by this damned kid. It was a big deal for me because it takes a lot of me to feel something that great and I think, it did good things. Awesome things. The fact that it did, kinda changed some stuff here on the blog too. If you’re a returning kid (hey there) and you use your computer to check out my blog, you’ll actually know how different it is. *refer to my playlist*
ESPOIR, it means hope. Hope that i’ve been looking for, hope that i’m gonna cherish for a long time.
if you wanna check out this playlist and download it, click here.
Should i stay or should i go — THE CLASH
Overtime — LANY
Rollercoaster — BLEACHERS
Chasing cars — SNOW PATROL
Silvertongue — YOUNG THE GIANT
Every breath you take — THE POLICE
Pleaser — WALLOWS
Electric love — BORNS
Inconsistencies — OH, FLAMINGO!
This playlist is on spotify and if you have one, click the link i pasted earlier or just search for kimdyfuu to know what i’ve been listening to lately, and hello, lez jam.
if you like this playlist, let me know on the comment section below and tell me If which song made you like it!! I’ll keep you guys updated with my playlists. I hope you liked this post! I’ll be seeing you soon enough.
I never listen to these kind of songs because I never really liked it when I’m calm; it feels foreign for some reason.
I don’t know if it’s because I was always a walking time bomb or a pimple that is about to pop? Which made me who I am, really, but that ain’t good. So, Finally after the 19 years of being all rough and stormy I gave in to that foreignity. (i dont know if that’s a word but it sounded good)
Currently I’m on spotify, I wasn’t into new songs in some way. Don’t misunderstood me, I like it, but I always dig the old ones, so I always go through the trouble of downloading and everything. Then, later on, I realized they have the songs that I really love, and there we go again with trying out new stuff. of course with a itty-bitty of the old.
Precaution: Everything in this playlist are way way back. don’t kill my vibe.
ON THE JUKEBOX TONIGHT AT YV’S:
1) Copacabana
2) So be it
3) Twist and Shout
4) Can you feel the love tonight
5) Funky town
6) I must be dreaming
7) Can’t help falling in love
8) Last night I didn’t get to sleep at all
9) Coney Island
10) Heaven must be missing an angel
11) Wake up sunshine
12) Oh! Carol
13) Hey Jude
To be honest, my most favorite song in that playlist is hey jude. It calms every freakin storms I have.
Probably no one will listen to this, but I really liked this and for me it’s worth posting. As the second song says, If no one does, “so be it”. Still kickass. If you liked this, just tell me and I’ll post more! If you do want to listen to this, click the “on the jukebox at yv’s” above to take you there. Each songs, as you click it will link you to each though.
If you have any other suggestions of what should I do, leave it at the comment section down below fellas. I’ll try ganking. *winks*
So christmas just flew past huh? Sad.. It was the most beautiful time of the year and what? mojoed its way pass us and killed the chill mood. *sigh* Like my professors and their freakin plates and their freakin stuff on my to-do list/ But hell, no crap is gonna stop me from the lust i have for this badboys. I’m not expecting anyone to give me these but i just want to see if i can try and give myself a big apple pie life with these bad boys this year i mean
I mean if me, myself can gank this babies that im craving for. Apple pie life you know, the happy ones. Hahaha!
I know all, half..., okay i dont know alright? Is it just me or you too have this “list of obsessions” that you will soon buy, but meh. I’m just gonna share the bad boys ive been eyeing out lately.
AC/DC Shirt — I’m a hella freakin fan of AC/DC. I swear. I WILL DIE AND SWEAR I WILL USE SHALINI (my friend aka my human shield) IF EVER SOMEONE STOPS ME FROM BUYING THIS BADASS.
I luv u AC/DC. You’re awesome. :( ♥ And i swear i will find you and when i do, im gonna buy and then wear you. FOR 100 TIMES. No one cant stop me and this mad love. Hahahaha!
A New Camera/Lens — I dont know if XA2 is still in the market but this is quite handy and the quality seems awesome. So if i’ll have dibs on a cam, this is probably what I’ll get or the XT-10 or i dont know, maybe another lens.
Sunnies Agenda 2017 in Pink — Ive done so much just to have this lil son of a... somethin’ and hell, she’s gonna be hella in love if she knew how much i went through just to find her. I just love this one alright.
