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[jujulebee]

I do notice you.I do see it, or, at least god I try. I am grateful beyond what I can say, to mean what I do to you. I dont think I understand it, but I will take it.More than gladly. It makes me happy

oughghgh ill cry tolya ill cryy

[cherrybombflash]

(^:> Have a Happy Valentine!

hey boo happy v day (⌒ω⌒) hope u have a good one ♡

so like, everyones buying and selling flowers an shit today is that like offensive to you or is that not how that works i'm just curious

[throatslug]

What is your character's favorite kind of social event?

They don't seem like the type, but Wyn loves a house party. They don't get invited often, because of the way that they are, but when they do they love it. Someone elses house, obviously. They were a classic 'invite the med student to bring the drugs' case at college, and they did not mind at all they love giving people substances. It's part - everyone is drunk so they won't be outright socially rejected and can have fun - and part - see what weird things you can convince people to take and do before the night is up. Imagine waking up in an ice bath with your kidney missing but you also have a hangover and the ice bath is the communal punch bowl.

[amnoxiousfox]

🖼

@d-d-disgusting

[equiuszahhak]

⚡️What is some thing,where your worth doesnt have to come from what a person sees of you, but one that you are confident in.

D --> My muscles

[stringmeat]

Itching. Anttsiness, and itching aand that feeling you know when you do scratch an itch and it hurts but its too good. Peeling and digging and waiting. Anticipating Disgust and having to swallow it back and losing it and it coming back like a beating. Like a beating or Metal scraping. That song, I have it about memorized,I think.

There is a pattern that rust takes some times.I think the crumbling of rust is very. Very You. Maybe running your own skin over the edge where something has rusted away just.. pressing in. Watching what it does. Whether the rotten metal gives before the skin does or

Youd think. Ive been affecting people. Musically or otherwise. Getting under their skin...

Itd be funny. If I died of, what. Tetanus. Is that it. Fragile, crumbling, infectious. Itching, pressing, peeling. Strain on skin. Raw, violatable skin. What song did I send to you? I cant remember.

[midnight-blue-blood]

🎵 (For Tolya if you'd like!)

You like the warmth of summer nights But you can't escape the call of the winter rain. And I try to keep the light burning bright But can't turn away from the pleasure of my pain.

[streetslost]

( @ found family, what kind of person would Cat want to be around VS what kind of person would be best for her? I always think that the difference between those two things can be fascinating)

                        i asked for questions about softs

the semi annoying thing about cat ( but also delicious ) is honestly, she doesn’t really know.  most of that is because her mood and mental health can change so drastically that, when on the streets, it really affects her viewpoints on the world and people.  on a day-to-day basis, she’ll tend to feign as though she doesn’t need another person around, but when low points hit, all she can think about is how deep and dark the loneliness in her being is.  in the long run, that ache is always there, but her skill with ignoring it or adapting to it varies.

there’s about two core traits she wants out of a person.  the first is that they won’t abandon her.  as long as it’s someone who won’t give up on her, who won’t make things temporary as she’s come to view everything to be... that’s a massive step in the right direction for her.  she’s not even quite so worried about being loved as much as just feeling wanted and like she doesn’t have to worry about whether the person would be there tomorrow or not.  the only other trait she truly desires would be someone who doesn’t mind letting her go off and adventure.  who won’t leave her feeling trapped in any one place or instance or the like.  she doesn’t want having a family or home or even just a positive space with a person to equate to a loss of freedom.  she craves that more in some ways, because she sees her dependency on stealing and struggling to survive as a prison of sorts in its own form ( and then after copper and juvie, she does not do well with the concept of being quite literally trapped or locked up ).

honestly, both of these ideas are good for her.  for obvious reasons, as they are traits most people would want from their family or the like.  loyalty and freedom seem pretty standard and a relationship can’t entirely be considered healthy if these aren’t into play... which is why all the previous relationships cat’s faced have certainly been otherwise.  there are more things that would improve the situation, of course, but cat’s reached the point in her life where she doesn’t ask for much out of people just to feel... okay around them even though she’ll act like she hates the person regardless.

in order to get the full depth of the relationship, however, and to truly feel like she’s part of a family, she needs patience and commitment.  someone who can see how hard she’s trying despite the setbacks of her struggles and personality, and who will be ready to guide her along and help her tackle the harder obstacles that sit in her path.  like learning to take medications that her body and mind need in regard to nutrition and mental health.  cat has the distorted view of seeing medicine has meaning a person is weak.  that they couldn’t handle their own issues, and then with being on the streets, she’s seen the horrible stigmas attached to people who have disorders and the like.

she really doesn’t want to be like that, and tends to act as though she’s far from struggling when she knows that’s a complete lie.  however, lying about her state of mind and such seems less risky than letting anyone see the truth, because it rarely seems to work out from her perspective ( since she doesn’t really go into shelters or the like, however, she isn’t really seeing when people get proper help and not just the treatment afforded them on the sidewalk ).

she needs someone stimulating and fun or at least someone who can keep her occupied with chores or suggestions.  if cat grows bored, she faults back into old habits.  if the other isn’t doing things specifically with her or for her, they need to help her find things she can do on her own ( gardening, for example ).  cat doesn’t take to phones and television too much other than some very specific instances, so occupying her time is more of a challenge.  and if no one helps guide her down more positive experiences, she will steal for fun or get into fights and basically revert to what she knows best and believes she can get away with.

when cat enters a home or a safe place or is with someone who helps her feel safe, she basically reverts somewhat to the mind of the child she never got to be, but a more rebellious, angry, and troublesome version.  not fully, of course, but unless the person is treating her like copper and expecting full obedience and whatnot, her brain doesn’t know what to do if not in survival mode.  so it finds a stage where she is ready to learn about the world differently... and she was young the last time she was like that.

of course, she doesn’t and won’t see herself as ten years old, she doesn’t behave fully like that, but she’s open to learning, easier to bore, a bit confused and misinformed on a number of subjects, and her humor is a bit crass and stupid ( puns and rather childish pranks in many ways ).  she also tends to become a bit clingy or latch on to those who give her the care she really needs.

essentially, cat does best with parental like figures or older sibling like figures.  she can work with those younger than her because she will take on a motherly behavior herself, but that doesn’t necessarily mean she’s with the sort of person who is best for her.  i do think cat needs that chance to “grow up” and just feel young for a time.  even in my verse where she reunites with scott, she has amy and jon who take her in and support her on this sort of journey, and other adult figures to guide her and help her, and then scott is able to kindle the friendship that helps solidify her growth and such.

....at this point i’m no longer sure i’m answering the question or if i’m just rambling so i’mma stop now, i think i got it down xD