#dalv entry

[integrityvictim]

﹋﹋﹋﹋꒰ @northstarofthewildeast ꒱ؘ ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ My Starlove! My dearest husband boyfriend, the love of my life. The light of my day and my shooting star of the week. He's such a dashing deputy, isn't he? So bold, so brave, yet so foolishly cute at times. I love hearing his voice, hearing him over-explain things about his interests.. Yet at the same time, asking for my help to pronounce something. Yet so distracting too.. How can I focus on doing my work when all I can think about is smothering his face in kisses? Or think about the way he clings onto me every morning as I get out of bed, while he's wanting to nuzzle my hair more? He's my little corncob that goes popopop! I REALLY need to give that gift to him. He's already starting to suspect something from me, and he won't stop tickling me until I make him forget! He's also so Cheesy too, if he wants to be called the cheese monster, I'll gladly call him that in front of Orion. I love my Nerdlo. Sometimes, I can hear him singing as he makes me some breakfast. He's a really good cook, more than I could ever be. One day, I want to perform a duet together! He can be the singer for my organ tunes. .. But he might be really shy about it, I'd imagine. My thoughts are all over the place, arent they? It's hard to think any cohesive thoughts when I think about my Starshine. Too many thoughts to write down on a tiny little diary such as this.. He's always there for me. Always there to set things right. There to reassure me, there to protect me from any dangerous monsters, and there to hold me and soothe me to sleep in his strong and protective arms. There to hold my hand as we go on walks together, and always here to sew me the next adorable outfit he's been making just for me. I think it's safe to say I really love him. I wished upon a star, and I became his moonlight. ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

☾ ⋆ ᗪᗩᒪᐯ.

[integrityvictim]

﹋﹋﹋﹋꒰ @martlet-of-snowdin ꒱ؘ ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ

.. I wish we met under better circumstances.

— But.. that aside, she's always a pleasure to have around. Such a happy-go-lucky monster to have around! Not to mention, she's much stronger than I am. And now that I live closeby, I can always retreat to her whenever I'm in a pinch.

Should I even.. bring up the sleepover incident?

She did make up for it with that gift,

which was super nice by the way..

Her and Moray are really cute together. I often see them in the East Side going on walks! I could go into Moray right now, but I'll save that for another page.. But for now I'll just say that without the two of them together, they're both an unfinished song.

– I don't know if it's a side effect from the royal guard training she used to do, but she's also pretty scary. I wouldn't want to get her upset or keep failing puzzles in front of her, I'm worried she might crack one of my horns! Hey, that reminds me. I should ask her more about the royal guard, I would love to hear her stories as a guardswoman.

Though, if she puts Kanako in danger again,

I suppose I have no choice to put

those fears aside and confront her myself.

☾ ⋆ ᗪᗩᒪᐯ.

[integrityvictim]

﹋﹋﹋﹋꒰ @floweypowey ꒱ؘ ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ

- He sees himself as a wilted flower,

but I think he's just as special

as the rest of the garden.

He's just a kid and he's already going through problems I could never even dream on my worst enemy.

If I had as much power as he has, I would be overwhelmed too. I would lash out, I would hurt monsters too. I would hurt humans..

I don't blame him for any mistakes he's made as long as he's showing that he regrets it. He has hurt alot of monsters. But he's shown that he cares about them enough to bring them all back.

He trusts me enough to tell me everything, about his past life, his relationship with the Royalty, He trusts me enough to vent to me, to be an adult figure to turn to for his troubles.

I cannot be another burden he has to worry about. I'm the adult here, I need to do better.

— I've been trying to learn more about his interests, showing him music id think hed enjoy, what his hobbies are.. but he keeps redirecting the conversation.

He's asking questions that he already knows the answer to. Talking about what I missed in my time in the Dark Ruins..

He's a smart kid, but I've noticed.

I have a few theories; he doesn't know what he likes yet, or just does not have any intrests and doesn't know how to express it..

Or it maybe because he's a flower. And he still feels that he isn't a monster anymore like the rest of us. He must not realize no matter what he looks like, he'll still be Asriel Flowey.

That's okay. I got him to talk before,

I can do it again. All I need is time.

- I'll do as much as I can to make

everyday shine a little bit brighter in his life.

☾ ⋆ ᗪᗩᒪᐯ.

[integrityvictim]

﹋﹋﹋﹋꒰ @ketsukanekid ꒱ؘ ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ

– Kanako. I feel.. sorry for her.

She's been through so much and she doesn't even realize it. Like a melody that's always off key.. But she's a smart girl. If she needs and help, she'll know when to tell us.