Pair of shoes to abuse — Classics are the best and i think my feet are born to wear sneakers.. So probably chucks and vans are gonna be on my freakin feet every now and then.
Zoeva’s Caramel melange/ Cocoa blend — I cant remember where and on who i saw these two, either ate camie juan or another blogger but the time i searched for this, ill be damned. ♥
Winona Sunnies — Some protection i mean some fashionably lookin awesome sunnies will always be in my list. AND YES WINONA, IM HUNTIN’ YOU DOWN.
Mini Back Pack — i dont really like bringing bags. ESPECIALLY if the bag is the forever winning with chachis, the “hand bag” hahaha! So this is the only type of bag I’ll use.
Denim Culottes for an unlimited dose of comfiness — What? Im a pants person... in days.. Hahaha! I love wearing comfortable pants alright plus ive been eyeing on this one for 6 months now. SUE ME ALRIGHT.
The end ya doofus. Yep, those are the stuff im huntin’ and man i hope i gank this. Thanks for reading this crap and i hope to see ya soon. How about you? What are the things you’ve been eyeing lately? Leave them at the comment section down below!
And one more thing. Take care, will ya?
Ps: everything that are crossed out or in strike are ganked. *winks*
New year, new year. *breathes* Last year was not a much of a mess. It’s just fine, i guess? it’s kind of good and bad. Yin & Yang still. Since I’m wishing that this year will be a great one, I’m posting here my 2017 bucket list. I’m never open with this kind of stuff. I’m never good at saying this kind of words and all. So will you stick around for a bit?
Probably people wouldn’t read this so, I’ll just leave it here while I tick everything off. I’m not really good with words and letting people understand the language I’m using. HAHAHA but yah. I’m never open with my feelings and all that crap. I’m not the “lovey dovey” thing alright. Even with just my friends and family. So even these kind of stuff, yah. I dont share ‘em.
I don’t like sharing feelings and thoughts. You get it, right? This is not much of my personal crap but it’s still a part of me. Enough of my issues, so here’s the list.
Adventure with friends (no specific place, no specific date just a genuine and awesome adventure)
Date myself once every 3 months ( i do this even before but i think its better to do it often)
Spill my 3am thoughts while eating at mcdo once every 3 months *alone*
Conquer my fear of heights (so i think this wont be ticked off…)
Midnight dancing with the song “shut up and dance” (this is one of my favorite songs and i have this… uhm happy dance so… i just wanted to dance along with this song on top of a hill or somewhere awesome + its midnight)
Read & Watch more
Skin care first
Travel alone (man, some say it sucks to be alone. for me? nah id rather be alone than be accompanied by some douche. Which makes us 2… coz.. im already, 1)
Ride a push cart (bite me alright. i think its fun)
Go to an Amusement Park (it was my first time last year and i want more because all we did is ride a freakin vikings, w/c i am not afraid of btw)
Go to this nostalgic (let me feel everything) place where i told myself i’ll come running back to when its time. I promised myself that i’d come, and bury something there when its time. Well, maybe this year, this is it. This is so ldkfskdf.
Another piercing (already have 5 and yes more. mom, don’t worry no other… other piercing. just on the ears, alright?)
Learn how to make pies
Eat more (i mean healthy w/c i totally cant)
Baking with friends
Watch the sunset
Watch the sunrise
Go-kart racing
Go laser tag
Paintball fight with friends
Go to a museum
Coffee shop hopping
Unplanned Food stop
Go camping (as if i can last a day)
Summer Getaway with friends
Experience wanderland
Go to a place where my two favorite things are in the same bunker (dogs and food)
Go to Disneyland
Go to Cebu
Go to a park or playground–ish to some place ive never been
Be (more) Awesome hahaha! kidding. Try to calm down in every aspect of life.
For now this is it. I may add some to the list and i may add some pictures to remember this day. So, yah. Thanks for stopping by and reading–ish this post. Hope to see ya soon. *winks*
Ps: everything that are in strike are ticked off. That sound feels great. ugh.
I know that its not only me who loves to shop when it’s school stuff. I’m really having fun thinking about ideas on how I’ll spice up my year or how I’ll motivate myself. So first, here’s a list of the things I usually have in my bag for me to be inspired on this frickin school days. And i know how late this post is but heck im still posting this. HAHA!
