Sort of sombre news sadly. This gets a bit long, I always feel a need to over explain, so I'll TLDR here, you can skip the rest if you want:
💜 I'm taking next week as a short hiatus from posting much content to focus on my book while I can. I have two requests, Arachnophilia updates and the AU chapter in the works. 💜
Long version, I need to take some kind of break, for real this time.
I have two requests in currently, one for a spider mutant Miguel and one for a 'god of lust' Miguel which I do want to do, and I will keep up with Arachnophilia, but I think I need to focus on some other stuff just for a bit.
I got asked by a few people if I've thought of writing a book, and the answer is YES! Not just thought, actively have, in fact. I've written 115,000 words of a novel under the working title 'mid 2000's girly pop gay junji ito by-way-of kafka's metamorphisis adaptation', basically a monster story from the perspective of the person turning into the monster . I just need to finish the last three chapters, but I've been really struggling to juggle workload.
I take on too much stuff at once, and I know I do, but I don't know how to stop either. My body isn't really working, mentally or physically, and I have a need to make up for my body failing by being the most productive person possible. Doesn't help that I'm also very lonely and have wretched abandonment issues lol, so anything that people enjoy I will do until it kills me.
I do my PhD, I run a household, I do constant extra curriculum, I write fics, I write original work, I do art, on and on, until everything gives out.
And every time I take a hiatus people are so kind and say the same thing, which is of course my mental health comes first, but I just struggle to justify that to myself. This is the only affirmation I get in my life, and its small, but I get attached to it very quickly.
I actually stopped writing a while back because I thought I just sucked at it, until my first Miguel fic took off, and I reconsidered after seeing people enjoy what I did.
I would just really like to just get this book finished, so I can kind of settle and have a sense of fulfillment about it. I also need to give myself more time to try and salvage my mucles before they atrophy further. I really put physio as like, a third priority against fulfilling requests and getting feedback, and I don't think that was a good idea in the long term.
So yes! I won't be gone long, I just wanted to ask for time to finish this and then return. <3 Love you all.
