Right. So.
This is really hard for me but there are reasons why I need to do this.
Lately it's gotten harder and harder to keep this account, not because it's hard making time for it, but because of some of the content that some people post on the dash. Normally I would be okay, because I think of myself as a strong person, but... I'm having a hard time dealing with triggers and it's damn near impossible to block trigger posts anymore because everyone's got different tags for it and sometimes they just don't think when they reblog.
When I get on an account and play a character, I feel like I am literally putting on their skin. I don't exactly become them, but the things that happen to them do effect me ooc. Try to say whatever bullshit you want about keeping ic and ooc separate, I get it, but when something bad happens to my characters, I get sad. Simple as that.
Daesungie is not strong enough to deal with the pain I'm going through, ooc. It's like ten times worse seeing trigger posts on this account than it is on any of my other accounts. His skin is too thin, he feels too much, he thinks too much. It hurts being here. Even when I go for a time not seeing triggers, I am in constant fear on this account that I will see them. I need a bit of distance. I need a barrier.
I think I've found a way to deal with it though. I'm going to be making him into a sideblog, carrying over everything about him, his personality and his relationships and his life. It'll be a lot easier to deal with things that way, to be honest. I really hope nothing changes between him and his friends- I'd love to keep everybody I've met. I love you all.
I'll try to follow everybody I talk to and hang out with and everything, on that main account. \o/