So first, what is school without my quirky pen? HAHAHA i got this pens from national bookstore and i just added some stickers with my name in it.
How about some pouches to keep my babies? i got this one from vintagefad on ig! :)
My cutesy bottle wouldn’t be left out, they’re so perfect for back to school right? They’re so cute and its so unfair :(( Go check out Hip bottles (click the name to see their site) And yes, i filled this one with some chocolate milk.
My flash cards of course.
My “hey smartass, you forgot something”. I just used some string and used paperclips and wooden clips to hang my stuff. So yup, i tend to forgot everything, literally everything so practically i need this baby to fill me in. (i DIYED this one, im a fan of DIYS but im not an artsy one hahaha!)
For some closer view of what i remind myself:
Sorry, low quality :((
Sad right? :( Quizzes and homeworks damn.
HAHAHAHA! well, that’s my kind of motivation.
And for the last back to school crap i have here is my 4 notebooks. I made this little shits here because plain notebooks/fillers are not for me. HAHA! And i need to see supernatural everywhere.
Don’t you dare,
— Copy my notes
— touch this
— or even look
I just put my sticker to make it minimal.
That’s a frickin devil’s trap. So yes, you are one trapped son of a bitch.
This is my most favorite notebook, It’s so cute and its black. So yes, My fave. HAHAHA!
Speaking of supernatural, i have they’re pictures in the back so in case i lost my track i’ll see them and get back on my feet again. LOL
I will not let guys see them bcoz they’re mine. HAHAHA just search for them.
(y does this looks like its a fan girl post)
Thank you for reaching at the bottom of this post you’re one hell of a good guy. HAHA! Thanks for stopping by here tho, really means every read you make to me. If you have questions, suggestions or idk, crap to tell me. go talk to me through my given accounts, i always reply don’t worry. But if you’re a frickin douchebag, don’t expect a seen haha! kidding, but yah. Thank you folks, see you again next time.
Since school is coming, how about I sorda teach you how I do my girl thang to school? 😉
School is coming, i mean my school starts tomorrow. And it sucks, right? *sigh* i need a 2 weeks no i mean 2 months moooore :( Okay stop with the whining. School is coming and we need to deal with that crappy old sons of bitches again. There are a lot of new comers to ceu too, so hey there folks! See you around haha! And dont afraid to say hi too... Im no killer. of some sort... LOL
So since school is coming, (I thought about this right after school ended. Wow right? HAHAHA.) how about I teach you guys how i do my make up before going to school? That’s kind of great?—ish. HAHAHA so just get into it.
I don’t wear a lot of makeups to school. First it’s school, you don’t have to wear that bombshell. but if you do want to wear that, you go wear it. It’s your way not mine, not ours. You go slay that bombshell to school, no one’s stopping you. (unless you have the no makeup policy) Second It’s freaking 7 am in the morning. I’m to lazy to put a lot in my face. Third is I always go for the “I woke up like this you sonovabitch and i look awesome” kind of mood.
This is what i look like without makeup. My face is so naked :(( Hahahaha.
So this what i put first. This is kind of my base since 2000 BC joke. HAHA! I keep on using this for school because my face doesn’t get irritated and i have lived with ponds since 6th grade. Plus it has an spf 15 to protect you to our mr. sun. ;)
So yah.... Don’t laugh at me alright I’m being nice here. HAHAHA! kidding, That’s how I put my base.
After my base, of course here comes the concealer.
Yah smartass, conceal that sonovabitch. (okay for the moment there, that’s really how i put my concealer.) I just put the concealer in the inner corners of my eyes? because of some sort I love the zombie/I’m still sleepy look. Hahaha, pretty weird right? E.L.F is the brand in the shade of rose.
So here goes hahaha, i just puffed it out with the sponge and here’s the outcome.
Then I go with my powder, Revlon and Maybelline are always my top choices whenever it comes to powder they just have this thing that makes my face youthful. MAC is like when I go out... That’s for another time and look forward to that alright?
After I set my base and concealer with the powder, I immediately go to my brows. Brows changes everything, if you straight or curved that baby, it will really make an impression to your face. Sometimes i use some pencil when i don’t have my brow kit with me and just use this angled brush.
My brows are just straight & thick. and i love it that way.
