#dearjon

[rieslingandwriting]

I guess I just want you to come harder for me.

I want you to fight harder for me.

I want you to show me that I'm worth it.

I don't want to feel like I'm a thrift shop parking lot basic bitch even though

I know that I am.

I wanna feel like I'm a prize a popcorn at a theatre

I want to feel like I don't have to come to you.

I wish things weren't the way that they were.

I wish my grandpa was better and I wish that life isn't what psychologists talk about.

That it wasn't real like the way they say it is.

But we know that it is.

I never doubted for a second that you didn't care about me.

But I feel like what I need from you

you can't provide

Because you need to figure out you

I need you to be there for me

more than I can explain.

And you can call me selfish if you want,

but I'm not selfish

. I'm selfless

and I'd give the shirt off of my back.

the last dime in my pocket

I worry about yourself

if your are going to break

that I limit you and your cababilities

I think I hold you and take your pain away

Sometimes, I wish that humanity would do the same.

But that lies the rub,

that we are all deeply rooted

in our own sacred interests

I don't think I ever as

k more than what I can provide.

But I feel like we're at an even stand off.

[luice-lilyblack]

[iiinfp]

I hope you're happy with her.

[stupid-rabbitsuit]

fuck you.

[iiinfp]

my boy is such a dork 💕

[iiinfp]

August 12

I did it. I moved to college, but now I’m farther than ever from you. I’m just hoping that this last month will go by faster than the rest of the summer did. 

[iiinfp]

I’m in one of my moods today, one of those ones that only you can pull me out of. big changes are coming up, and despite myself I still find myself helplessly wishing you were here for them. or at least able to talk to me while I go through them.

just over a month left. I can do that. I just hope this mood doesn’t last that long. 

[iiinfp]

all I want for my birthday is you to come home.