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[joshcman33]

When you really desire to serve the Lord, you must be ready to bear the pains of character refinement.

Kim Millo​

[27dresses-blog1]

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[theworkingsachie]

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[iamwashone]

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[joshcman33]

When God is all you have, He is all you need to make life fruitful.

C.N. Joseph

[imgirlattheback]

A tiring yet productive day! Praying for a good result. 😇🙏🏻 *Side view para matangos ilong haha* 😂 #eyebagsonfleek #Day170of365 (at Bagumbayan, Laguna, Philippines)

[reinierzijlazn]

'Mystical Forrest'

On one hand I love this photo, on the other I don't. But I don't know why... maybe its because I miss a deer in the frame ;-)

7/7/2014, 09h14, 1/320 at f/2.8, ISO 200

[squishyturtlee]

Day 170 of 365 | Forgive others, not because they deserve it, but because you do.

I haven't written in days... it's been a roller coaster, as life should be... right? I'm trying to find peace within myself. There's things I haven't let go of... things I claim so much to be over, but still remain very alive in my heart. "You're smiling from your face. You have to start smiling from your heart again honey." I'm not okay... so NOT okay. I carry such heavy weights on my heart and shoulders. For a long time I kept walking back to the thing that broke me and after I finally stopped walking down that path I found a new path with the same story. I don't know why I do this to myself. Maybe it is because of the influences around me and I know I still hold on to anger towards my father... anger that causes me to be there but not really be there... anger that allows me to get close but not too close... just anger... and pain. I give, give and give but never get that love back, not how I hope. "This person hurt you very much, a lot of people have. So much that you've become very good at saying 'I'm okay, I'm better off alone' but inside, you're terrified of ending up alone."

Today, I'm done with pretending to be okay. Because at night it's me who's tossing and turning, it's me who can't love, it's me who holds on to resentment, killing myself over this for people who genuinely don't give two fucks about me. Who are sleeping at night comfortably. I'm the one working a 10hr shift on 2hrs of sleep. "All the shit I did make me feel like I'm dying real slow. Cause no one understands me. They don't know what to do when I'm hurt and when I'm angry."  Side note: Nothing fucks you up more than the things your mother says to you. Although I love her, nothing hurts more than her negative words.

Finding peace within yourself is one of the hardest things to do but no one else will do it for me and you know what? I deserve it. I deserve to sleep at night. I deserve that smile from my heart again. It's called Self-Loving.