#dearvista's rambles

[dear-vista]

announcement

alright so, i think im gonna discontinue her shadow? i hate to do it but its been so long that i've just kind of lost the motivation for it, plus i hate the style i wrote it in. i mean, instead of discontinuing i could just like, change my entire writing style right in the middle of it, or rewrite it? but i dont know, i guess thats more up to you guys than anything so. anyway, sorry about that! but i've been working on just a little single fic/ one shot thing so yeah!

[dear-vista]

guys my biggest uwus to @connorshero and their amazing writing

[dear-vista]

uwu, hello everyone

i know i'm supposed to be updating my story but i thought i'd post a little apology/explanation for my absence this time around.

so recently, i've had a lot of school work to deal with. i've been really behind since i had to push off starting my second semester of maths to finish the first since i'm terribly slow when it comes to the subject and i get discouraged so easily. like every time i think i've got it i still get it wrong and it just makes me feel stupid so i push it off. but i'm slowly getting caught up in everything so that's good.

on top of that, i'm dealing with some health issues. nothing major, just a nasty case of insomnia and a heightened lack of focus. i've been having frequent migraines and a bit of trouble keeping food down, but i'm. a stubborn bitch and don't want to go to the doctor. i'm sure i can beat some of this on my own, but i'll keep you all updated.

anyway, thanks to everyone hanging around and being so patient, i do have a chapter in progress at the moment, and i feel guilty because the last chapter was part filler. but this one has some juice and i hope you all stick around to see it.

anyway, i love you all and you make my heart so happy uwu so here's a picture of me to prove i'm not a robot and i'm still alive

until next time ✨ - finch

[dear-vista]

ordinary

author’s note: so i wanted to write something that could possibly get me writing again? before this, i had been suffering from some writer's block and also some health problems so i’ve been kind of off and this, though it’s not a ship, is just a little something that will hopefully get me writing again. thank you to everyone for being so understanding with my grand hiatus’. with love! - f

word count: 481

warnings: none

“So what’s your story?”

I shrugged. No matter the variation of the question, I always had the same boring answer.

“Nothing special.” I didn’t bother to elaborate, I knew the next thing that came from her would be something along the lines of-

“Come on, tell me.”

I didn’t mind the fact that she pushed. Sometimes, most of the time, I couldn’t help but feel a little angry. People prying into something that they didn’t need to know, something that I clearly didn’t want to talk about. But the way she looked at me, I almost actually wanted to tell her. But want or not, it was pleasantries to answer anyway.

“Grew up the suburbs. Only child. Two mostly happy parents with steady jobs. Had a dog, had a pool. Had a few friends here and there. Same schools, same town, same people. Like I said, nothing special.” I shrugged. I looked back over to her, my eyes had drifted while I spoke, and she had some kind of spark in her own eyes, genuine smile on her face.

“I think that’s extraordinary.”

Her voice had a hum to it, a lilt if you will. Never the less, the statement made me pinch my brows in confusion.

“I’m sorry, did you hear what I said? My story is the blandest, most ordinary story on the planet.” She shook her head, even laughed at my slightly flustered state.

“The fact that it’s ordinary is what makes it so special. Everyone seems to have some kind of grand point in their life. Divorce, moving, something that makes them bitter or conceded or just the way they are. You rarely have an ordinary story anymore. You don’t need a grand point. You’re you, amazingly so, just on your own.”

I didn’t get it. I was confused. And I was flustered. To the point where I was looking down at the backs of my hands because I couldn’t look at her. I didn’t even know her and she was being so nice.

The breaks squeaked and she shifted slightly, listening to the announcer come over the intercom. The train slid to a halt two stations down from where I got off. This was her stop. I knew this. She offered me another smile before collecting her things. She got up and paused for a moment.

“We’ve talked three times, sat together five. I think now it’s appropriate that I ask your name.” She looked at me expectingly, but not in a harsh, pressured kind of way. I told her and her smile grew a bit. She told me her own and I said it again after her. It made her laugh. I probably still looked like a confused kid. She said she’d see me tomorrow. I tried to get out ‘see you’ but before I could she was gone again, lost in the morning rush.

[dear-vista]

i'm not going to lie i forgot i was writing a story sorry guys

[dear-vista]

i need good in my life

[dear-vista]

update on her shadow

hello, hi! i know i'm the absolute worst at updating and i am so so sorry!! i feel really really bad, but it's been a week since i've moved into the dallas apartment and life has been a little hectic. we're fairly settled in and the next chapter is almost done and should be out really soon! in a month or so, we should be moving again, but for the final time into an actual house. i know it could be kind of annoying with the lack of updates, but i want to thank everyone who's reading and waiting and supporting me!! i love you all and i promise i'm trying my hardest to put time into the story to make it good. i don't want to just shit out chapters cause then i would feel bad. anyway, again, i love you, and thank you for being so patient!! - finch 💕💕

[dear-vista]

oh fuck i just realized i had a bunch of unanswered asks i feel so loved yet so bad lmao gimme a sec