1st January 2014: DAY ONE OF A NEW ME I am so ready and excited to start fresh. Last night I had an incredible night. I roamed the streets with the people I love most, I am so happy I have my old friendship back and I am so grateful for my friends and family. I stayed out the night with not a care in the world and I was proud of myself. There were a number of hiccups that I would usually let ruin my night but I didn’t I was carefree and fearless, just as I wanted to be for 2014. I jumped in the pool in my undies and just thought about all the positive things to come. I am excited!
This is the photograph from Day 1. It’s shitty and blurry but I love it. It captures the night, I would never before have posted such a bad photo but I feel like it just shows what I hope to call my new attitude. I want to be carefree, I want to post whatever I want because it means something to me. I don’t care that its not perfect, I don’t care that it isn’t even good, it was taken in the moment, mid - scream, highly intoxicated, being pushed and shoved by my friends, I love it and it will remind me of the moment of happiness in which I took it.
I really am happy with how I handled myself last night I hope it continues into the year! Although I am freaking out slightly about the uni preferences I am doing now. I have no idea what I am going to do and it scares me to death. I also need to get a shuffle on with my job but that will come in good time I just need to be more productive!
Tomorrow I am going up to the beach house where we water ski and biscuit and donought with all the cousins and I will hopefully just leave all the fear of whatever I have behind and use it as an experience to regain my confidence and fearless nature. I want that all back so badly.