Apr 7, 2023
weirdly how my life ends up like this no matter how i "just keep swimming" i've been swimming for years no matter how i drown, how deep i drown, i just.. swim.
am i numb? or am i just dumb to not know when and where should i swim? maybe i am numb. numb to whatever life pierce at me, i keep swimming while it all stings. i cry, i scream. everyone looks at me like im some sort of fish, happy when they see me flourishing, and sometimes they just want to kill me for their satisfaction.
why not..
kill me instead for i had tried enough.