#dad mentioned

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Going to my therapist one last time to listen to my parents argue with him. :/ Wish me luck.

[chaoticlycharlie]

Making plans for what to do for Akechi's birthday, and I nearly completely forgot it was also my dad's birthday on the same day. Again.

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vent ahead

I had a talk with my parents about my mental health. According to them I just have to rawdog it until I turn 18. :/ Doesn't help me. In fact it makes everything worse as I have a feeling they don't care.

Kinda weird. They have a desire for control over everything but at the same time talk about how I'd be giving up my freedom if I made that choice (not elaborating). I'm starting to think they just like the feeling of power over me at this point.

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Warning vent ahead

ok so appearantly my parents decided to cancel my therapy sessions (lowkey kinda one of the few things stopping me from doing stupid things on multiple occasions) and do family therapy instead (a place where I doubt I'll be able to voice my opinion without repercussions at home) so yeah. That'll be fun.

Gotta love being a minor and not having a say in anything at all as well as any laws that'd give a minor any legal power being blurry as fuck. /sarc

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Vent-ish story

so I went somewhere with my parents where I had signed up using my preferred name. It went well. The woman even used the right pronouns in the beginning

Key word: beginning.

That is until my parents kept using she/her pronouns and she kept slipping into it as well.

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Convo I just had with my dad (I thought it was funny)

Dad: We're getting Chinese food, do you want rice (i love the rice there)

Me: yes!

Dad: how much?

Me: how big can it get??

Dad: shows

Me: yes

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good things that happened today (or yesterday bc I am an idiot who can't go to bed on time)

packed my bags

acceptable food (shout out to my parents)

kitty was behaving absolutely adorably today

brushed my teeth

showered and washed my hair (!!!!! which was important bc it was nasty)

cleaned the bathroom. Somewhat. It's good enough.

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Update about my previous vent

I attempted to talk to my parents about the bodily autonomy thing regarding my leg. I used a template on how to communicate that you're upset while remaining respectful that I found on the internet because I'd fuck it up otherwise.

Mom took it well and she apologised. Dad didn't. I think he took it as a personal attack considering the electric knee was his idea. I couldn't finish my sentences without him interrupting. But I got the information across eventually. :/ Then mom came back and started making excuses about how they're old and can't change anymore. I'm a bit sceptical of that. idk.

While I'm not spiraling as much anymore I still feel bad. Which is sad bc I want to enjoy summer break without having to deal with stuff like this. I think I'm gonna cry anyway.