#dance panic

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VERONIKA / SUPERDANCE ParaParaPanic vol. 2 (2000)

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DANELA / EXTRA LOVER ParaParaPanic vol. 2 (2000)

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LISA FERRARI / LOVE IS IN THE AIR ParaParaPanic vol. 2 (2000)

[dancingparagirl]

EuroPanic Collection

[jglovelace]

In which a certain human keeps haunting me and the version of my friends that live in my imagination make it a little better

TW: Grief, anxiety

I thought working on this piece would mean that I would feel better, but it seems like I opened the floodgates and the grief is just back and fresh and sticky and I haven’t been able to focus since working on it Sunday. Jessica was always a bit of a bitch and I guess I shouldn’t be that surprised that calling her up into my life means that I’m left humming the saddest song to myself and feeling anxious (I’m only calling her a bitch because stfu about speaking ill of the dead, let me speak of her completely and fully while I remember her and I will NOT FORGET EVEN THE WORST OF HER).

I’m actively hoping we don’t final right now, and that doesn’t seem fair to my partner. But fuck, what if I just barely get through the routine and end up a crying mess of a human at the end in front of so many friends and strangers. ...actually, the answer there is really obvious, if I start to imagine it the way CBT tells me to. I will be literally surrounded by people who care about me, and at least one person who knows exactly why I’m a wreck, and I’ll get through it, and whatever embarrassment I feel for having let myself be so vulnerable in front of so many people will be supplanted by love and affection for the people in my life. And some of them will think I’m crying for the wrong reason, but the word will get out, little by little, and some of them will respect me more and some of them will see my grief as a ploy, and none of that will make any difference because I’ll have done the thing.

Welp. Writing out my panic/anxiety officially helped me feel a little better at least. Let’s see if I can’t get a little work done now.

[dancemaniamania]

SOLID BASE / SUNNY HOLIDAY

Dancemania Sparkle

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ARABESQUE / IN FOR A PENNY, IN FOR A POUND

Dancemania Sparkle CLASSICS