After the brows, I normally use eyeliner (from to my school makeup to my everyday and to events) but sometimes i really don’t cause I’m too lazy.
I used maybelline’s hyper sharp, the blackest of the black. 🌚 And I definitely recommend this one if you don’t have the NYX’S eyeliner.
I use the liner but it’s so thin and you really can’t see it, just to make my eyes more sleepier than ever hahaha.
And for my lips, I actually use 3 lipsticks i mean for the changing of mood.. right?
So to this first lippie that i use, this is the NYX Soft Matte Lip Cream in the shade zurich or SMLC14.
It looks great and gives you that “I dont have something on my lips and i look cute” crap but yes i do havesomething in there. hahaha! It’s pretty light on my lips(by light i mean it’s not heavy) and it’s nude!!! ♥
The second one is a mix actually, a mix my nyx and kissproof #009. First the nyx and then i’ll just dump the kissproof into my lips in a messy way and there ya go!
The third one is totally my fave, the kissproof #008 from styleyourlips.
So for the whole look with my zurich:
For the combination of zurich & kissproof #009
*too many selfies*
And for my #008.
So that’s probably it, thank you for coping up with me! Hope you had some fun and learn something new—ish. I hope I helped and if you have any question/suggestion just message me. I’m no killer *winks* I’m sorry for my selfies hahaha! See you soon folks!
All the frickin crap,
Queen of the Damned.
Styleyourlips on ig. - https://www.instagram.com/styleyourlips/
I know I’m not the only one who’s addicted with lippies here. C’mon, raise your hands ladies. I can see you. HAHA! kidding. So how about you take a look who’s here with me tonight?
I received these babies on june 13 and (i know its been days im sorry folks) I really loved every color they sent me! I’m telling you, this is so real. I’M NOT LYING. Every color is chuckdamn good, the packaging/boxes are pretty nice and you wouldn’t get lost with the whole “what number is this” thingy so I definitely love everything about these babies. PLUS I TRIED THE FOOD THING? I think i ate a whole meal, trust me im no kardashian when i eat and the lipstick didn’t fall off like any other. Even i tried the swatches
So without any more chitchat let’s look at the swatches!
THE SHADE, #007 (Watch out for this one on my next blog post! *insert moon emoji*)
(please excuse my henna, i thought it wouldn’t work)
THE SHADE #019
I’m no fan of orange lippies but this baby nailed it! I mean just look how i had fun with it!
THE SHADE #004
(im really sorry for my face ...)
THE SHADE #017 This is a freakin holy grail i can’t even, its a light brown AND its sooooo good oh my!! JUST LOOK AT IT MAN, JUST LOOK. NO MORE TALKING.
i told you it looks good!!!!
THE SHADE #008 (watch out for this one too)
Just look at this baby, it so cute and i think im gonna faint joke. HAHAHA! But it’s so good right?
So that’s probably it for today! I hope you guys had fun looking at my face HAHAHA! Kidding, i hope you guys had fun reading this post of mine. Watch out for my 7 up coming posts. (YES, SEVEN KIDDO.) Thank you guys for reading! If you have any questions feel free to message me anywhere. If you want to be notified whenever i post, just scroll down and a frickin black box will appear and enter there your damn email. For collab inquiries email me at, [email protected] Thank you again folks!!
To Ms. Reych, Thank you so much for these lovely goodies, i promise to take care of your babies. hahaha! Til our next one, ms. reych. Have a nice day. So much love given. ♥
(Damn, y am i emotional i dont even have feelings HAHA)
All the frickin crap,
Queen of the Damned or
KIM D.
Styleyourlips on ig — https://www.instagram.com/styleyourlips/
Just another stuff that made me happy lately. Nothing serious actually, It's just me. So that does mean that my life is not serious.. cos apparently this is my life we’re talkin bout... so maybe it’s a little bit serious. I'm really weird, I'm sorry... Just hit the effin keep reading to start this effin blog post. Happy reading tho!Hope it will help you.
1. GOOD GRADES. I'm not this kind of person who’s got a thing with grades. Like really addicted to them. I know grades are important. But I wouldn't freaking end my life or cry it all out if got an A- instead of an A. I can’t blame you for that, What if you’re aiming or your parents will kill you or you made a deal with them to buy you stuff and you’ll get a perfect score right? I can’t blame you. All I'm saying is, You should get an ice cream and think about, maybe there’s still next time. right? Don't stress it out. Be glad that you had those high scores. PEOPLE ARE DREAMING ABOUT THAT. Pig out with your friends, travel or watch the latest movie they’ve released. You shouldn’t be killing your self with that book over and over again. You’ll do it right, just don't hurt yourself please.
