What's his most traumatic/repressed memory? How does he deal with any childhood trauma if it occurred? Is he aware of his classification of a sociopath, has this been diagnosed? If so, his thoughts on it? Diagnosed with anything else? What makes him the most uncomfortable? How does he dress/describe his wardrobe?
because there’s a lot to cover, i’ll answer in bulleted points. hope you don’t mind!
honestly, this most traumatic memory is being forced to take all those pills that, he feels, did more harm than good. he spent most of his childhood sick and tired, lazy almost because of the side effects, sometimes not even wanting to talk because he just doesn’t feel good. he’s told his mother about how it felt, but she had no intention of stopping since him off of it was an “embarrassment”. everyone just watched him without doing anything and because of that, when he got the opportunity to leave, he left almost right away.
when he thinks about his childhood trauma, he takes it up with his fists and becomes destructive. just the thought of his mother makes him want to break something. his father was never really there and his mother wouldn’t help him, so he hates thinking about them. punching, breaking – anything to get this disgusting feeling out of him. or, if he’s able, he just drinks a lot or gets high. he just wants the thoughts gone and to never return.
he was diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder much longer after seeing many different therapists and it even took a while to get there. there were therapists that just thought he had an anger problem, so it was a while until he was properly diagnosed. it’s on the back of his mind a lot that he was diagnosed with it, but he doesn’t think it fits all too much. when you think of a sociopath, you think of ted bundy or something like that; not someone like him – or so he thinks.
the thing that makes him the most uncomfortable are when people try to get to know him. it gets his paranoia going and it makes him wonder what they want with him. what are they planning with the information they know? will they try to get revenge? will they use it against him? no, he won’t give them a chance. never.
stefan dresses in button up shirts or sweatshirts because it’s all he can afford. if he did have the money (and if he finds someone who has money that he charms enough to buy stuff for him), he’ll dress up more. he loves ties. loves dressing up. loves when people look at him and say ‘damn, he looks good’.