Bad news:
Angst
Fluff
Smut
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“Have a good day Bug?” He whispered in her ear making y/n relax into his touch and fully give herself to him.
“It was alright. Was long but it’s better now.” She replied. She worried her bottom lip as the nerves in her tummy thickened. “I actually need to tell you something really important.”
‘Y/n you can’t ruin his mood. He’s so happy right now and you’re just gonna ruin it. It’s your body that couldn’t help it. You did this.’
Y/n pulled her oversized sweater over her thighs and began to mess with the loose string. It was a thing she did when nerves picked at her skin.
“Sure, what’s wrong babe?” He asked. His tone lowering and giving her his full attention.
“Before I say it I need you to know that it’s not your fault. It was me and the doctors told me there could be complications because my body is already too weak to hold-“ She sniffled, unable to hold it in when she saw the remorse pass over his features. He looked down at her stomach. She wasn’t due to be showing for another two weeks but he still looked.
“We lost him.” He whispered putting his hand on the sweater covering her belly. Harry didn’t know if it was a boy but he’d always wanted a boy. He’d pictured himself with a son so many times that when y/n told him that she might be pregnant he began talking to her stomach about footie practice and how spoiled he’d be. Y/n thought it was one of the cutest and beautifully perfect things she’d ever witnessed when he first did it.
But now that wouldn’t happen, at least with that child. Harry looked up at her to find her head down and her eyes closed. She opened her mouth to speak, and Harry figured it would have been something to make light of the situation and to help them get through this together but instead she just started crying and babbling about how sorry she was.
“I shouldn’t have put you through this. I knew there was a good chance of us losing a baby but I was selfish and gave you hope that we could start a family and I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry Harry.” She sobbed, bringing her hands up to wipe her eyes.
“Bug you can’t do this to yourself.” He wrapped his arms around her, placing a kiss at her temple. “We both knew going in that your egg count was low and that with the way your body is there would be a chance of losing the baby. I had a hand in trying. You cannot beat yourself up about this. I won’t let you.”
She nodded, not trusting her voice. “Tomorrow we’ll go to the doctor and ask how soon we can try again then we’ll go from there. Come with me upstairs and let me run you a bath. It’ll make you feel better.”
“I can’t lose another one H. I just can’t.” She said hoarsely.
“Then we’ll wait a little bit, maybe look into adopting. I’m sure there are kids there that would love to have you as a mum. Or if you wanna just take a break and not think of babies right now we can do that. I don’t want you to feel pressured into giving me something you don’t want.” He said, taking a deep breath and looking down at her frazzled state.
Y/n looks up at him smiling slightly, “Can we go take that bath? We can talk all about babies later when I’m not as drained.”
“Course love.” He leans down to kiss her forehead. “C’mon, I’ll start running it while you strip down.”
Y/n follows Harry to the bathroom upstairs that’s connected to their room and begins pulling her sweater over her head. Looking into the mirror in the bathroom, she eyes her stomach while Harry turns the water on behind her. She smiled slightly at her stomach and presses her thumb gently over her belly button.
“I love you baby. I hope I meet you some day.” She says to herself. She quickly spins around to look at her husband whom was very much idoling her from his spot next to the tub. He just smiled at her before rising to his feet to discard his clothing.
After Harry checked that the water was warm enough he climbed in and spread his legs to indicate that he wanted her between them. Y/n happily complied and sank down in the water, pressing her back to his front.
She heard him sigh from from behind her and she finally felt better. She felt his arms snake around her waist and pull her into him. He placed tiny kisses on her shoulders and began to suck a bruise into her neck.
She felt her insides tingle from his words. He only praised her like this when she was upset. He did other things during their normal days, but when y/n needed cheering up he pulled out the sappiest things he could possibly think of and say them in a hushed tone.
“Harry,” she whined. “Please don’t mess with me. Not right now. Need you.” She begged. She wanted to feel close to the person she loved the most.
“Don’t wanna fuck you till we see a doctor tomorrow and ask about what we can do, but I will make you feel good.” He whispered. His hands unraveled from around her and began to manipulate her legs. He pulled one up and put in on the side of the tub and then look the other on and pulled in as far into her body as it would go spreading her wide. “What’d you want me to do bug? Want me to play with you? Touch you all over? Play with your little clit?”
Y/n nodded. She wanted all of that. She needed it. “Please Haz. Want you. Please.” She felt so small in moments like these, when he had complete control over her, but she’s also never felt safer.
Harry quickly got a hand over her, rubbing through her folds and swirling her clit with two fingers. She moaned at the contact loving the feeling of him right at her core. He gathered her wetness and began mixing it in with the water he was using to lubricate her cunt.
When she started to arch her back in the pleasure of it all was when she felt his lips right at her ear. “Like when I play with your cunt like this princess? God your so pliant and willing to do anything in moments like these. Do anything to get off. Know you hate only being penetrated with my fingers. Love having my hand right on you clit. Love when I’m swirling your excitement all over you tiny pussy.” She felt her thighs shaking from his words. She was so close to finally releasing that she wanted to scream. “Cmon baby I wanna feel you cunt twitch when you come for me.”
She squeezed her eyes shut, releasing all over his hand and in the water. Her moans filled the room along with the echo of sloshing water. Harry simply hummed in her ear bringing his fingers to his mouth to clean them off.
She bit her lip, eyes heavy from exhaustion. “Cmon baby girl. Let’s get you to bed before you get pruny.” Harry said as he pulled the tab to drain the water.
When they finally settles into their bed cuddled up to each other is when he finally says it. “I’ll always love you. Even if you think that you arent good enough I’ll always want you. I’d never leave you or think you were weird or broken. I promised to love and cherish you forever and I’ll make sure I do my job well.”
As they drifted off all y/n could think of was the amount of love she had for one person that continued to surprise her every single day.
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I’m sorry if this was depressing. Here’s Harry being a dork :)
