summary: after being a wallflower throughout your first five years at hogwarts, you always thought that you could be invisible. but when you hear the marauders talking cruelly about you and proceeding to ask for your forgiveness after, well good luck babe.
warnings: eventual smut! 18+ heavy angst, cursing, reader wants to kill the marauders , swearing, unprotected sex, praise, oral (male receiving), jealousy
a/n: oh hey... this is kinda based on those cliche 2000's movies where the girl is ugly but not really and she has that glow up or whatever. this was written so quick and not proofread, don't kill me. i hope you enjoy and as always, i apologize if you hate this!
STARTING off your sixth year at Hogwarts being an entirely new person wasn't something that you had planned or expected.
On the inside, you felt exactly the same, the same girl who was bold and could ferociously win a fight when it came to her character.
The same girl who was witty and sarcastic, surprising half of the people around you when you made a joke once in a lifetime.
But on the outside, you didn't have an awkward mis-shaped bob and you no longer wore baggy jackets that didn't do a thing for your figure.
And you didn't hide your face anymore, trying your best to be invisible.
It wasn't that you were shy or that you felt like a loser but you thought social hierarchy was bullshit and the only thing you wanted to focus on was your studies.
You may have been a brave Gryffindor on the inside but on the outside, you had to play the part of a shy mouse as corny as that sounds.
Unfortunately for you, invisibility only tends to last for so long until one moment, you are a nobody and then all eyes are upon you.
And maybe, just maybe, if you hadn't heard the Marauders discussing you the previous year, you would have stayed the same.
You had passed by the boys dormitory to give Remus his textbooks back as you always did when you let you borrow when you heard them speaking of the very person behind the door,
"I still have yet to understand why Lily and the rest of them act like she's some charity case," James huffed, "I mean, she's not some sick patient, they only feel the need to pity her because of how she looks."
You always knew that James had a foul mouth but to be speaking about someone like this, it was cruel.
Remus hissed, "That's not nice Prongs,"
"I'm not even saying it to be a dick!" James groaned, "I just mean, I pity her more for the fact that they don't even invite her to anything outside of breakfast and dinner," He explained, causing Remus to go silent.
Sirius chuckled, shaking his head. "That's absolutely horrid."
James reclined on his bed, a smirk playing on his lips. "I’m just saying, if I were Y/N, I’d be mortified."
Your eyes widened as they began to water, they were speaking about you.
Remus leaned against the wall, a thoughtful expression crossing his face. "Maybe she just doesn’t want to hang out with Lily and the others."
"Moony, seriously," James shot back, sitting up. "Where is Y/N right now, and where are the other girls?" His eyebrow cocked, trying to make his point as Remus silenced.
Sirius raised an eyebrow, a glint of mischief in his eyes. "Why don’t we investigate for ourselves?" He unfolded the Marauder's Map with a flourish. "Alright, we’ve got Lily, Dorcas, Mary, and Marlene all at Hogsmeade, but Y/N is..." His voice trailed off, eyes narrowing.
James leaned closer, annoyance creeping into his tone as he grabbed the map, "She's-" He stopped, the color fading from his face.
"Fucking spit it out!" Remus said next as he snatched the map finally and saw that the map had shown that you were right outside their door.
"Shit!" You heard Remus say as he started making his way to the door.
Hearing his footsteps approaching, you quickly moved away from the door, bolting for your room.
Once you made it back to your dorm, you had sinked the floor. You put your hand on your mouth, muffling yourself as you cried silently.
You honestly hated to even say it but you did consider Lily and the rest of them your friends. You had never really thought about how they didn't invite you to places.
And if you were being truthful, they had never asked you to have breakfast or dinner with them.
You had always just assumed that you could join but they never told you to leave or swooshed you off. Another part of you hated how stupid you were, trying to intrude on their private time.
You didn't want to let it get to you what a bunch of seventeen year old boys were saying but it did sting horribly.
But in a way, it also motivated you to be who you were on the inside. You already had the top marks in your entire year and your plan to work in the Ministry after Hogwarts had already been set.
And now your chance to be something at Hogwarts was right in front of you, an opportunity that you couldn't miss.
You had to do it for yourself.
The Marauders had no idea who you truly were or even cared to know. And although Remus was kind to you, you could always see that he never made any effort to be your friend.
Not that you expected him to but it only taught you that they truly thought you were some hopeless case.
And an assignment to make the Marauders bite their tongues was one that you couldn't bare to fail.
After hearing that, you decided to avoid the Marauders for the next month, especially with summer break approaching. To your surprise, you barely saw them outside of classes, never giving them a chance to reach out—even Remus.
And then that summer, everything changed. You let your hair grow past your shoulders, embracing your natural curls instead of straightening them. You started wearing clothes that were trendy and form-fitting, a huge contrast to your old style.
