Why I want to be a dad blog/vlogger in my future
There are two goals I have always wanted to reach in my future, the first is being a teacher and the second is being a parent. Through all the ups and down in my life those desires have never changed. Now I don’t know if that means I’ll be a conventional school teacher or just a sort of mentor personality or teach in theatre and dance my favorite hobbies/passions, I do know that my desire to be a teacher stems from the same want to be a parent.
I want to be able to enrich the lives of young people the way my dance teachers and some of my school teachers did with me. However I don’t think my parents took the opportunity to do that with me and so I really want that for my own kids. With that I know that I have some somewhat radical ideas about raising kids, like enforcing gender neutrality and having strict rules on the media they view not because I am afraid of inherited violence or profanity through media but because of the negative stereotypes that are put into the world through media outlets like t.v. and magazines.
I want to share my idea with the world and have loved sharing my life through videos and social media thus far. I started my transition from female to male through tumblr and social media. I found like minded people through these outlets as a teen, when I previously thought I was alone. So wanting to be a parent while trans and gay is another part of me I want to share. Being someone in a relationship with another transperson, being so similar and yet having such different ways of expressing our identities, is something I want to share.
My boyfriend and I constantly talk about the future, about when we want to marry, and when we want to have kids, how many, how to have them. Although nothing is set or certain about what life and what God will bring us, we love sharing these desires with each other and I want to share that with the world.
My life is unconventional and complicated and so will my kids lives be, but I want to give them a loving and caring and supportive family structure that neither I nor my partner got to really grow up in. I want my kids to know I will be there every step of the way not only to make sure they have the things they need but as a support and a friend and a teacher to them.
I want to share this love I have for my possibly unborn children with the world. I want to bear children which is a particular difficult concept to grasp as a transmasculine but non binary person, but I also want to adopt as someone who was adopted themselves. I want the world to hear my story so if anyone out there thinks they are alone but could possibly relate in anyway to me and my life and desires knows they aren’t alone at all.
