#d: mason

[sebthealchemist-blog]

solarmason replied to your post: ★

How much better could you possibly know me??

I want to keep learning. Why is that a fuckin crime, McCarthy?

[acuppaleigh]

masemichelle replied to your photo: @lolaalvarez posted an instagram:  it’s you, it’s...

fuck you

Ask nicely.

[sebthealchemist-blog]

★

I like you // I love you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’d kill you if I got the chance // I want you to like me // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I pity you // I respect you // I trust you // I feel protective of you // I’d invite you with me to parties // I’d lend you my money // I’d borrow your money // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // I’m upset with you // You’re nice // You’re mean // I’m envious of you // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I look up to you // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

[sebthealchemist-blog]

[About 20 minutes after the unanswered text, there's a scratching at Sebastian's door. Sabia is sitting in front of his door, pawing at it patiently, on orders to be as soft and gentle and as cuddly as possible for however long is necessary.]

[Sebastian finally gets irritated enough by the strange sounds at his door to open it. He stares at Sabia, clearly confused. She sees herself in. He closes the door and without a word, kneels down next to her.]

“Please don’t tell him.”

[He barely manages to choke out the phrase before his composure is lost, a strangled sob escaping his throat. He buries his face in her fur, searching desperately for some small form of comfort and warmth.

Why did he feel so hopeless? Why did he feel so disgusted with himself? Why couldn’t he force himself to feel the way he needed to? To make he and Madison work? He felt empty. And broken. A shell of the once confident man he used to pride himself on being. Where was that man? Would he find him again? He honestly wasn’t sure.]

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solarmason replied to your post: Klosh, Typewriter

To explain what you’ve ‘seen’? How ominous!

Shut it, McCarthy.

[sebthealchemist-blog]

solarmason replied to your post: I lava you. ♥

My sister would never sass anyone, Seb, c'mon. We’re a sassless family.

Sassless family my ass, McCarthy!

[sebthealchemist-blog]

[Mason slides a note beneath Sebastian's door. He can't quite handle a face-to-face conversation yet, but his familiar had insisted that he not give up on the hard things they both knew he had to do. The note reads:]

Seb -

I'm really sorry. Mads says 'sorry' is just a word and I have to do something along with it, but I don't really know what to do about you, except maybe explain? I'm sorry for messing with you that night. I was just trying to poke at you a little bit and then it got out of hand and I sort of freaked. This isn't even the first time I've done that to you so I can't even be like, don't worry, it won't happen again. But I'll try to keep it under better control next time and talk to you instead of doing whatever that was cause that wasn't really fair to you, or to Madison.

Speaking of - she said she had a great time. Good job, & congrats!! I hope you had just as much fun as she did! I'm really, honestly, very happy that you two are whatever you two are. You deserve it, okay? Don't mess it up. Speaking from experience it's completely not worth it to lose something important over something that could've been avoided. And you're important to her. To the both of us.

Thanks for bringing her back safe & happy. Hope your first day went okay! I'll see you around.

- Mase

[Sebastian sighs as he reads the note. A million things go through his mind and he doesn't really know where to start. He reads again and again until, carefully, he folds it up and tucks it into the small sketchbook he keeps in his nightstand.]

[sebthealchemist-blog]

✔, ⊗, ⚘!

You’re the worst.

✔ : What are three things you want to accomplish by the end of the year? 1) Find my familiar??? 2) Live through this semester 3) Get better at making lists.

⊗ : Already answered, babe.

⚘ : Who is your role model? I don’t know. Someone hot, probably.