if feeling like ur not deserving of care is what’s stopping u from taking care of urself, and ur doing badly enough that u can’t change that perspective at the moment, sometimes it helps to know that u can just… do things anyway. eat some lunch even if u stepped on ur cat’s tail this morning. treat urself to a glass of water or juice even if u haven’t finished ur homework yet. go for a walk and hug a stuffed animal even if u are wholly and entirely sure that u are a terrible person. yes, it’s most important to learn that u inherently deserve care, but if u absolutely can’t — sometimes it helps to take care of urself anyway and feel like an evil little fiend while ur doing it.