Grades wouldn't define what kind of person you are. They may reflect stuff on you or what you did back in college but it wont state that ‘Kim is bad because she got a 2.25 on math hahahaha, like who does that” EVERYONE, I mean half of the nation got a bad feeling with math. and what if I got a 2.25, that doesn't seem wrong. AND WHAT THE HELL MY GRADES IS NOT CONNECTED WITH WHAT KIND OF A PERSON I AM. To the bullies out there, GET A LIFE you sonovabitch. (IM SORRY I GOT CARRIED AWAY. MOM, DONT KILL ME)
To the parents who are reading this or to students that are reading this right now, Show this to them or link it to them. Your son/daughter or you are doing great. I know you’re holding tight. Trust me, I know what it feels like. I know that your parents, dear ma’am and sir are suffering and working hard, just to give us the life we deserve. Just so you know, WE KNOW. Even if you’re not telling us. We can see it in your actions. And we are too. We’re suffering with those professors, projects due tomorrow (and been told like a day before), assignments you’ve been working hard and wont be pass, Schedules with no breaks AND MANY MORE. You shouldn’t be stressing us more. You should try a little of reaching out or a cheer up because we had a bad day or a bad grade. Please know that we’re doing everything we can. TRUST ME, EVERYTHING. Just to get you a life you deserve. It may not seem like it but please know that behind of that cold eyes, we’ re doing everything we can to you guys. So you wouldn't be working when you reached your 50′s. We’re sorry, we’re not robots. You guys too. A little understanding will be awesome. right? (SORRY I GOT CARRIED AWAY AGAIN)
So as I was saying, I’m so glad to have a nice grades. Especially when you least expect it! It’s not perfect but it’s all I wished for. I’m really glad I passed my last semester. You can say, God is looking out for you man.
2. NEXT CHAPTER IN LIFE. It’s definitely a process. If you pass, you’ll be stepping one ahead your past life. I mean, BECOMING A DENT PROPER STUDENT!!! HAHAHA, Having this one big step for me is of course, really awesome. PASSING LAST SEM MEANS A LOT. because it’s my turn to be a proper student. (not over doing this because I might fail)
3. A PROUD MOM. Who else here is not a showy poopy lovadodie like me? It’s hard to show some feelings but seeing a proud mom just sharing every blog post you have, commenting on every process you made, letting her child do her thing and being supportive in every way you can imagine is a hard to resist. I know most of the parents are strict to their children’s choices, but having a cool mom like her is so freaking amazing. You may sound annoying sometimes but still you’re my mom, so yah. Love u mom.
4. WORKING WITH PEOPLE. I'm not really good at talking or approaching to them. Some say “kaya mo na yan kim, makapal naman mukha mo.” But they don't know that I really hate talking to other people. That I’m just doing it for them and because I'm trying to be nice here...I mean to the people that I'm gonna talk to... I don't wanna seem angry or pissed all the time. HAHAHA
Working with primavera was really a good experience for me. I had fun shooting and dressing up with their tops! they made me think in possible ways i can style a halter. A big thanks!
Working with caronia was nice, I’m not a nail polish fan but thanks to them, finally i tried something new.
5. WATCHING SUPERNATURAL. YES, THIS IS INCLUDED. It may seem just a show to you, but to me, to us, IT’S LIFE. HAHAHA, It changed something in me. Sam, Dean, Bobby, Cas, Garth, Charlie (I should stop before I state all the characters) They teach you a great lesson. If you looked at it. Every freaking episode just killed me, made me happy and made me cry. :( So if you haven’t watched it yet, WATCH IT. THEN, TELL ME HOW WAS IT. And if you already did, HI THERE FRIEND. :P
6.BONDING WITH THE FAM. Again we sore the beautiful ilocos, and spent days there. It’s a fun way to relieve stress, be happy and no html day for kim.
This is probably it, for now. HAHA! Thank you for reading this looong post. Hope you learned something tho. Keep safe!
