I'm growing and that's okay
I've come to notice that I've gone through a lot of change recently. Physically and mentally. I've learned to disassociate with toxic people that only bring me down. I just wish my phone would forget you as much as I forget you. My suggestion bar always has these lovey phrase I used to naturally say to you and I can't stand it. Your name and the little things that made you who you are constantly seem to surround me. It's exhausting when all I want is to get rid of you forever. It makes me sick just thinking about you and how you never truly loved me. I was just some pretty girl THAT DIDNT EVEN WANT TO BE CALLED A GIRL (WHICH YOU NEVER ACKNOWLEDGED) that had some boobs you were obsessed with (AND I HATED WHICH YOU KNEW) and a vagina you could never stop thinking about. You were such an abusive partner and I deserve better. I deserve so much better than a lowlife that had no goals in life. You brought me down but now I'm back to the surface. I can't breathe sometimes just thinking about how you know where I live. You gave me this huge bundle of fear bc I trusted you. I genuinely believed that you would want what was best for me and accept my decisions. Gosh I really wish I had never had the guts to ask for your number that day, bc I would have been perfectly fine without you. Growth is positive. I'm positive that everything is better without you. I can finally sleep without worrying about disappointing you. I feel like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I love that I can finally talk to guys as a pal without you assuming I'm losing interest. Not everything was about you. Nothing will ever be about you anymore.
