#dearnoelia

[moonlightbynoon]

Do you know? Somewhere between left or right I went down And now looking up I’ve forgotten- Forgotten something important And it weighs Is this what happens when you fall? The question lingers Elusive but vengeful Sinking down into the soles of my feet Growing roots One..two…three… I count my breath I’m learning to compartmentalize my emotions And it’s always something like How do you eat an apple? One bite at a time And then I eat the apple These are my thoughts And still The answer to my question Floats gently by Like a cloud Unreachable the emptiness drags me deeper still So do you know? Because I’m not so sure anymore I’m not even sure I remember how to stand

©Noelia Graham

[moonlightbynoon]

Our memories are outlined across a board. It is October, and I am making crafts. I take each piece of our life together and cut holes in the center of each one. And as I snip, the pieces fall, piece by piece, surrounding me. Some pieces are too small to pick up and they will stay there, unseen. To be found later. This is how I view us. As I find remnants of you, of us, I stop. It’s as if at first in a whirlwind, the memory is the sudden calm after. Nostalgia hits me in wavelengths. Our wavelengths currently cut. But your voice echoes so clearly, even if I can no longer recall specific expressions in your face. But I remember what you use to do, and in what order. So for now without you, I find myself at a loss for words- 

Until we met again. 

[moonlightbynoon]

7 more weeks till I fly to Sweden and get to hold my boyfriend//waiting is a special kind of hell

[moonlightbynoon]

I think about everything I’d like to say to you

and instead I pick up the words 

swallowing them

letter by letter 

a mouthful of forgotten forevers 

a heart full of forget-me-nots 

[moonlightbynoon]

Pull me closer Let me make a home on your skin Climb between the lines And melt Dripping Don’t stop 

please

Tap the glass Watch it shatter A million times over Like sand through unsteady hands Once you let go I’m gone