The following two days Aten was busier than usual. I did not think much of it at the time, but did overhear some things about preparing for an absence. It was difficult to catch her without her being in the middle of something, organizing things, and so on.
One evening I caught a glimpse of a large sheet of paper laid upon one of her tables. From where I stood, it appeared to be a map, but it was too far for me to discern its purpose. I even tried to stand more on my toes to see it better, but to no avail.
Not that it mattered, as a rather large presence had quietly made its way toward my direction and loomed over me from behind. A glance toward the ceiling from what I perceived as movement was met with Aten's stare down at me, eliciting a startled jump from me. I had been too interested in the map to listen for passersby.
<"I was looking for you,"> she said before I could get a word in.
<"Looking...for me?"> my voice cracked from the slight heart attack I had just sustained.
<"I would like your assistance with something, though it seems you have found it yourself,"> Aten replied, walking slowly past me and into her quarters. "Please come inside."
I did so, carefully, following Aten to the map-topped table. It indeed was a map of the local latitudes of Cyavi, marked with colonies, forests, cliffs, and mountains. Ours could be found along the coast, near a small forest and a series of waterfalls just to the south. The map itself looked a bit old and faded in some places, but was still well-made nevertheless.
<"As you are probably aware, this map is a bit dated, but you can provide me with some information to better update it,"> she said while taking up a small soft pen and sheet of paper.
<"Such as?"> I asked, one ear cocked to the side.
<"I would like to know where the Kyrbri resides,"> she answered bluntly.
My eyes widened and my ears immediately flattened from the name alone, but the strange request kept my curiosity.
<"I would like to pay her colony a visit.">
While those words might normally put me on edge and make me assume the worst intentions, for some reason I just could not get that feeling from her. Something in her stare as she scanned the map brought on more a feeling of sadness or frustration than contempt.
I sighed, leaned over the table, and pointed to the farthest colony from ours.
<"This one,"> I assured. <"With how long it took to leave the drylands and make it to the middle cliffs, this is the only possibility.">
<"Thank you, Sagis,"> she said as she scribbled on her piece of paper before laying it out to dry-- a personal map.
<"There is something I do not quite understand, though,"> I started. <"If you are gone, what will happen to this place? What of the other drones?">
After a brief pause, she responded
<"...Sagis, can I make something very clear to you?">
I could not quite help but feel as though I had just gotten into some kind of trouble and felt myself shrink away a little, but Aten simply knelt down in front of me and caught my eyes. I instinctively looked to the floor and braced myself, but her hand gently lifted my chin. I complied, but hesitantly.
<"By now I think you have seen that this colony is very self-sufficient. I have raised them to be independent and capable of keeping their own, both my own children and those from elsewhere, should something happen to me somewhere down the line. I am not the colony, I am part of the colony. I want them to grow up without fearing the wrath of an angry queen each waking moment, without worrying about their safety, without fear of expulsion over so much as an earnest desire to learn-- they are my family, not my laborers. I am sorry that I could not give you the life you deserved until now, but I am doing what I can to provide that for your adulthood. I want you to see, and see very clearly, that not all places are the same, nor are they equal.">
<"...They will be alright?">
<"They will be alright.">
With that she stood up to check her written map, lightly touching the ink to make sure it was dry before rolling it up and stowing it away in some dayclothing.
Aten turned her head and looked back toward me.
<"Is that something you actually want?">
<"W-Well...maybe I could help you? Act as a guide or something?">
<"But is it something you want?">
I grabbed and gently squeezed one arm with my other, diverting my eyes from her to the ground.
<"I owe you a lot,"> I confessed. <"I want to...at least try to repay those debts.">
<"Sagis, you were never in anyone's debt.">
<"Please...just let me do this.">
The moment to pass hung in the air as I waited for some kind of response.
