Hey! I loved your dark academia headcannons and I wondered if I could request something similar where the reader is a socially anxious college student (and dresses dark academia-y) and Shes awkward but is an empath? Thank you :))
Sorry this took so long! I really took my time with it and I’m actually really happy with how it turned out. Hope you enjoy it! Again, sorry for getting to this so late, things have been insane and I'm literally going off to college this week so I'm trying to get everything done before I leave. Also, totally not connected but, I got a nose piercing!
Warnings: swearing and some mentions of sexual acts
Socially Anxious College Student S/O
Poly lost boys x reader
The minute you stepped a foot onto Santa Carla’s Boardwalk you were hit with many emotions. Mostly all mixing together to be either excitement or the one that made you want to curl into yourself the most; lust. Those emotions were dripping everywhere and you seriously started to question why you let yourself be dragged along with your fellow college buddies for a night out.
Nobody knew about you being an empath; being able to sense, feel and understand other people's emotions. It was a skill that you worked very hard to control and you were good at it. Just large crowds made the controlling part difficult so you were never really one to go out or meet new people. That just scared you half to death sometimes. Emotions were scary and it made you anxious all the time.
So, when your friends in your dorm made you get dressed, which was opposite to what they wore.They wore short dresses or crop tops, pretty much anything revealing at least 80 percent of their skin. While you went with a black short sleeved button-up shirt, a gray blazer rolled up to the elbows with matching gray plaid dress pants and a pair of black dress shoes. (And wire framed glasses if you wore them)
Safe to say, you stuck out like a sore thumb against your friends. And also, unfortunately for you, that means you caught the attention of four certain vampires of the night. They already had an eye set on your friends to be their meal for the night. They looked easy. Just some simple flirting and they would be set. It was only when one of them wrapped an arm around your shoulder, urging you to join in their night of fun did their attention fully turn to you.
You were on the opposite spectrum of your friends. They want to party and have fun while you wish you were still stuck inside reading a new book, or hey, even getting a head start on one of your assignments. And the wave of emotions from everyone around you, made you want to turn back, but your friends weren’t having it, telling you to “live a little”.
Taking interest, the four followed your little group into the music shop you all piled into. Your friends are going towards the pop section while you are heading towards classical and alternative. You weaved your way through, avoiding any kind of accidental contact with the other customers. Being an empath was difficult already, touching someone made the emotion even stronger and that made you a little squeamish.
Keeping yourself busy, you leafed through the records, not noticing the group of vampires stalking up behind you. It was only until one of the blondes, who you would find out named Paul, casually draped an arm over your shoulder, leaning into you and speaking into your ear did you jump in surprise. You were surrounded on all sides, by four very handsome boys around your age.
Of course, not only being surrounded by them makes you turn beet red, but the overwhelming feeling of pure, unfiltered lust transferred from Paul to you. And you weren’t just feeling it from him. You felt similar emotions from the others, but there was a strange feeling or desire underneath it all? Almost like a hunger? You couldn’t really place it. But nonetheless it hit you like a tidal wave from how strong their emotions were. Just from that alone told you that they weren’t normal.
You felt like prey under their gaze and your friends urging you to have some more fun, did nothing to help your situation. If anything they encouraged the boys to steal you away into the night. You rarely went out so they didn’t see the harm.
Much to your luck, for which it seemed to have left you, the boys practically hung off of you, touching you at any chance they got. The only one that seemed to back off was Dwayne. He noticed pretty quickly that you weren’t used to touch or didn’t like it per se. He also thought it was a little weird that whenever he touched you, a little bit of anxiety crept it’s way into his mind.
By the end of the night, much to your surprise, they all sort of didn’t touch you as much, but they did also help you loosen up a little. They showed you around the boardwalk since you revealed that you never stepped foot on it before. They brought you around the shops, to which Marko would ask questions about your fashion choice. He’s never seen anyone wear what you wear and it made you blush when he said that he liked the look, but only on you.
You went on a couple of the less intense rides, of which David was a very smug bastard when you suddenly clung to him after one of the spinning rides they brought you on. It wasn’t something you normally did and that's when David felt what Dwayne did. A little bit of fear crept in. Your touch did something to him, and that’s when he decided that you weren’t going to be their next meal. (He would never admit it, but he decided not to kill you long before that)
That night, the boys didn’t walk away with a meal, but they did walk away with your number and where you went to school. And they were definitely going to make visits.
Weeks go by from that night, and within those weeks, the boys showed up at your campus almost every night following. You thought it was weird in the beginning, but you warmed up to them and even started to like them… like… really like them. And that terrified you. But when all four admitted their feelings, having the desire to date you, you were happy to take them up on their offer.