You discovered a newfound love for self-care, enjoying the process far more than you expected. Each day felt like a transformation, and by the end of summer, your mother couldn’t help but notice. “Finally listening to me about your style, huh?” she teased.
You only laughed as you embraced her,
If only she knew what had caused it in the first place.
As you said goodbye to your family, anticipation mingled with dread. You knew the train ride would be the least of your worries, but the welcome dinner and the ceremony ahead felt like they might just be hell reincarnate.
As you entered Hogwarts, you admired it as much as you did when you were a first year. The castle was something you considered a second home and everything about it was magical, there was no doubting that.
A crowd of students, including yourself, moved toward the Great Hall, and you settled into your usual seat at the Gryffindor table.
You spotted the Marauders and the usual group of girls approaching, and you couldn’t help but roll your eyes. They took their usual spots in front of you, with the girls on one side and the boys on the other. James sat beside you, and Lily was directly in front of him.
You never quite understood why they arranged themselves like that, but it hardly mattered in the moment.
They were busy in conversation before James had noticed someone next to him, his eyes widening. You couldn't quite read his face but it seemed like a mix of confusion and flustered.
You stared at him back but he still had yet to mutter a word. You cleared your throat, "Uh hello," You practically whispered.
He snapped back into reality, "Oh sorry, hi," He muttered back.
Silence took over you both as James couldn't find the words of what to say to you.
On one hand, he wanted to call you beautiful, to tell you that you were one of the prettiest girls he’d ever seen. On the other, he just wanted to stare at you for a few more minutes like a creep.
Lily noticed his gaze and leaned in, smirking. "Excuse my friend; we’re still trying to figure out if he has a brain."
"I thought we solved that decades ago," Marlene chimed in, stifling a laugh.
Lily turned to you with a curious smile. "I don’t believe I’ve seen you before. What’s your name?"
Are you actually fucking kidding me?
You scoffed, "I'm Y/N,"
The entire group looked at you in awe, even the ones who weren't chimed in on the conversation.
"Y/N L/N?" Sirius asked, mouth gaping.
"Yep, that one," You snorted.
They all looked like they had seen a ghost, "You look different," Marlene said as Mary shoved her.
"She means in a good way!" Mary added.
"Uh thanks," You said, awkwardly.
They all continued to stare at you like you were an exhibit in a museum, their eyes scanning you up and down.
"Do you all mind not staring at me?" you asked, trying to break the tension. They all looked away, feigning innocence as they muttered apologies.
"How have you been?" Lily asked, clearly trying to ease the awkwardness.
"Fine," you replied, your tone clipped.
You caught the pained expressions on the Marauders' faces, realizing they were the reason for your dismissive attitude.
"That's great," Lily said, forcing a smile.
You felt a wave of frustration at the awkwardness surrouding you and decided it was time to escape. "I'm gonna go to the bathroom," you announced, heading toward the exit before they could respond.
As you walked away, you could already here the mutters and whispers emerging from the table, the fascinating topic being you.
You paced as you heard footsteps trailing behind you, but you ignored them, letting your gaze wander around the castle.
"Y/N!" someone called out, startling you.
You turned to see Sirius, James, and Remus hurrying after you. You only let out a snort before continuing your same way.
A hand suddenly reached around your forearm as you turned to see Remus. You quickly snatched your hand away, finally stopping to look at the group of boys who you despised.
Crossing your arms, you shot them a hostile look. "What?"
"We just wanna—"
"We're so—"
"Listen, we just—"
They all spoke at once, but you scoffed and turned back toward the bathroom, starting to walk away.
You were hoping that they would realize you wanted nothing to do with them but instead, it only made them want to chase you more.
They quickened their pace, and you spun around sharply. "For fuck's sake, what do you want?" you snapped.
James took a breath, his expression earnest. "I'm sorry for what I said. I've been thinking about it since you left. I was an awful twat, and you didn't deserve a thing of what I said."
You let out a sarcastic laugh, "Are you serious?" You asked as your expression changed to furious, "You basically called me a loser and said that Lily and the rest of them were only hanging out with me out of pity,"
James hissed as your statement, feeling the razor in your voice.
"-And now you all want to act as if I should just forgive you since I don't look the same anymore," You got closer to James's face, "Fuck off."
You turned your heel again and this time, the boys didn't follow you.
You finally entered the bathroom and shut the door behind you. Staring at your reflection in the mirror, you struggled to read the expression on your face. You were furious at the Marauders, and the idea of forgiving them felt impossible.
Yet, there was a flicker of gratitude that you felt for the change you’d undergone. You’d gained a new confidence that felt good, but the sting of their cruel words still lingered in your mind.
And you knew that you couldn't let it get to you but knowing they thought that of you, even Remus. It still did things to you that you would never admit out loud.