At the party, I remember her calling me Uncle! Martlet had told me I was crying before I even realized I was.. but I couldn't help myself. As soon as I returned home, I baked some corn cookies as celebration. I wonder if I should bring them next sleepover..?

Lately I've been writing a book based off her interests, a gift to her. So she isn't hurting as much. Though my handwriting has been a bit harder to read, because I've been using a different type of pen. The ones I ordered on UGPS hasn't shown up yet, something about it being busy.

I always ask myself..

Am I doing enough, though?

☾ ⋆ ᗪᗩᒪᐯ.

[integrityvictim]

﹋﹋﹋﹋꒰ @triedntrueluckheart ꒱ؘ ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ - I'll admit, I don't really know much about Luckheart.. Sure, I hear news from him from gossiping monsters here and there, but I tend to ignore them. Don't they know it's disrespectful to talk about someone who could potentially be listening? ..Once I heard he's actually a BANDIT, but everyone's been keeping me out of the loop that everytime I bring him up they tend to shut me down. They must take me as a fool, a monster who thinks I wouldn't notice they're doing it on purpose!

If I just knew what was going on with him, then I feel like It'll be easier to have a proper conversation with him without having to guess what his next reaction is going to be. One day, he seems to be super sad out of his mind, and all I can do is watch and give him gift baskets. Patting him on the back, giving him ice packets and telling him everything is going to be okay.. - Then another day, he's super angry. Sharpening his blade and just.. giving really mean looks to people. On those days I like to keep my distance. I wouldn't want to be on the other end of it. But past all that, he has a wonderful sense of honesty. If I need someone to be super blunt and straightforward with me, Luckheart would be on my list of monsters to rely on! I should probably visit the East Side again, too. Still have to find out who Mr. Chucklenuts is. ..Starlove isn't going to be upset at me for making friends with a bunch of bandits lately, right?

☾ ⋆ ᗪᗩᒪᐯ.

[integrityvictim]

﹋﹋﹋﹋꒰ @countkoffink ꒱ؘ ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ - Mr. Koffin is a mystery me! His mansion, his butlers LACKEYS, it always leaves me curious wanting to know more; Like a song getting cut off before it finishes til the climax.. The first time I met him, he tricked me into writing an evil catchy theme-song you'd see on TV, and then shortly after made me do his chores. I'm pretty sure I got assaulted by 12 different doors there. ...And when he found out I was a Vampire, he quickly changed the situation into converting me into a side-kick lackey. Mr. Larry and Mr. Harry were NOT happy about my sudden promotion.. And they didn't like my purple color. Or my lame cloak.. you get the idea. - He was my protege and I was his pupil for his 'villain lessons.' Even though I hated throwing banana peels at people, writing mean names onto every wall, and learning how to do graffiti.. I DID like being called Count Dalv the whole time. It makes me sound super professional and official, doesn't it? But you won't believe what happened shortly after, we met the famous superhero Crossbones! At least, apparently he is. He has a whole bunch of fans! I never heard about him though. But I guess alot has happened outside the Dark Ruins since I locked myself in there. - Crossbones just shot his ketchup blaster at us. And it was.. really gross. We both retreated and we haven't seen each other since Martlet's sleepover! But from what I know, he's doing well. I hope I can be as brave as he is! If not brave, then at least popular.. More monsters visiting my concerts would be very nice. ..I.. never asked him about where the other Vampires went. Not that it matters.. - He probably doesn't know either.

☾ ⋆ ᗪᗩᒪᐯ.

[integrityvictim]

﹋﹋﹋﹋꒰ @honeydewresortaskblog ꒱ؘ ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ

- It's funny, I never realized how similar we both were until I stopped and put my thoughts down on the page. Just two busy monsters getting swept up in the sea of work.. Barely standing up and holding ourselves together with sticks and glue.

Oh- Thats a bit mean, isn't it? I'm trying to put it in an inspirational way. Mallow has to deal a ton of customers a day, I'm sure. I could never socialize with that many people back to back.. it's impressive!

– That being said, she always seems so nervous when I talk to her. I'm not sure if she's like that with everyone, or my presence is still intimidating to some monsters..

I'm working VERY hard to be as approachable and as friendly as I can be. ..Oh! I never asked her what genre of music she liked, perhaps if I play a tune that matched her interests, she'll learn to trust me?

I should thank her for helping me get that wrapping paper for my Starlove's gift. I haven't told her we're dating yet, so when she asked who it was for.. all I said that it was for a dashing deputy. ..I wonder if she put the puzzles together? I don't blame her if she didn't though, I guess it was pretty vague.

..Though, is it just me; or does she sneak rude glances towards Pops whenever I bring him around?

☾ ⋆ ᗪᗩᒪᐯ.