#curseler

[utterly-c0nfuzzled2-blog]

Can you put genie and curse in please?? this is the mod just on my other account xd

Sure thing! :)

[ask-oddrey]

Curse; Audrey, when I'm tired of my never-ending life; I will end it. I don't want a long life that will bring only sadness as I watch everyone close to me die. Don't be jealous of me. *Smiles weakly at her* Be greatful for what you have, for you see, I can't. *kisses her forehead* I'll seya round okay? *leaves quietly* I'm an idiot.

…Okay, I will be grateful. Sorry. It came out unlike how I intended. Because I don’t want to be immortal; you’re preaching to the choir about watching everyone die who isn’t, because Ben suffers from that fate, and so has Eternal, and a few others I know who will outlive everyone else. I just want to make it past twenty.

I’ll see you around. You’ll find your way out of this slump somehow, I just know it.

[ask-oddrey]

Curse: I try alot already *sighs* Guess I'm just impatient. But still, I'll always be jealous of you Ted and Black, sorry but that's just gonna stay cause yours happened so fast. I wanted what you guys have. *Stands* Thanks for having me Audrey.

*sighs as well, and says in a small voice* …I wish you wouldn’t be. Ted has his problems, and so do I. Not sure about Black, but I know I will most likely die very young, and Ted… his head bothers him, I’ll say that much. We’re flawed and our lives move fast because I’m not entirely sure they were meant to last. I’m know mine wasn’t. And that is nothing to be envious of.

If anything… I’m jealous of you. You have a long life ahead of you. You should be grateful for that.

…Goodbye, then. I won’t try to keep you if I’ve made you uncomfortable with all these talk.

[ask-oddrey]

Curse; *Stays silent* Heh you really get your words out huh? *Looks at his watch* I don't wanna go insane but I will. Being a fake makes me sick cause no one can really speak on my level and people have seen what I can do! I had someone close, they left, came back and vanished again! No one gets it, I don't want to be alone but I am aren't I?!?! I'm scared of that cause that triggers my insanity! I will be alone one day! AND NOTHING CAN CHANGE THAT! *Sighs and hides his face in his claws*

I do. I should come with a warning label: Beware, this one’s talkative.

…For some people, that is the trigger. But if you seek out others and ask for help and company and solace, they won’t deny you. If you aim no to be alone, then you won’t be. Things only ever happen because we make choices. Whether we choose to do nothing or we choose to be bitter or we choose to be active or we choose to be optimistic, then things happen the way we choose.

What will you choose, Curse? Nothing is beyond helping if you make an effort and change your attitude about it.

I have the same battle to wage with my physical condition. I’m trying to change my attitude, trying to actively search for a solution. But I’m not trying hard enough, because it’s difficult for me to think of myself before other people.

Will you fight for yourself?

[ask-oddrey]

Curse: Tsk, cause well we're fakes. I'm a fake. Some of us weren't even suppose to be here and look! You've formed a family out of this. A good home. Nothing pulls you down cause even though we were all given bad things to do in this world, you can forget it cause you changed. I can't, as much as I try. In the end I have to live my purpose of going insane and taking the forest with me! You guys have everything you want. I, have nothing. Friends sure but, so many have left me alone. They all will

*frowns* …True, we’re fakes. Ted and I are created humans, both made for selfish purposes. But yes, we’ve risen beyond that. We’re crafted our own way. And who is to say you can’t do the same? You’ve tried, and that counts for more than half of it. You don’t need to succeed to be changed.

I’ve had the same conversation before with someone else, about people leaving. I’m sorry, Curse, but you’re right: people will leave. Whether they want to or not. Because we are only human, Curse, and you are magic. Humans will die. We will all die eventually, some… m-much sooner than others, even though they don’t want to. So they will leave in death, or they will leave because they will try to protect themselves if you do go insane, and you will have to respect that about them because they are only doing it because they don’t want you to do something to them that you would regret. They are sparing you more than themselves.

But that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t still be their friend and have faith in them, and in yourself. You can regain control, you can fight it. You can reach out to them and call for help, and then will respond! People are more willing to be there for you than you might think.

Because rarely does anyone want to leave someone else alone, because we are all prone to loneliness and pain, and no one wishes that sort of turmoil on anyone else, if they can help or stop it.

So don’t be jealous, because we all have it bad. We all have it rough in our own ways, and people will come and go in our lives no matter who we are or what we’ve done or will do.

We all level out the same, in the end. Fake and real alike. We all hurt, we all hope, we all find someone else with similar pains to cling to.

Who will you cling to? I clung to Ghost and Moirin for a while, and Voodoo here and there, now, really, it’s only Ted, it has always only been Ted. Will you seek your counterpart, Genie? Or will you find someone new?

Because if you can decide on someone, a friend to stick by you, then you won’t have to worry about anyone leaving you, because that one person won’t.

[ask-oddrey]

Curse; *Plays with his pocket watch around his wrist before replying* I'm not a liar, so I'll just say it; Yes.

*softly as she sits down near him* Tell me why.

[ask-oddrey]

Curse; That all depends on what it is I guess. Say something heartless to me, I attack, stupid I kick out and if it's good, I just smile and act like a Greed-ler. You hardly say anything bad though, that's why I come to you sometimes.

Then I’m worried. It’s not bad, per se, but it might offend you anyhow. Just know that I don’t say bad things, generally, as a rule, unless provoked, and in this case— I mean it in the most concerned way possible. I want to help.

*sets his tea down in front of him, inhaling for confidence* Curse… are you envious? Of me, or Ted, or Genie, or anyone’s life?

[ask-oddrey]

Curse; Hmph, anons can say what they want, I don't suit a faceless wonder-thing. Just a tea with milk and 4 sugars please.

"Just tea" usually means brown tea, like English breakfast, so all right. “Just tea" it is, hehehe. I’ll make some lychee black tea for myself. Have a seat and I’ll bring it out to you, yeah?

And sure, they can say what they want because they hide behind a mask of anonymity, but would you allow someone you knew, like me, to do the same? Ask or say what I please?