Snapping out of your thoughts, you realized it was almost time to head to the dormitory.
The rest of the night had flown by, with first years being introduced to their new home for the next six years while everyone else relaxed in the common room. Despite curfews, fifth years and above knew they could hang out longer—the curfew was mostly for the first years anyway.
"Caput Draconis," you muttered, and the Fat Lady nodded, granting you entrance.
Stepping into the common room, your heart sank as you spotted the last group you wanted to see. They noticed you just as quickly, encouraging you to pick up your pace toward the dorm.
"Hey, Y/N!" Dorcas called out, making you wince as you turned to see her waving.
The Marauders looked down, shame etched on their faces, avoiding your gaze as if you were Medusa.
You approached them slowly, dread settling in your stomach as they eyed you like a science project.
"We were just about to play a fun little game," Dorcas said enticingly, while Marlene snorted beside her.
"I don’t know if Spin the Bottle is a great idea for the first night back," Marlene added, taking a sip of her beer.
"A little peck never hurt anyone," Lily chimed in, clapping her hands together.
Of all people, you’d never expect Lily Evans to approve such a thing. This was the same girl who nearly fainted when she heard about Marlene and Dorcas kissing the previous year.
"I don’t know if this is the game for me," you replied, eyeing the group warily.
"Of course it is!" Lily insisted, but you raised an eyebrow. "Oh my gosh! Not like that, I just mean it's a fun game for us all to play," she quickly added, looking flustered.
Part of you wanted to say no and retreat to your bed, but that was the old you, and you knew it wouldn’t help. This was a new year, and you were determined to embrace new experiences.
Besides, you’d never participated in any scandalous games for all of the years you've been at Hogwarts—it felt like a crime in itself.
So, after a moment’s hesitation, you said, "Okay, sure." The girls erupted in cheers, while the Marauders exchanged worried glances.
What if you had to kiss one of them? Would you refuse and create a scene? Would you want to strangle them for even suggesting it?
The possibilities raced through their mind, but there was no turning back as everyone began to form a circle.
As you sat in the circle, a shiver of nervousness enveloped you. You had never kissed anyone before and the whole thought made you nervous within itself.
Don't get it wrong, you've had chances but they never seemed right and you certainly weren't kissing Matthew Trunchbull underneath the bleachers of the Quidditch field.
So when you got offered a shot of firewhiskey to cool your nerves by Marlene, you took it happily as it burned down your throat.
You brushed off all the negative thoughts entering your mind,
I was listening to angry rap and this happend. Angry Daddy Sirius Black everyone, please enjoy..got carried away slightly
Warning: 18+, Daddy kink, punishment, and yes some good smut
“Get the fuck over here, right now!”, Sirius yells at you, veins in his neck bulging with suppressed anger.
You flinch slightly, not expecting the volume of his tone. In his defense, you’ve been an absolute brat today and honestly any other dom would have bend you over their knee already. You steel yourself and sneer at him.
“The hell I will!”, you scream back, voice shrill.
“If you don’t get the fuck over here right now”, he says, closing his eyes briefly to take a deep breath, “you won’t be able to talk properly for days.”
That got you attention and you froze. You really fucked up this time. Sirius took your hesitation as stalling and cracks his neck, rolling the sleeves of his shirt up to his forearms.
He stands up, eyes blazing with anger, not matching his overly soft voice as he mutters. “Tell me puppy”, Sirius coos, taking your face in his hands, fingers digging into your cheeks, “who the fuck are you to deny me what I want, hm?”
You were scared shitless now, trembling slightly as you tried to move away, but his gaze only got angrier and he pinched you face harder. His brows furrowed, jaw clenching as he asked again, voice still as light as a feather. “Well, who the fuck are you?”
You whimper, “M’your good puppy, Daddy.”
“No, try again.”
You rake your brain, trying to think of something when you blurt out, “M’your cock slut, Daddy. M’your toy.”
He smiles at you menacingly, voice still eerily calm. “Yes, you’re my dumb puppy. You are here to obey me, aren’t you?”
You were tearing up now, with the force behind his big hands on your face. “Yes Daddy.”
“And yet, I have to punish you, how unfortunate...”, his voice darkend, thick with anger as he finally let his face fall into a sneer, not holding back anymore.
Pushing you down on your knees, he trapped you between the wall and himself. You could only watch as he undid his belt buckle, the metal clinking harshly. He took the belt and tied it around your neck, the buckle now pressing against the front of your neck, no doubt leaving deep bruises. Not that Sirius cared, he loved bruising your skin just as much as you loved seeing them the next morning.
Wrapping the belt around his fist tightly he pulls you forward and you let out a gasp as the metal pushes into the delicate skin on your neck.