<"...Very well",> she conceded, turning her attention back toward the large map on the table. <"We leave tomorrow at sunset, just after the evening meal. The path we will be taking is lengthy, but provides decent cover and resources should we need it. It will take about a week to get there. Is this still something you want to do?">
<"Then I suggest retreating to your quarters and making arrangements as necessary-- packing lightly, perhaps even turning in early.">
<"Yes, I will do that... Thank you">
With that I ran back to my quarters to arrange for chore cover, pack some small necessities, and see myself to bed in preparation for the week which would follow.
As scheduled, we left the following evening, taking a short stop just north along the coast to take in the sight of the colony grounds from afar on the shallow edges. The grounds were enveloped in a warm orange glow from the setting sun, bringing a new way to see something which had become routine. I had not seen the place from that perspective before, but even Aten stopped with me to take in the view of the sparkling sea, steep coastal cliffs, and the proud stone trees erupting from their shallow valley.
We carefully navigated along the path drawn on Aten's small map, taking pointers and food from nearby colonies willing to offer. We passed through the edge of a dense forest near some lakes, crossed river, and eventually made it to the middle cliffs. Traversing the cliffs took a while, but provided helpful cover when we slept. Once we made it to the big river, we crossed it and walked along the banks between it and the cliffs.
Aten was quiet most of the journey, but in a way I was not used to. Instead of the typical 'contented quiet' it seemed something was bothering her, pushing her to more strict, goal-oriented behaviors. It was clear to me by now that she knew Kyrbri personally, but would not divulge how or why. I mean, it was not my business anyway, but I still worried about her.
After a few days since departure, the landscape made way for the drylands-- an arid sweep between the middle cliffs and the eastern mountains, caused by a rain shadow cast by those mountains. The ground was dry, even cracked in some places, and vegetation as a result was sparse. The general area was shapeless aside from some low craggy hills and valleys or the very occasional cliffs from shifting earth. This was the world I tried to leave, yet here I was returning. Strangely it did not weigh on me like I thought it would, perhaps because I was not returning to live here. Either way, I accompanied Aten and guided the best I could from memory, finding what flora, fauna, and water I could to sustain us during the last leg of our venture. Too soon, however, we reached the final plateau just west of our destination. We took a moment to just look it over in silence until Aten finally spoke.
<"I am not sure what I expected.">
<"Yeah...this is it,"> was all I could muster to say as a chill crept down my spine and I closed my arms.
The more I looked around, the more uncomfortable I became and the tighter I held myself where I stood. Memories of a past life washed over my eyes the more I looked, the more I noticed the damaged bridges, the split trees, and the piles of stone. Frayed ropes littered the discarded skeletons of stone trees, some bridges were outright broken and unusable...just like how I remembered.
Hoping for some kind of solace I looked up toward Aten. She too was taking in the sight laid before her, her expression one of subtle...disappointment, sadness, and disbelief all at the same time. With a sigh she closed her eyes, lowered her nose, and shook her head. The contrast between both people and both places was something like night and day.
<"Are we going in?"> I asked.
<"We have to,"> she said quietly shortly before turning to hike down the side of the plateau.
I followed her closely as we both trekked into the shallow valley and over to the ill-kept stone trees. Upon our arrival, we were halted by surface guards. They were...somehow unsurprisingly accepting of Aten, even offering to hold her clothing so it would not be dirtied by the dust and grit of the trees. They were a little more rough with me, but respected that I was accompanying Aten and left me well enough alone. I wonder if they recognized me or not, because they did not make any strange advances, nor did I hear talk from anyone about my presence.
It was not long before we were being escorted across one of the better bridges to the central tree, the same bridge I used to flee this dreadful place. This time, though, we made it all the way to the end. The drone guards at the entrance received us, quickly looked us over, then granted our entry as they returned to their positions.
We entered the dark hollow of the queen's tree, taking a brief look around the large empty room. Our eyes then set on the figure but ten meters from us as it smiled from its chair.
<"It has been a while, Aten.">
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