#dear..

[wcplunger]

i want to kiss the hands of the person who filmed this

[soulsofshatteredglass]

So... how has your sleep been, dear?

Very nice, thank you.

[krasnyy]

Please... Never leave my arms.

[boywhocriedmalum-blog1]

Hey, love! Write a "Dear boyfriend"?

Dear Boyfriend,At the time I met you, I wasn’t standing strong in life. I was scared of everything, I wasn’t confident about who I really was and somehow I was convinced that no matter how hard I’d try to be a ‘normal’ person I would fail at finding someone that would truly love me.Before I knew it, you were there. After all the stories about you, the many times I had heard your name come up in conversations I got curious. And then you were there, sending me one message that changed everything I knew about feelings, about staying on my own and god, I fell in love with you even before our conversation had ended.

I was yours and you were mine even before we knew it ourselves. From the start it seemed far too good, you were the most caring, selfless person I’ve ever met in my entire life and I felt nervous to talk to you. The first few times we probably talked more about our mutual than we did about anything else and I had no idea why you did that. I was just scared you didn’t like me as much as I liked you and that I was just a way to make /her/ jealous, that I actually felt upset by it. I rather left than staying and losing you after such a short period of time. But everything turned out well. We started to loosen up even though I was even more nervous to closer we got. I remember how I had this big secret, how I never told anyone I was bigender and you had fallen for /Bryan/, a guy that you thought about as a guy not as a girl. I started to hate myself for it, and I was scared that when you found out you’d pack your bags and leave me. Seriously, I was scared about so many things at that moment that I thought I’d just collapse under the weight of worries. When I came out, you didn’t leave. You were surprised but you told me how much you loved me as a person, and I cried, I cried because I was so extremely glad you accepted me for what I was and that I had you to stay. Your love was a part of what kept me from leaving this world behind. In those months we were together, you got busy with work, your band, private life, everything got harder to balance while being together with me while I was far away and no way near to just come over to cheer you up after a long day. I remember that one night where I had the worst break down ever. I was done, I loved you more than I loved life but I couldn’t handle it. I couldn’t handle the pain I was living with anymore and I decided death was the best for me. You weren’t home, you had no idea. While I was killing myself, you were working your ass off. But you got a message, and I got your message, and I could hear your heart break. You thought you had lost me that night, and I hated myself for making you feel like that because you broke down. I know how they had to literally drive you home because you weren’t able to function anymore. I hurt you and I know it’s bad to keep thinking about that but I can’t stop.After that we just continued, but you told me how you realized how I meant the world to you and that you would give anything to make me happy. And I still don’t know why I deserve(d) you, but I loved it. One day everything seemed to going bad again though, when things got out of hand, when someone else loved me and you found out about it. I wished so hard that I didn’t exist, because you and her were so close and I wanted nothing more than you two to stay close. Eventually it all worked out, which was good. But I know it all was very awkward, especially for you two. But I loved you both, she was my best friend, you were my boyfriend and I liked keeping it that way.We have been through a lot, we had many up and downs and eventually broke up.But I never stopped loving you. You never stopped loving me and I know this letter was supposed to be for my boyfriend but you’re the closest to a boyfriend. I love you, I love you so much and you make life easier. I knew I never wanted to hurt you ever again, and even though I kept breaking down, you were always there to catch me and make sure I was safe again. There’s nobody in the world that could ever tell me loving you isn’t worth it, because fuck it, I can’t live without you and I’m not even scared of that. Having you in my life is the best thing that has ever happened to me. and I promise I will be with you until the end  //Wise men say, only fools rush in, but I can’t help falling in love with you.//

Send me things

[mishitree-blog]

Au revoir

Here we are again Those reflecting moments Where memories hush by Just like a stuck lullaby

Running daily to the bus Start the day with a lot of fuss Spontaneous, glorious and stupid In times of trouble you were my aid kit.

Countless times, you made me smile. We could be silent for a while Still know our love and presence The lasting joy was more than intense.

Here we are again Those reflecting moments Where memories hush by Just like a stuck lullaby

Friendships I've seen breaking But this is how children have been awakening. Experience, heurekas, adventure sweat. Maybe without a purpose to have met.

Here we are again Those reflecting moments Where memories hush by This is goodbye.

Talking to the moon on an empty street. The only place where we can meet. At least we're still friends in my dreams. That's all that seems.. to be left.

Here we are again Those reflecting moments Where memories hush by This is goodbye.

But someday we'll meet again In our new life's moment Where we will rush by Where I will wait to say Hi.

[mishitree-blog]

Beautiful exchange.

Lord, let me thirst on this earth, break me apart, make me weak. Strip everything away.

So that I may thirst for you, so you can make me new, only you can make me strong. Because all I have is you.

[mishitree-blog]

Clear Cut.

Has there been a voice calling me from behind ? There, I thought I'd seen a shillouette in the past.

It made me turn back, To visit the old, to see what I have missed

But oh, how could I have been so blind. Thinking this all -sth like a 'we'- could last. Only receiving a last cheque The greatest confirmation for me to move forward, This time more eagerly, with a determined fist.

Farewell has never been so easy my friend, Here's my Adiós' kiss

I have decided to follow Jesus.

#noTurningBack