“Shut the fuck up, you knew this was coming. You know Daddy doesn’t like his sluts bratty...”, he grunts above you and feeds you his cock, fucking your face. You gag as he hit the back of your throat repeatedly, you were completely at his mercy as he kept thrusting into your mouth, belt tightening around your neck.
“Look so pretty like this puppy, mouth stuffed with my cock. Like a good cockwhore fuuck” he moans out as his hand tighten around the belt in his hand.
You glance up at him, straining against the vice like grip of the belt and take in what you see. His hair slicked back neatly, a stark constrast to his expression. His mouth open, pink tongue licking his lips as he let out slight pants. The veins on his neck were visible with the effort he made not to let out moans, fist flexing around the belt.
Your chest was heaving at the effort it took to take him so deeply, head leaning against the wall. Your eyes were glassy with tears, mascara smeared on your bottom lashes, your lipstick leaving marks on his abdomen everytime he pushed into your mouth.
None of that mattered though, not when he felt this good being burried inside your mouth, felt so fucking warm down your throat.
“Suck whore, suddenly can’t take my cock right? Gotta teach you a lesson for that as well?”
You whined, the vibrations making him feral and you pushed against his thick thighs, barely able to breathe.
“Keep making your stupid little noises, puppy. S’not like m’gonna do what you say..”
His hot cock was all the way down your throat, throbbing against your tongue and he moaned as he felt the buckle tighten around his cock through your throat. He was shaking now, holding himself up against the wall as he forced your head down, fucking your face.
“You better swallow all of my cum, puppy” he snarked as he pushed your head down on him completely, nose pressed against his pubic bone.
You take him, wanting to please him, wanting his forgiveness as you cried harder, nails digging into his skin. A feral growl escapes his lips as he comes in hot spurts down your throat. The belt falls from his fist and his hand joins the other one on the wall to hold himself up. His head is tilted towards you, black eyes watching closely as he lets you clean him up.
Putting himself back in his pants he crouches down infront of you, pressing a barley there kiss on your tear streaked skin and whispers hotly in your ear.
“M’letting you off for now, but watch it puppy or it won’t be only your throat hurting next time.”
Your voice came out meek and hoarse, as you leaned your head against his and let out a “Yes, Daddy”
summary: after being a wallflower throughout your first five years at hogwarts, you always thought that you could be invisible. but when you hear the marauders talking cruelly about you and proceeding to ask for your forgiveness after, well good luck babe.
warnings: eventual smut! 18+ heavy angst, cursing, reader wants to kill the marauders , swearing, unprotected sex, praise, oral (male receiving), jealousy
a/n: i've been completely MIA, sorry.. i saw this in my drafts, and i was like, let me just continue it. this ended off kind of weird, but there will be smut in the next part! i'm gonna attempt to finish every series.. hopefully. i haven't written in a bit, so i apologize if you hate it. see u next time!
Peter flushed tomato red when the bottle landed on him, and Evan smiled at him in a very seductive way. As long as you've known him, Evan did have a lot of charm—nearly as much as Sirius.
Evan was a close second, though perhaps not Sirius, given his overwhelming appeal.
'Whoops' and applause echoed around the circle as Evan gently crept toward Peter, crawling on his hands and knees.
Peter gulped, sitting still in his seat as Evan rose above him and whispered something in his ear, causing Peter to gasp.
Evan took this opportunity to kiss him slowly and gently, his hands on either side of Peter's face.
You looked around to see everyone's reactions but everyone was either egging it on or talking to each other. You couldn't believe this was the same group you had been 'friends' with last school year.
After what felt like years, Evan finally broke away from Peter, leaving him a swift peck on the cheek as Peter closed his legs together and blushed from the teasing of Dorcas and Marlene.
Your eyes landed on the bottle as Sirius began to grab it for his turn. His eyes were on the bottle as they lifted up to wink at you which made you swallow.
He spun it and it landed on the person next to him, Remus. You honestly expected Remus to have the same reaction as Peter but he actually looked bored at the fact that it was Sirius.
Even Sirius noticed it, "Aw, not excited to kiss me love?" He asked, faking a pout.
Remus smirked, "You think you deserve a kiss after the shit you pulled today?" He asked, using his hands as stands to keep him up as he faced Sirius.
Sirius's pout quickly turned into a matching smirk with Remus, "Have I been bad?" He asked, inching towards him.
You felt butterflies, or maybe a little below your stomach. Were they actually flirting?
"Enough with the foreplay!" Marlene whined, "Get the kiss over with!"
"Yeah," James said with a smile as he sipped his fire whiskey, "Nothing you haven't done before."
Your eyes widened at that as Sirius shrugged and went in for the kiss with Remus. Remus had a hand on his cheek while Sirius intensely grabbed Remus's hair, growing deeper into the kiss.
Sirius was almost climbing into Remus's lap as a moan erupted from Remus's mouth and you felt a tightening in your stomach.
There was no way this was actually happening.
