The blood is not your own.
Your hands are not your own. They are your body's hands, you know they are. That's your scared knuckle, and these are your blunted claws. Soft palms and long fingers - every inch of flesh familiar. But they are not yours.
You are not in control of yourself.
Your pan is not your own. You think your own thoughts, but your thoughts are not yours to command. The thoughts come like a voice on the wind, a far off echo from the faceless burned troll standing behind you. You cannot see her, but you know she’s there. You are but a conduit to her whims.
Spill him, break him, fix him.
You don't want to look at him. You can't. But that far off voice, it speaks and your body moves. You meet his eyes, the same color as yours, full of betrayal, pain, and anger.
The blood is blue, the blood is green.
The blood is not your own.
Gasping for air, you choke out a mouthful of sopor, gagging on it’s bitter flavor.
An hour later, you’re curled up alone on the couch with hot pudding and cold whipped cream made to wash away the sopor taste. Your husktop is set in front of you, waiting. You’re ready to pounce, the second your palemate comes online. A hot shower did nothing for your shaking hands just as being awake is doing nothing to calm the sleep fear that still rages in your gut. You need a distraction, but your forum isn’t safe, and Mar is working. So you wait.
You should go back to your coon, but after that dayterror,
You really don't want to sleep again for awhile.