#deawur

[daaeeee]

Just an English assignment

[daaeeee]

I’m so in love with him, I hope he never leaves

[daaeeee]

Ive kept a busy schedule to always have something to do.

A distraction i guess, an illusion of productivity.

I’ve been telling myself that I’m happy now, working hard and getting my life together.

I’ve gained some free time and I forgot how loud my head is when everything is silent, when I have nothing to do.

Just keep busy

[daaeeee]

Today he sang to me for the first time since sophmore year, it took him awhile to start singing though. He held me and I buried my face in his chest because he didn’t want me to look at him. He started singing the song he used to sing to me sophmore year despite having earlier said that he didn’t remember it.

[daaeeee]

Every single time you leave, I’m more aware of my attachment to you. I️ let down my guard and let you in because I know you wouldn’t leave me. But that’s such a naive belief. Everything is temporary.

Whenever you go, I push you away. I need to be able to stand on my own. I can’t be so attached.

But you come back and I️ let my guard down.

Every. Single. Time.

[daaeeee]

I’m so thankful for you to show me what unconditional love is like

Most importantly I’m thankful that you’re making me realize that I deserve it

[daaeeee]

Every time you’re away I realize how dependent I am to your presence. I don’t like it.

I️ can’t be this dependent on anyone but myself.

[daaeeee]

I wish drugs weren't considered such a normal thing to do within my social circle. I guess drugs are ok now & I just have to accept that.