You saw Sirius smile into the kiss as he pulled away, wiping his mouth, "Still bored?" He asked as Remus waved him off with a flushed look his face.
"As much as I don't want to give Sirius another ego boost, that was extremely hot," Mary admitted, sipping her drink.
"Everything's hot about me baby," Sirius replied, winking at Mary as she scowled.
Sirius took a look at you as you quickly avoided his eye contact which was clearly a mistake.
He spoke, "I actually think our dear Y/N should go," He announced, "She seems like she's never played before," He tsked.
Steam almost flew out of your ears as you spoke, "Actually, I think the whole point is to go around in a circle, Black," You spat as Sirius only smiled.
"Oh," His voice dripping in mockery, "I'm sorry, Y/N, if you're feeling a bit scared, you don't have to go," He spoke as your fists clenched.
"Yeah Y/N," Lily gave you a genuine smile, "You don't have to go yet if you don't want to," She hummed as several people in the circle agreed, acting as if Sirius was being genuine.
This only made your face warm up as you sat up, annoyance all over your face, "Actually Lily, I do think I should go to be fair, I'm actually feeling a bit brave," You sent a mocking smile to Sirius as you dragged the bottle back in the circle and spun it.
As it spun, you nervously bit your lip.
Since the girls were sweet and you could probably get away with just given them a peck, you wouldn't mind if it were any of them.
Or perhaps even Evan, who you liked because he certainly wasn't ugly and genuinely seemed kind.
Even Peter, he would most likely be as nervous as you and you probably wouldn't have to kiss for long.
Just anybody—aside from the three arrogant, blithering, shitheads—
James looked like a deer in headlights as the bottle fell straight onto him. He looked at you, and your expression was exactly the same.
"Well come on lovebirds!" You stood motionless in nervousness as Evan cheered.
You swallowed as James moved towards you slowly, your eyes tracing his every move. His eyes were locked onto you like you were the only person in the room.
Your gaze shifted to Sirius, and his arrogant demeanor had softened; he was now observing you and James differently.
You had never seen Sirius become stiff in his life, but it seemed as though his eyes had darkened and his entire demeanor had shifted.
Remus had almost the same expression when you turned to face him, but he seemed more anxious than anything else, as though he was unsure of what to anticipate.
"Y/N," James said as your gaze returned to him. "I've wanted to do this since last school year," he said softly, in a whisper.
As he leaned in and gave you a gentle peck on the cheek, your expression shifted to one of disbelief.
All outside cheers and hollering had been muffled, making it seem as though you two were the only people in the room. It felt like you could feel every sense ten times more than normal.
After giving you another glance, he moved in and kissed you, feeling his soft, plump lips as his hands gently gripped the sides of your face.
At first, the kiss was tender, with him giving you a deep, meaningful kiss. After that, it began to feel like the stress, the rage, and the words from that evening. His tongue invaded your mouth unexpectedly as a moan escaped from your mouth.
Your mouth fought against his as you both deepened into the kiss, your hands running through his soft curls.
He abruptly pulled away from you, staring at you while you both gasped and caught your breath. You were certain that he couldn't read your expression, but you couldn't read him either.
James was flushed, his chest heaving as he looked at you in astonishment.
You always knew that James was beautiful but in this state he was ethereal.
You were certain that while your state was comparable to his, it was probably not as lovely.
Marlene was the first to speak, "That was more steamy than I thought it would be," while taking a drag from her cigarette.
You were snapped out of your thoughts, "I actually have to be in bed, huge reading to catch up on," You said hurried to your feet. You started to hurry away and excused yourself.
Lily said, "Oh, I see. See you tomorrow!" She waved you away, looking a little perplexed and anxious.
--
You gently closed the door, careful to not wake up your roommates as you changed out of your school clothes and into your nightwear.
There were multiple feelings racing through you,
"I've wanted to do this since last school year."
It confused you.
James had been nothing but horrid to you.
All the things he had said about you and how much of a loser you basically were. Now he had wanted to kiss you since last school year? It didn't make sense to you.
And the kiss.
You didn't feel disgusted with it, in fact, you enjoyed it.
Your body was happy in ways you hadn't experienced in a long time, even if your conscious mind wasn't.
But James was a jerk and a boy you had hated all summer, so you couldn't feel that way about him.
In fact, you had promised yourself you wouldn't.
One night couldn't change what you had worked so hard for. You couldn't let them take your self-respect again.
It wasn't worth it.
As you lay in bed, you closed your eyes and wished that the tingles in your body and the restless thoughts in your head would stop.
Hoping to leave this night into some intense nightmare.
"Y/N," When you moaned and shook them off, the voice said, "Don't be a twat right now, I am already about to be late as is, wake up!" You let out a loud grunt and opened your eyes to discover a displeased Penelope staring at you as the loudness of the voice increased.
