I never really know whats going on anymore.
Sometimes, I feel more alive than ever but other times I feel like Im taking my last breath. Its like, one moment I'm happy and before I even have the chance to sink into it, life lifts me from my peace and brings me back where I started. Feeling lonely, like my chest is just empty space. I never stop saying sorry to anyone, I've completely fucking forgotten what its like to stand up for the things I believe in and why? I don't actually know.
I want to be different. I want to regain all I've lost. All the passion I know is in my heart, my self confidence. I wish I knew how, how to regain these powers back. I mean, I can't exactly do a few quests and just level up like they do in the video games. I wish it were that easy. I just wish.