had an awful event a few days ago. tarantula escaped its enclosure and managed to get a room over and hide in my shoe. While putting em on for work I accidentally squished it, and it didn't make it.
When I recognized what was in there, I just started wailing. I knew it wasn't gunna be okay. called out sick and my partner and I just cried and laid in bed for two days.
Accidentally killing one of my own beloved pets has really fried me. I don't know how to manage the constant like, stress related tics I've developed after this. I don't know how long they'll last. I don't want to be in front of customers