"Shit, what time is it?" You asked, your eyes widening.
"Time to get to bloody class, have you lost your mind?" As you hurriedly sat up and searched through your cupboard for clothing, she said in an increasingly anxious tone.
With frustration, you groaned, "There's no way I slept in again."
"Um, there is a way," Penelope chuckled. "I've been telling you to fix that janky alarm clock since last school year or to even enchant one but no, you stick with it," She huffed, eyeing said alarm clock with intense hatred.
She crossed her arms and looked at you. "I don't even understand why I wake you up, I should've just gone to class," she said, crossing her arms.
"Because you are a good housemate and friend and you sincerely love me," You replied as she struggled to contain the ghost of a smile. "But as much as you love me, get to class!" You urged, "I'll meet you there."
She looked at you hesitantly, "Are you sure?"
"Go!" You rushed her off as she shrugged, grabbing her bag.
"Don't be late," She winked, leaving and closing the door.
Rolling your tights up your legs before your skirt, you rolled your eyes. Even though you looked like a complete disaster when you looked in the mirror, it was sufficient for the day. You hurriedly put on your shoes, picked up your bag, and left the room.
You practically ran down the hallways in order to get to your class, being warned several times by Professors around you to slow down, you always murmuring an apology before continuing a speed walk.
You finally made it in front of the Charms room, and you slowed down your breathing as you entered. You avoided gazes from the entire class as you started walking to find your seat.
"Oh nice to see you Ms. L/N!" Professor Flitwick happily said, "Please sit next to Mr. Lupin," He instructed before giving you a nod and continuing his lesson.
You weren't surprised that Flitwick wasn't mad at you, he had always been extremely nice to you since you had met him.
Your jaw tensed as Remus watched your movements as you sat next to him.
Remus had eyed you multiple times since you sat down throughout the lesson, his eyes glazing over you every two minutes.
You sighed, "What is it, Lupin?" You asked, your eyes still focused on the front.
He looked shocked that you had spoken to him, "Sorry, what?" He asked, staring at you.
You looked at him, "Well, you have been glancing over at me for about every two minutes now, so I'm assuming you have something to say." You said, his mouth gaping, that you had actually said that to him.
"I just wanna talk about what you overheard last year," He started as your eyes went back to the front.
"I don't want to speak about it," You murmured.
Remus frowned, "I just don't want you to think we meant something we didn't." He said as you scoffed.
"So you didn't mean that I was basically a sad case and that you felt bad for me, you all practically mocked me," You countered.
He fiddled with his fingers, "I know what it sounded like, but I swear-" He began.
Professor Flitwick bellowed, "And for this project, you will work with the pairs behind you." Everyone turned behind them as he spoke.
The idea of working with Lupin made your stomach turn, but you were relieved that others would be working with both of you rather than just him.
However, when you turned to look behind you, your gaze met Sirius, the most annoyingly charming person you couldn't seem to forget.
And James, his accomplice.
You gasped in shock, swearing they had never been there before, and then suddenly they were.
"Oh great love, we are gonna be partners!" Sirius grinned as you instantly got up to persuade Flitwick to change and make up some nonsense justification.
Sirius pouted, "Oh love, I wouldn't do that, you don't want Flitwick thinking you're difficult to work with." You rolled your eyes at him, not falling for it. "He might just not write your recommendation for you to be an Auror," He remarked firmly as your eyes widened.
How could he possibly know what?
You sat back down carefully and glared at him, but all he offered you was a smug smirk. You looked away from the boys before you and crossed your arms.
James cleared his throat. He responded, "Well, I say we work in our dorm tonight," and the boys nodded, showing their agreement.
You scoffed, "Why not the library?" You asked, annoyed.
"Because Madam Pince insists on continuing to convince us that she will forever have a stick up her bum," Sirius said in a hushed tone.
"Well, maybe you should learn to shut your mouth once in a while," You spat, giving him a stern look.
He grinned and said, "I love it when you talk dirty to me." He leaned in closer with a whisper, "And I think you would love my mouth."
Your face contorted to disgust as Remus spoke and glared at Sirius, "We will be on our best behavior, and we will even do the most work." He tried to make the situation better.
"I'm not a charity case, I don't need your help," You remarked.
"Trust me love, we know," He replied with a laugh, "But it's the least we can do,"
You sighed, "Fine, but not too late, I don't want Filch to have his knickers in a twist if I'm coming to my dorms at eleven."
"We'll have you in bed by nine," James said, winking,
You rolled your eyes as you began writing something down in your journal. You felt eyes on you as you looked at all of them, "Problem?" You asked.
They all looked away, and you just gave them a strange look as you continued to write.
They had been extremely more weird than last year.
You shrugged the thought off as you tried to cram in as much of your part of the assignment as you could before having to work with them.
