#deaddolphins thoughts

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have i told you guys how much i like my eremikas with a touch possessiveness and codependency!!!? ANYWAYS, THIS IS DONE!!!! ✨️✨️♥️♥️♥️✍️🏻

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guuuuuuys, the “coming soon” section for my fics is back and alive on my pinned post!! (press keep reading!) i know this helped a lot to get a clearer view of what is coming next in terms of wip updates and one shots (or longshots), so yes, it is officially back!!!!

and yeah, just to clarify, this is not an order of updates or posting ♥️

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perfect student mikasa & delinquent student eren or sort of high school drama romance

i realised that me not sharing my ideas isn’t my thing, and i love putting them to the world. so here it is: what i’s like to write for perfect student mimi & delinquent student eren!

btw, if i ever stop sharing my ideas, get worried.

Mikasa and Eren had been friends since childhood and had been going to the same schools. As they got older, something changed between them. During puberty, Mikasa put on a bit of weight, which she initially took in her stride. Eren was there to support her at first, but then rumours started circulating that they were dating. Eren, feeling overwhelmed, panicked, this was around when they were about 14 or 15. In a moment of thoughtlessness, he made a comment about Mikasa’s weight, which really upset her. She was so angry that she stopped talking to him, and Eren, hurt and confused, withdrew himself and started hanging out with other friends.

Fast forward to their final year of school (they are 18). Eren’s grades had nose-dived because he’d been partying too much and acting irresponsibly. His parents were furious, his dad even threatened to take away his car, don’t let him take a skip year trip to Marley and send him straight into a job. Eren was terrified of the fallout. His older brother Zeke, noticing how stressed he was, suggested he should ask Mikasa for help, since she was very smart and good at school.

Eren wasn’t quite sure how to explain that he hadn’t been talking to Mikasa anymore, but he knew she was really good at her studies. So, he decided to try to get closer to her. As he did, he realised just how isolated she’d become and noticed she was much slimmer than he remembered. She’d even cut her hair. When he finally approached her, she told him she couldn’t help him, but Eren was persistent, he kept urging her until, exhausted, she finally relented and agreed to study together.

Still, he promised to take everything seriously this time. Deep down, he also wanted to understand what had happened to Mikasa and why she’d changed so much. But she didn’t say much about herself, and Eren was determined to find out what had truly happened to his old friend.

And by the way, Mikasa has been going through a really tough time with her eating. She’s been dealing with some serious issues related to her weight, and she’s still trying to recover. She’s cut back on food a lot and has been feeling pretty lonely because of it. She spends most of her time studying and online, rather than with real friends. She’s also a big fan of this idol group that isn’t exactly popular with the general public, which only makes her feel more isolated.

Eren slowly figures out what’s been going on with her. He realises he’s partly to blame for how things ended up and genuinely wants to make things right. But then he sees how his friends have been teasing Mikasa, making fun of her and dismissing her, and it hits him hard. He realises he needs to stop just going along with the crowd. He needs to be himself, stand up for what’s right, and seek real connections, not just be around people for the sake of it.

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Dear Reader,

5 years of writing fics!

five years ago, on april 1st, i posted my first eremika fic and what started almost like a joke ended up becoming something that slowly, grew into a part of my life i can’t imagine letting go of. it turned into this beautiful, messy, deeply emotional journey full of writing, friendships, and so many worlds created just for my beloved eremika ♥️

i didn’t know it back then, but that first fic was the beginning of something that would stay with me through so many different versions of myself. through days where writing felt effortless and everything flowed, and through days where i stared at the screen, doubting every word, wondering if i should just stop.

there’s been so much along the way. so much laughter over the smallest things. so many tears, too, over scenes that hurt more than i expected, over stories that meant more than they probably should have. late nights where i told myself “just one more paragraph” and suddenly it was 3am. moments where i felt proud, where i reread something and thought, yeah… i made this.

and then there were the hard moments. the ones where i felt stuck, or tired, or like i had nothing left to give. the times i wanted to quit, to disappear quietly without finishing anything. last year especially, i was almost absent, and i felt it so deeply, it was like being disconnected from a piece of myself. like something important had gone quiet. but even then, the love never really left. it stayed there waiting for me. and coming back felt… right (?). like returning to a place that still had room for me, no matter how long i’d been gone.

what makes this even more special is everything and everyone that came with it. the people i met, the kindness i received, the comments, the support, the shared love for these characters and their story. it never felt like i was just writing into nothing, there was (and has) always (been) someone there, reading, feeling, understanding and that means more to me than i’ll ever be able to fully explain.

this journey isn’t just about writing fics. it’s about growing, feeling, connecting, and creating something that stays, even if it’s small. it’s about having a place to return to, again and again. and now, 5 years later, i can say it with my whole heart: i’m so grateful to still be here, i love being part of this, i love writing (even when it’s hardl i love eremika, always and forever and i really, truly hope to stay for many more years more than ten at least.

i’m not done, not even close to be done. there are still so many stories left to tell and so many words to pour out. i promise i’m just warming up! 🫶🏻🤍

Ro 🌸

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hear me out guys, i really wanna write a pre-timeskip eremika fic and i’ve been going back and forth between a couple ideas. and listen, i know you’re all gonna say “we want both” but i actually need to focus on one at a time or nothing’s getting written 😭

so here’s what i’ve got so far:

1. eremika snowbound during a mission, stuck in a cabin with no way out, freezing, forced to share warmth just to get through the night… and yeah, it probably ends in smut, i’m not even gonna pretend otherwise. but also like… there’s that messy situationship tension under it, where neither of them is really saying what this is, but it’s definitely not nothing

2. a full situationship fic, more slow, more drawn out, but this one’s still kind of a mess in my head. i don’t have a solid plot for it yet, just vibes and moments, so it’d take more time to figure out properly

and then there’s option 3… which is me being a little insane and trying to merge both ideas into one ✨ like the cabin thing but before of that, the longer situationship arc somehow that ends up working together

so yeah… what are you leaning toward? i actually wanna hear what you guys would rather read 👀

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hello guys, i wanted to come here and talk to you all again because i genuinely miss tumblr so much :( sadly i just haven’t had a lot of free time lately. the good news is that i’m actually doing pretty well. like, really well, and i think part of that means finally catching up on all the things i left undone during my illness, my grief, and my depression. life kind of stopped for me for a while, and now i’m slowly trying to rebuild routines, responsibilities, goals, and all those adult things nobody warns you about.

honestly being an adult kind of sucks sometimes because i can’t dedicate the same amount of time to fandom or writing the way i used to. not when i’m still trying to figure myself out and work toward the things i want for my future. sometimes i miss the days where i could disappear into writing for hours without worrying about schedules, classes, work, responsibilities, or exhaustion.

but even then, i still miss being here a lot. i miss talking to you all, getting asks, screaming over characters together, posting random thoughts, all of it. and the good news is that i’ll be done with this semester in less than a month, which means i’ll finally have around two whole months to come back here properly and have fun again. i still have asks to answer, i still owe drabbles, updates, and a bunch of things i haven’t forgotten about at all.

so please don’t worry about me or think i disappeared forever. even if life gets busy and my time here becomes smaller, i will always come back. this place and the people here still mean a lot to me. i just really needed to tell you all that, because i know there are still people waiting for updates and stories, and i promise they are coming <3

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now needing a marleyan warrior eren and the princess of hizuru mimi arranged marriage au, where she was utterly terrified of him, but he ends up being a loving husband 🤧🤧🤧

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deaddolphins 21st fic next week