@solsticecrest so so sooooo sorry it took me so goddam long to finish this but I was so busy augh (I STARTED WORKING ON THIS THING SUNDAY FOR CRYING OUT LOUD, ITS THURSDAY)
I hid a bunch of cool details indicating that it's just a memory hehehe, also itrapped and chance are wearing matching bunny pajamas
I wrote a tonnnnn of other stuffs augh, but Imma put a thingie righttt about here to continue reading
(Everything in here was prewritten at 3 am the day the chapter released)
I can't believe it's truly over
You have noooo idea how much your writing has meant to me! Genuenly I will keep thinking about this fanfiction for years to come, and I am glad to say that it heavily influenced my view on ichance
(no but really lament for our luck is the cannon lore for chance and you cannot convince me otherwise nuh uh)
I'm pretty sure I always say that I put each and every project I have on hold to make fanart and overanalise the chapters, no difference this time!
I do wanna talk a bit more about some other stuff tho,so this is gonna be a veryyy long paragraph!
(Most of the thoughts I'm writing are not gonna be oh so coherent but I hope you get what I mean)
When chapter 13 released and I read it I didn't really know how to feel, everything that happened just refused to process for a few hours, and then it did, holy fuvk it did and I kid you not I was about to cry
After my brain managed to process what was going on I went back to the chapter cause I NEDED to reread it but I couldn't, like genuenly COULD NOT
I read "forevermore" and the first few lines and it made me sick to my stomach
Solsticecrest you have no ideaaa when I say that I have not felt ANYTHING like this EVER
I was going through a particularly dark time and had not felt anything really for a while, and then I was shot 57 times then punched in the gut!Jokes aside I adore the fact that your writing was able to create such strong emotions?? I adore it
As for this chapter, I'm rereading it as I write and it managed to create such a sense of dread.. oh myyyy
Again I mention the way that you genuenly made me smile as I read the part with the two of them on the couch, I truly forgot that it was just memories and I was having the time of my life AND THEN YOU SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE"You are dying, Icarus."
AUGHNO ITRAPPED YOU ARENT DYING I AM
And the fact that he acknowledges that he is dying, the fact that he recognizes the 7 cruel minutes life leaves you with before taking it all away
And now I think back and compare the last 4 or such chapters with the begining of the fic
And the difference is so ITS IMPRESSIVE? HOW EVERYTHING WENT FROM HAPPINESS AND IDIOTS FALLING IN LOVE TO.. THIS??? OH GOD IM SPEECHLESS
And you have no idea how weird it was trying to decide what to draw for this chapter! So many memories and I wanted to draw them all yet just didn't have time
I hope I didn't mess it up lol (no but really-- I have no idea what I actually managed to draw cause I'm pre writing this thing--)
No idea if you are actually gonna read this whole shit lmao
But I want to thank you once more for everything
This fanfiction means so much to me and so many other people, and while I'm sad its finished, I don't think it could have ended any better
Your writing inspired me to draw more, and to start writing aswell!
It seems like no matter how I handle the situation, it's always gonna go wrong. If I don't respond, spark escalates. If I fight back, I get told to kill myself.
Every day it feels like I'm just being bothered for existing, and I'm tired of it. I just want this all to stop..
I'm sorry for being over dramatic. I'm just tired.