The bell chimed, and you instantly started packing up your quills and papers, shoving them into your bag in hopes of escaping this horrible situation as soon as possible.
"Don't be late tonight," Sirius whispered, grinning like a Cheshire cat.
You scowled at him, "Just hope I show up at all, Black." You said as you stood from your seat.
"Oh, trust me," He whispered as he locked eyes with you, "You will."
You swallowed, quickly trying to exit the classroom. You were starting to believe that this school year was a bizarre dream.
You must've been racing out of the room, considering the out-of-breath voice you heard rushing after you, "Y/N!" You looked to see Lily racing after you as you stopped.
She caught up to you as she tried catching her breath, "Merlin, you walk extremely fast," She huffed, throwing a quick laugh.
"How can I help you, Evans?" You asked, clearly not in the right mood for this conversation.
Her face straightened. "I was just hoping that we could talk about everything." She spoke hopefully.
You sighed, "Lily, now is not the best time." You replied, already starting to turn around.
"But!" Lily moved in front of you, "I just don't want you to think that I never cared about our friendship or forgot about you," She said regretfully.
You scoffed, "Lily, we can both be honest with ourselves." You folded your arms. "We were never friends, and you only pretended we were because you pitied me." You said blankly. Lily's eyes saddened as you continued, "But I'm not saying this to make you feel bad, you are a good and kind person, Lily, but we aren't friends."
Lily paused, "Do you actually believe that?" She asked, fiddling with her fingers.
"I'm surprised you don't." You replied as Lily looked down, "Don't get down on yourself, Lily, it wasn't only you." You laughed lightly.
She mustered up a smile, "Thank you for talking to me." She said before exiting the hall.
You hadn't meant to make Lily feel bad but she couldn't have possibly believed that you guys were friends.
Especially after what you had heard.
You were honestly starting to wish it was Winter break already.
This group project was probably one of the most dreadful things that you have had to do in your life.
But your plan was to finish the rest of your part and go back to your dorm, leaving the Marauders and any chance of communicating with them in that room.
Considering that, you were dressed in just your tank top and sleep shorts, wearing a silk coverall.
You knew it wasn't the most appropriate thing in the world, but there was no way the Marauders would ever see you in that way.
You took a deep breath before trying to knock on the door, but before you could, it swung open. Your eyes widened in surprise as James was looking at you with a flustered look as he eyed you up and down.
You looked at him confused, "Uh hi," You uttered.
He gulped, "Hey." He scratched the back of his head as you clicked your teeth.
"Are you gonna invite me in or just stare at me awkwardly?" You asked.
"Oh, sorry," He spoke quietly, widening the door for you.
You came in with your books pressed to your chest as you spotted Remus already at his desk while Sirius lay on his bed, looking at a magazine.
He looked away from the magazine to you, "Well, isn't this a sight?" He hummed, setting it aside on his dresser.
He stood, coming near you with a smug smile as he stared into your eyes.
"I've come here to actually work on the project, Black." You said sternly, ignoring the butterflies in your stomach.
"We can't do pleasantries, dollface?" He asked, coming so close that you could smell his signature scent of Ash and a mix of dark chocolate and mint. You looked up at him, almost feeling his breath fanning your face, "Or maybe we can skip them."
You nervously looked into his eyes, the air growing thick.
"Sirius." Remus warned.
You swallowed as Sirius only smirked, moving near Remus. "I'm only joking, Moony, I'm just trying to make dear Y/N feel more welcome." He sat on the leg of Remus's chair.
You exhaled as James spoke, "You can sit on my bed." He smiled, urging you towards it.
"Thanks." You muttered, sitting on his bed.
You were actually surprised by how soft the mattress was, yours felt like a rock compared.
As if he read your mind, James said, "It took fifty bloody spells to figure out how to break in that mattress." He laughed as you gave a slight nod in response.
"Where do you guys want to start?" You asked, "I've already done most of my writing portion and-"
Remus cut you off, "Maybe we could talk first."
You gave him a confused look, "All due respect, I would rather complete the assignment." You replied, opening your book.
It disappeared in your hand as you spotted Sirius with his wand, giving you a shake of his head.
You huffed, "I came here to work on this project, and if we aren't, I would prefer to be elsewhere." You glared at the boys, beginning to stand.