When you told them you never really dated nor were you really comfortable with PDA or weren’t a touchy person. Which was a little bit of a lie, you craved physical touch but it always seemed to bite you in the ass so you had to force yourself to stop.
But from that information, the boys seemed to deflate a little, upset that they couldn’t be touchy or overly physical with you. The ones that took it the hardest were Paul and Marko… mostly Paul. He practically had to beg you just to hold his hand.
Aside from that, while dating you, the boys were very different in their ways of showing you affection. David never made a huge deal about PDA. Yes, he wanted to hold you just a little on the boardwalk. Yes, he wanted to be able to kiss you in public, but he respected that PDA made you a little uncomfortable and backed off a little. The most he did in public was a kiss on the cheek when nobody was looking or rubbing your back to calm you down while out.
He was also one out of the two who stayed in with you the most. Mostly it would be him sneaking into your dorms, making himself at home in your bed as you work on assignments or just wanting to stay in and maybe watch a few movies if you were in the mood. Some nights he would be able to get you to sit in between his legs as you worked, peaking over your shoulder, watching as your brain worked away. It was those moments that got him worked up and you knew about it. Seeing you work your hardest did something to him, and it made you a nervous, flustered mess which turned him on even more.
Of course, David being David, he was the first one of the boys to actually make out with you. Your emotions you could handle, but his dominating nature and equally dominating emotions sent you into a dizzy state. It was so much that you practically became putty in his hands. And he enjoyed it very much.
Marko, oh boy, did he practically give you a heart attack almost everyday. He was a little devil and would sneak into your dorm when you weren’t even there. He would go through your stuff while you were in class and when you would come back, you would find him scribbling and sketching stuff in one of your journals that you hid away with some of your personal writing.
You would even question him on how he got up to your room. You needed keys and your dorm was on the third floor of the building you were in. He would always just shrug with a smile and just tell you he has his ways. Though every time he did that, you noticed that your window would always be unlocked. Maybe you just forgot to relock it a couple times?
Not that Marko didn’t love your fashion, it was different, unique, it was you. But he did have fun getting you to try things that him and the other boys usually wore. It was always a fight, not really, to get you out so Marko could have fun picking out clothes for you. You hated getting clothes on your own, and Marko always made you feel a bit more comfortable with the idea.
Marko is one of them who tries to get you out the most. Who wants to stay cooped up all day? Not him! And that means you're going out with him. No if’s, ands or buts! He dragged you everywhere, whether it be to the boardwalk or to a diner, or just some new place in general, you were going with him.
There are times when being an empath was hard as fuck around him, his chaotic nature sometimes effected you and on a handful of occasions you surprised the shit out of him when you did something out of character that matched him. But he loved how awkward you could be, how flustered you got made you unbelievably adorable to him and that’s what he loves.
Paul is the one that drives you almost insane from his emotions. This boy is either excited or horny. Or both. He loves physical affection so he unfortunately has to hold himself back a little. Yes, he’s upset about it but he doesn’t want to make you upset so he does it for you.
The amount of times this boy has been able to stay late at the dorm is insane. He once even stayed over a couple of times with the request of getting black out curtains for the day. It was a weird request but you got them. You honestly loved it when he stayed over. He would be asleep in your bed all day as you sat or laid next to him reading a book or even playing yourself in chess.
Paul, even though he wanted to go out a lot, was pretty good in what places you would like best or you preferred to stay away from. He once took you to an empty parking lot to step away from all your school stress. Having nobody but yours and his emotions was nice. He sometimes was the best at making you relaxed when you had bad anxiety.
When Paul tries to take things one step further, it gets you all hot and bothered and sometimes you just want his overflowing emotion of lust to just burst so you wouldn’t have to be anticipating it for so long. Multiple times he’s been able to makeout with you in some of the empty classrooms at your school or in the back of the library, almost getting caught in the process.
Dwayne. Sweet Dwayne would almost follow you around everywhere if you asked. He found everything about you interesting. He took the time to listen to your studies and even helped you with your work here and there. Not that any of the other boys didn’t take interest, but Dwayne was pretty much getting an education through you. Learn and spend time with his partner? He loved it.
He would mostly come onto your campus during your night classes. Meeting right outside the class and then the both of you going to the coffee shop that was open late on campus for a little date. He knew you didn’t like being surrounded by people so the two of you would always sit in a little corner in the back, having privacy. He would always walk you back and just spend the night with you.
Surprisingly, he was the first one to really cuddle with you. Actually cuddle with you. Being around Dwayne was easy. His emotions weren’t up and down, he was calm for the most part and just content with being with you. Because of that, without thinking, you sat in between his legs one night as he was laying on your bed and laid back against his chest, proofreading a paper. You smiled when you felt how happy he got, but he hid it with a soft smile, running his fingers in your hair.
