“You look like you put the Three Broomsticks out of business.”
The thought ran through Mary's head, though she was wise enough to bite her tongue. Molly didn't deserve the backlash of Mary's disoriented anger and annoyance, though that didn't mean she didn't feel those things.
"I can't say I didn't try." She slumped, letting her fingers circle the rim of her glass, unwilling to make eye contact with Molly, despite the fact that she could feel her gaze pressing hard on her. Molly had looked at her like this, and every single time she did, Mary wanted to scream at her to stop. Molly was worried and concerned, things that anyone who even payed an ounce of attention to Mary should feel. She was a freight train barreling down faster than she or anyone else for that matter could control.
Mary could hear Mary sigh, and new she was in for one of Molly's caring lectures, but she wasn't in the mood for it. "You know that's not going to help." Molly trailed, her voice soft and motherly. Mary cared for Molly, she really did, and the sincerity in her voice was almost enough to make Mary put down the class and sleep off the alcohol, but rarely did Mary ever do the right thing.
"You think I don't know that?" Mary snapped, immediately wanting to take back her tone and apologize, but her fire was being fueled, and Mary couldn't stop. "Do you honestly think I wouldn't be able to have learned that by now? I'm not an idiot Molly, and I'm not spending my night drinking so I wake up better the next morning. I'm drinking so that I can stop feeling. I'm drinking so that for one bloody second, I can pretend that ever moment I'm alive it's not all hurt and death and doom. Alright? So spare me the heart felt lecture, because you'll killing my buzz." She stood abruptly, taking a bottle of whiskey and her glass with her, and leaving Molly at the Orders kitchen table alone. Mary left the room, pausing to lean against the wall to listen to what Molly would do next; maybe she would call another member in to discuss Mary's inevitable intervention, or maybe she would mumble under her breath about how Mary was a lost cause. I weak, reckless, link to the Order, but Molly simply remained at the table.
Molly was a better person than Mary, not that it took a genius to know that. Molly genuinely cared when others didn't, and she wanted to see each and ever member make it out of this war alive. She deserved in apology, but Mary knew she needed to do it when she could get her words straight. When she would mean it. She bent down, placing the bottle and glass just outside of the kitchen doorframe, and then headed to bed.