#darknesswithinthelight

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Darkness Within The Light

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To compensate for my forgetfulness of our OPM appreciation day, here's my fave Rico Blanco song. And I hear there's something to look forward to on June 12 (an alleged exclusive Rico Blanco concert planned to be recorded live into an album. woo!).

[thecomplexfellow-blog]

Free yourself now.

Open yourself to the world. See everything that's around you now and regret ever depriving yourself from these things. Take every golden opportunity that fate bestows upon you; it'll help you grow.

If it seems uneasy, and when it gets callous, do not fret. I'll help you. Just put your brave on and free yourself now.

[therealtruthbehindlies]

The Oxymoronic and Paradoxical Seeker

As much as I want things to sound as sophisticated and grandiloquent as possible, I'd have to deny the fact that I am not as verbose and eloquent I thought I was. Perhaps I had been, but not anymore. That is why I'm always in a conquest; a mission for the search of myself and for the truth, and much more it includes becoming a better me.

This blog post therefore aims to; 

a.) Explain the reasons behind what my URL's stands for;

b.) Define and know myself better through understanding how I come up with such thought.

Err, hmm, pardon for another, perhaps lengthy non-sense post. But seriously...

Orginally, I wanted my URL to be truthbehindlies... I was I think 3rd year when I created my tumblr account and the reason why I wanted this url was that I've always thought that every truth contains a lie, and likewise it goes the same too. A truth concealed behind a lie is something which begets the question of what's real and what's not. What to believe and what not to. I've always asked myself before I decide upon things whether or not this is the truth or not. Having very little experience, I can consider myself as somehow naive when it comes to these things, thus, I'm still in a constant search for the truth, much more, the truth hidden in the depths of the abyss of lies.

However, unfortunately the said URL was already taken, that is why I chose to just instead use livingamidstdistress. It has been my URL ever since I can remember. It sounds dramatic and melancholic, but in reality, it's just me reminding myself to just keep going on. Live your Dream. All throughout our lives, we are bound to face circumstances that would hinder us from achieving our dreams. We are always in 'distress' and the mere fact that we feel pain, hunger, and all those other things, we still continue to 'live on' and breath which shows that we are living despite all those odds that threaten us. :)

And now, a few may have noticed, and I have changed my URL to darknesswithinthelight. Another of those playful choice of words for me. Some may even joke that it should be the other way around... of course speaking about it when it comes physique-wise. However, I chose this because... this defines who I am. Ever since my mind started working, I was controlled and kept in ground by the morals, values, and rules standardized by the society. I always follow what seems to be right. I follow what's just and what's right. I can actually consider myself as an epitome of a good person because all my life I've been doing what's considered to be RIGHT. This personality of mine is what I consider the 'light'. I am the light in my own ways. The light that brings about happiness and hope to other people. The 'nice guy' person I am. Most of the people who knows me would perhaps tell me that. But the thing is, truth be told, I too have my own share of dark secrets I keep to myself. I'm merely an imperfect human being, trying to display the 'perfection' in me whilst concealing the 'imperfection' I possess. Thus, this URL reminds me that I am who I am, and that I too have my own darkness lurking within me. It's not in a pretty bad way, it's more of becoming who you really are. Being the complete you is a difficult task because we are shaped by a tremendous amount of factors that direct the way we live and act. Such is the way of life.

:) So yeah, to finally put an end to this, I wonder... did some of you actually wonder why the title is like that? 'The Oxymoronic and Paradoxical Seeker'. Of course it is a definition of me, but why oxymoronic and paradoxical? A few may have noticed but most of my URL's consists of oxymorons and paradoxes that contradicts each other. A truth that has  a lie. Living amidst distress. And the darkness within the light. All of which are contradicting each other. Despite this, one cannot live without the other. The presence of one sustains and elaborates the other. A world wherein only truth exists is too much of a dream. Do we need to have a lie to live? One thing I learned from experience is that we need to learn things the hard way. We only learn when we experience falling down. We are not always on top. We might see everything when we are on top, but sometimes we need to go down to see a clearer and more vivid picture of what actually happens. This is the way of life. And as much as I want to live in a world where only truth prevails, I still cannot know why it just can't be. This is only a few of the things I'm looking for an answer. But until then, the oxymoronic, paradoxical seeker in me shall continue seeking for answers and reasons behind every truth that comes my way. :)

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darknesswithinthelight

So err, yeah... I changed my tumblr url just in case some people are wondering who the hell is this random tumblr person lurking in my dashboard posting nonsense random posts! SO yeah, from livingamidstdistress, I changed it to darknesswithinthelight and I'm planning to post an in-depth explanation as to why I changed it, and why I changed it to it. For now, goodnight! :D

And oh, I'm still going to use the link livingamidstdistress, but for a different purpose. Anyways, I'll keep you updated. :D