Out of all your partners, Marko was the first one to learn of you being an empath. It was on one of your date nights when he got his first taste of it. Some surf nazi was harassing you and Marko being the protective boyfriend that he was, was ready to start a fight. Out of fear for your boyfriend's well-being, you immediately held him back and forced yourself into a calm state of mind, forcing your emotion onto him, telling him, repeating over and over for him to calm down. His anger immediately went away and he was beyond confused as you dragged him away from his attempt at starting a fight.
Let’s just say he looked at you in awe after explaining what you were to him. Never once has he ever heard of it, but he was very intrigued. He asked you loads of questions which some had you blushing. You were his socially anxious partner and you had power over peoples emotions. That’s awesome in his eyes.
The secret didn’t last much longer as he dragged you back to the cave so you could tell the others. And each had their own unique reaction to it.
Paul of course was on the same page as Marko. He thought it was cool. More than anything, when he found out that you felt that everything he did, he smirked and just asked if you felt every bit of how much he wanted you. You couldn’t lie and just nodded, too embarrassed to say more. Paul was your horny, excited boy and it made you turn red every time.
Dwayne wanted to learn more about it. How did you get it? Were you born with it? Was it difficult to control? You revealed everything. You were born an empath and sometimes it is a little difficult to control. Dwayne then finally understood why you didn’t touch them as much, you felt everything they did. It was already tough to deal with your own emotions, it would be hell to deal with four other people's emotions. But it also made him burst at the seams when you said you're able to be physical with him more because he’s not as wild as the other three.
David was ecstatic. Though he didn’t show it. He had a feeling you were different, he just didn’t think being an empath was your little secret. He saw it on the same level of mind manipulation, stuff that he did. They were both psychic abilities and you just need practice with them, good practice. He also couldn’t help poke at you, asking if you knew just how much he wanted to go some nights. He was smug as fuck when you said yes, wanting to shrink under his gaze.
It was pretty much that same night when they revealed what they were to you, a part of you was terrified, but the side that won was your love for your boys. Plus you were curious. There were these feelings of hunger you could never place being around them, and now you know.
Some time passed from that night and things changed in a good way. David started helping you with your ability, giving you tips and pointers and even turning some parts into your’s and his date night into mind games. He showed you that he could manipulate what people perceive as reality and encouraged you to practice controlling and feeling emotions of those around you. He would be so proud of you when you were able to turn an arrogant, cocky surf nazi into a blubbering mess one night with just a glance his way.
David was also never the best with romantic feelings, so you being an empath helped him a lot. He rarely ever said I love you to your face but you didn’t need him to, you felt every bit of his love towards you and you sent it right back to him, which would have put him in a good mood all night long.
With you getting even more control of your abilities, you could officially now block out others and just focus on your own, which meant you could be as affectionate as you wanted with your boys. Which meant making up a lot of lost cuddle time with Paul. Good luck to the others, cause this boy will drag you to his little nest and not let go of you for days.
It was during those times that you let your own emotions of love flow into him and you made him melt in your arms every time you did. Without a doubt he would still catch you off guard and make you a blushing mess. Especially with all his comments and suggestions on you two should fuck in an empty classroom or on the teachers desk after one of your night classes.
Marko will definitely join you and Paul on your cuddle sessions or steal you away. If anything, You help keep Marko calm and he really enjoys it when it’s just the two of you. You help him keep his anger in check most of the time but he will ask not to hold him back if he needs to defend you and his family. His anger is his strength, and he will need it.
Marko likes to see you play with people’s emotions just as much as David. He’s a little evil and likes to push you to your limits but also backs off if you need to stop or don’t want to do it.
Dwayne is curious. Again, a little more publicly affectionate than David but keeps a lot of that hidden for just the two of you. Sometimes he’ll let you dump some of your own emotions onto him, not wanting you to deal with stuff on your own.
Dwayne will also be telling you to take some of his own emotions so you can stay anxiety free during your exams or anything related to school.
Even more time passed and you finally finished up your year at college, of course you still had a year or two more left but the boys didn’t want you to be aging anymore. You were theirs and they were yours. Without hesitation, you said yes to turning into one of them. They not only loved you for you but they were there for you more than anyone else in your life. How could you say no?
Becoming a vampire didn’t change you much. You finally felt the hunger that the boys all felt, you fed and with even more practice you couldn’t feel your victims' pain. Your abilities grew stronger and you were a force to be reckoned with… but dear lord you still can’t stand crowds. You would still rather be cuddled up in a cave with your boys. And you wouldn’t have it any other way.