James stopped you, "Once chance, dove." He pleaded as you crossed your arms, "Just one." He spoke softly
You sat back down as you looked at the boys, "I'm listening." You exhaled.
summary: after being a wallflower throughout your first five years at hogwarts, you always thought that you could be invisible. but when you hear the marauders talking cruelly about you and proceeding to ask for your forgiveness after, well good luck babe.
chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 3
chapter 4
chapter 5
warnings: eventual smut! 18+ heavy angst, cursing, reader wants to kill the marauders , swearing, unprotected sex, praise, oral (male receiving), jealousy
sypnosis : you have been with the marauders for so long, just to be abandoned when they found a prettier young thing but they would regret it.
poly!marauders x y/n
part 2
there was no doubt in your mind that you loved the marauders, they were everything to you. i mean you had so many doubts when they first approached you with this idea of a relationship with them all but they convinced you that it would be amazing.
they of course did not lie because it was amazing.
james would take you to professional quidditch matches when he could, explaining to you the game even when you were completely hopeless.
remus would read to you, snuggled up on the coach in the common room by the fire, making you feel the warmth you had longed for.
sirius would touch you everywhere to show his love, nibbling on your neck just so you could feel needed, it was perfect.
everything was amazing for a year until aurora came along. she made you doubt every good thing about yourself.
the boys could not keep their eyes off of her but they reassured you that you were their one and only, that they only had eyes for you.
you of course trusted their word because they would never lie to you, i mean why would they? but you could tell they were getting jealous if one got to talk to aurora more or sit by her.
but sitting by you, they would sigh and just listen to you talk in boredom, it was really hurting your feelings.
you tried to talk to them about it but they just kept focusing on aurora, not even looking at you in the eye.
so one day, you decided that you had to talk to them or you were afraid of the possible outcome.
“remus can you please talk to me?” you sighed as he hummed, “it’s really serious.” you looked at him and he sighed, looking back at you.
“y/n, what is it?” he shut his book, annoyed.
you frowned, “why have you stopped paying attention to me? all of you?” sirius and james looked up, shocked that you had mentioned it.
“there’s just a lot going on, you aren’t the center of it all.” remus harshly snapped.
“you are so cold and bitter towards me but then auroras like a fresh new diamond to all of you and on another note, you haven’t even fucked me in a month or even came close to initiating it.” you complained.
sirius sat up, “y/n, this is getting overdramatic, we haven’t been doing that.” sirius replied.
“why are you trying to hide it? admit it, set me free and tell me you like aurora.” you added.
they all looked at eachother, "y/n, you have to understand." james said, getting up.
"no james, you are not going to be the nice one out of these two assholes." you argued, making him stop in his tracks.
remus's face softened, "i'm really sorry y/n, i have so much love for you, we all do." he tried grabbing your wrist but you took it away in a quick snap.
"are you fucking kidding me?" you start laughing while crying, "you fucking begged me to be with all of you and now that there is a new, better version of me, you are dumping me?" you felt like the room was spinning.
they were all trying to touch you in this moment, "stop moving fucking closer to me." you yelled as they all just looked at eachother, "i gave you my body, soul, and heart just for it to be shattered because i wasn't the first choice which fucking hurts if you can't tell." you cried.
james was tearing up at this point, "we love you so much." sirius said.
"you aren't in love with me so that bullshit doesn't matter." you sobbed.
"it wasn't anything you ever did, you were perfect darling." remus added, "we still want you in our life."
you were laughing as you cried, "i will never speak to any of you again for as long as i live." you spat, storming off.
this situation was about a week ago and the marauders kept looking at you and trying to talk to you but you weren't budging. i guess they still did love you. but the fucked up thing about it was that, they were still trying to talk to aurora.
whoever wasn't talking to you, was talking to aurora which stung harshly.
you were now in potions and slughorn had put you with james and you were about to blow your brains out, "hey y/n." he said shyly as you didn't speak a single syllable, "i hope you know i really miss you and watching quidditch games and how we used to yell whenever mcniver missed a point." he added.
you scoffed, simply went to go get the ingredients instead of talking to him where you were bombarded by remus who was trying to ask you what you were up to these days.
you ignored him too, going back to your seat, "you know i still love you auro-" he cut himself off in total shock.
tears were rimming your eyes as you slammed down your book, storming out of the classroom as slughorn called after you.
you went inside the girls bathroom, crying your eyes out. you still loved them all so much but it felt like they needed you to pass their guilt.
you heard the door open as you looked next to you to see aurora who had creeped up to you, "slughorn asked me to check on you."
"why you?" you asked, snapping at her as you looked down.
her mouth agaped, "i don't really know but i do still care, i may not know what's wrong but-"
you cut her off, "you don't know so you can just fuck off." you spat, looking at her.
her frown didn't falter, "is it them?" she asked.
"who's them?" you sarcastically replied.
"the marauders." she said, moving closer to you.
"it's really none of your business." you fumed.
"i noticed they started paying more attention to me, lily told me that all of you were inseperable." aurora explained.
"okay fine, they love you obviously and dumped me." tears were now streaming down your cheeks.
"i don't love them." aurora held your head up as you looked confused as she kissed you.
you were deeply confused on what was going on, i mean it certainly was a very confusing situation as you backed up in total shock, "oh i'm sorry." aurora said, running out.
