#dear fear

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KOTA The Friend - Dear Fear (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO)

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Kota the Friend Shares a Piece of Himself on “Dear Fear”

Photo: Ragan Henderson

Make no mistake about it, the former absence of live music was a tragedy. Yet, what served as the next best thing? Discovering an artist or a song that makes you feel like you’re right back out there. In person.

Avery Marcel Joshua Jones, better known as Kota the Friend, invites us to come and sit in the front row with his new track “Dear Fear.” From its mellow jazzy vibes to the open and honest lyrics, it’s almost as if you’re back at the neighborhood joint listening to someone you’ve watched grow over years. 

This track is expertly crafted with effortlessly flowing verses transitioning ever so smoothly into a bright chorus full of harmonies. Grounding the beat in piano melodies and acoustic drums rather than samples and 808’s is what leave “Dear Fear” feeling so fresh and authentic.

“Dear Fear” is chalked full of wisdom, with bars like “I’m learning to communicate healthily, this is wealth for me” and “I use to be a firefighter, now I water my lawn.” Kota spits timeless advice and hard-hitting, life-learned lessons through metaphor; this track should most definitely be on repeat just so we can glean an ounce of the truth at the heart of it all. 

Consistently choosing to make his music as an independent artist, Kota takes pride in having his hands in every aspect of his art. This is precisely why, that when we hear “Dear Fear” we know that he is purposefully sharing a piece of himself with all of us.

Watch the “Dear Fear” video below:

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ef48hGEoyfI) new video ! we all can deal with fear !

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Dear Fear & Other Friends ( Self Hate, Jealously and Depression)

Dear Fear, Self Hate, Jealously and Depression, 

Fuck y’all ! You have crippled my growth for far two long and now I’m ready to live. You’ve stomped out Hope , Joy and Love for the last time. There is no more room for you left at this table and I’ll tell you why. 

For years you’ve robbed me of friends , opportunities and love leaving me with nothing but my pain and self loathing to keep me company and what miserable company to hold.  For far to long you’ve cause me to second guess my thoughts and doubt my intuition when I needed them the most. 

I hate y’all because y’all made me hate me. You made me cringe at the thought of being alone making me feel as if being alone meant that I was unwanted but oh its quite the opposite . 

Fear my dear, I found love and she loves me stronger and harder than any man could. When I wake up in the morning she holds me with all the love in her heart  as she thanks God for another day to call me her own. She’s constantly shielding me from the seemingly endless pits of depression feeding me positive thoughts and affirmations every chance she gets . She loves the skin I’M in, taking the time to admire it every time I walk by from my lopsided titties down to my knobby knees. 

We haven't always been this way and there have been several times in which you’ve made me  doubt her. Twice you’ve tried to make me kill her but OH her love was much stronger that any wedge you’ve tried to stick between us. Yes you tried to take her from me but what’s mine can never be taken says the lord. Fear, you hate her because you can never fill the spaces you’ve dug into my heart the way she can no matter how hard you’ve tried. Oh sure, I remember when one upon a time you called your self protecting me in your own way but her love has given me the strength and courage I need to survive the emotional potholes you’ve created.

I love her more that you could ever know and I pray this love continues to grow so strong that the memory of you just becomes a speck drifting in the distance as I bask in my Eternal sunshine. You see Fear, she is me and today I choose to cover her in the love and light she deserves and where light shines darkness can not enter so from this day forward you are no longer welcomed to enter my loves dwelling place. 

Learning to LOVE MYSELF without you,

Mia J. Burnside 

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Dear Fear,

Goosebumps rose over my legs, the cold wind biting ruthlessly across my cheeks. I looked down to see my toes had turned a light shade of blue but I didn’t care, I just kept walking. How far? I didn’t know and I didn’t really care either. I needed to get away but then I got to thinking, what if I never returned? If I just walked into the woods and never came out, would I make it? I had been raised in the world of grades and money but the wilderness was only a few steps away. Did I leave everything behind and abandon everything I knew so well, I knew it was silly but I entertained the thought anyway. I kept walking. It was getting colder but my mind was elsewhere, far off in a world where nothing mattered and my state of being was just that, a temporary state. I was warm inside my mind, free of the cold and unforgiving world but it wasn’t reality or so I was told over and over again. My thoughts didn’t matter in the big scheme of things, they didn’t determine what job I would have or get me into college. No, they were just thoughts, harmless ideas that riddled my consciousness but they were safe. Safe from the judgment of others and left for me to decipher and interpret. They were my wilderness.

The sun began to set, leaving me in the unquiet darkness. My toes had gone numb with cold as I stopped on the edge where the trees met civilization. That is all that separated me from freedom, a hypothetical line. I looked over my shoulder the lights of my house glowed warmly in the distance. Ironic, I thought. How could a place look so inviting but contain such a difficult future. School, money, power, the things that mattered most in society lived in that house and trapped every breath of freedom until it suffocated you into a being of today’s world. This is what we had become, cookie cutter copies of one another trained by our teachers and leaders to be what everyone expected of us. The one’s who had escaped were called lucky, rare and special people with extraordinary talent whose status could not be reached by the average. I sighed and turned to face my future, the wilderness was no life there was no escaping the inevitable. One day I would be forced to grow up and face what I had been fighting my entire life, use what I had learned and create a life worth living. I took one step and then another towards what was certain but instead of comfort from the knowing I felt fear. I was afraid of the boring life I saw ahead of me, the dullness that was sure to surround me once I stepped foot into the bright glow of the house. But it was too late to reconsider; life had already taken me by its grips and taken away any possibility of the exciting unknown. It had only left the unvarnished possibility of death at any moment. I stopped in front of my futures large wooden doors and pondered my choices for a moment longer but even my thoughts were not safe from the hand of life. It pushed me through those doors, into the warmth and gilded comfort to face that which I feared most.

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Dear Fear:: Juneau & Hartford

Being careful to cut just enough tape June gently wrapped her wrists then her ankles before putting the white roll away and standing with a bounce in her step. She was ready to take her training to the next level, despite her size and all her shortcomings she believed she was ready. Juneau had been training nonstop, her muscles ached but soon after stretching they felt better. Her warm up was simple but effective, a dynamic routine that her father had taught her when she was younger. Juneau stretched her arm one last time over her chest before making her way down to the training floor. 

When she got there she was surprised to find some one else down there. She could only see the back of his head but from his shoulder length blonde hair she could tell who it was. It was rare to find people training so late which is why she enjoyed coming to the center at night. It was quiet and it meant less eyes watching her every move. Jogging down the steps that led to the floor, Juneau smiled and waved at Hartford "Hey" She said brightly 'Mind if I join you?"