[daaeeee]

Remembering you feels like a different lifetime

[daaeeee]

I really can’t imagine you taking anything but then I️t happens and i can’t help but have this image in my head. I don’t recognize the image, i don’t know who I️t is.

[daaeeee]

I really hate drugs i wish you didn’t do them

[daaeeee]

Best person to ever exist

[daaeeee]

how do you walk away from a person that you love so much 

[daaeeee]

Sometime I really don’t know who’s to blame. 

Or if we should blame on someone. 

I know that I should be satisfied with our relationship, and I know that I should love you unconditionally. I feel like I’m asking for too much. But those are the things I want out of a relationship, It’s unfair of me to ask for them or make expectations in the first place. 

I’m caught in between knowing what I deserve or believing that I’m just asking for too much. I love you, I really do. I love you more than I love myself. 

I apologize for making you feel like you’re not enough for me. Sometimes I feel like I am being too greedy and I’m self sabatoging. But if I get rid of all my expectations then wouldnt that be settling down? 

I don’t know what I should do anymore. It’s not healthy. 

[daaeeee]

I don’t blame him though, maybe I’m just too much for people to handle

[daaeeee]

I was so excited to have him take me out on a day for my bday I’m so bummed that it’s not happening anymore. He already feels bad so i might as well not tell him how bummed i am but it’s like this every special occaision where he just can’t pull through

[daaeeee]

I can’t keep it together all the time. I can’t control my anger all the time. I’m allowed to mess up

[daaeeee]

Do you ever sit back and reflect on your personal growth to only realize you’re still a toxic person to the ones you love

[daaeeee]

Just an English assignment

[daaeeee]

Maybe the problem is me.

Maybe I expect too much. I should just not expect anything at all.

[daaeeee]

countless nights of unsettling sleep

[daaeeee]

love is a choice

[daaeeee]

life works in weird ways 

[daaeeee]

I’m so in love with him, I hope he never leaves

[daaeeee]

Ive kept a busy schedule to always have something to do.

A distraction i guess, an illusion of productivity.

I’ve been telling myself that I’m happy now, working hard and getting my life together.

I’ve gained some free time and I forgot how loud my head is when everything is silent, when I have nothing to do.

Just keep busy