#deep ask

[wanderlust-in-my-soul]

Thank you! I was so pissed at the end of Last Twilight and you nailed it in your post!

The number of times I swore at the last two episodes. I'm so angry, as a person with a disability, so pissed. I'm pissed at all of it, but that part engages me. So much that I'm having a hard time saying anything smart. They did such a good job at so many things but those last two chapters were so upsetting on so many levels.

We can be happy, content, and satisfied in our lives, with a disability. We don't have to be "cured". I understand it's what Day wanted but, it made the whole show fall down and feel empty and pointless.

And the whole relationship stuff at the end was so pointless and not well written in my opinion. Most of it made no sense. You said it perfectly in your post. All of it. So thank you. 💜

Hi Anon!

I wanted to answer this a long time ago. I am very sorry it took me so long 🌼

I saw so many different posts about the ending and of course some of them were really praising and loving the ending (which is totally fine for me by the way). At some point I was unsure, if my words were too harsh. I mean, I love critical reviews about stuff, also about stuff I enjoy and love, but I still was thinking if I was too critical. This here, this ask made me realise that it wasn't too harsh and even if there were just you and me, who think this way, it is a valid opinion. Thank you so much for reaching out!

I couldn't go back to Last Twilight til now. I still feel a pain in the heart thinking about the ending. I loved the series so much, but with every comment, with every thought about how much Mhok was giving up for Day, to make him happy, without Day considering Mhok's feelings and their value, it just hurt. And I still feel pain thinking about the lost message, the fact, that Day couldn't see himself as "normal" or "whole" without his eye-sight. I guess it was the fact, that is wasn't talked about anymore. We saw him thriving and having a fullfilled life without the ability to see. And it looked as if he was happy. I guess it would be helpful if we could have seen a discussion about this whole eye donation thing, to understand that this is still something he was going for. But the better message in the end would have been, if he could be thriving without this surgery.

And it could have helped if we could have seen Mhok's journey in those three years? Does he overcome his trauma? Would he become this dependent again? Does he made friends? Could he live his life to the fullest? What was he thinking? How many times did he reach out to Day and never got a reply, never got anything in return? Why did he choose to go after him, after all this time and after all the hurt? How did he overcome the hurt? And how did he manage to forgive him. And why the fuck did he need to thank Day for the heartbreak and pain he were going through? How the fuck could he thank him for choosing for him, without talking with him, without considering that Mhok has an own opinion and is his own person with his own thoughts and backstory? How the fuck? ... Guess I am still angry...

There was so much pontential and they just blew it.

I didn't want to rant again 😅🙈 Sorry!

Thank you so much for reaching out and telling me about your thoughts! 🤍

[pixie88]

Hi pixie, I saw you shared these asks and thought I'd send you a few. 💚

🎤fave line in a fic you wrote?

50 question ask 12, 16, 20, 24.

Deep ask 2, 4, 17, 20.

Whoa @gloriousalmondvoiddreamer talk about a list! 🤣🤣

🎤fave line in a fic you wrote?

It has to be when Nina, Al, Ellie and Adam are making cocktails at home (Ellie is pregnant, so she's not drinking) and they make these blue lagoon cocktails. Nina says the following:

"Our tongues are blue. We look like we've given a Smurf a blowjob!"

That's is a real life story happened on a hen do 🤣🤣

50 Questions asks.

12, What’s something about your best friend that you love?

After the first lock down I the UK I pulled away from people I considered my best friends (they would talk about me behind my back and I saw proof. A lot of other stuff happened but I'm not boring you with that)

They probably don't consider me as theirs, but they are mine.

@secretaryunpaid @aussieez they are just there to listen to a rant and break me out of my bad mood with laughter 💜

My neighbour is also another best friend I see her every morning and even when I try so hard to hide it she can see when I'm upset 💜

I just realised I sound like a moody person 🤣🤣

16, Describe your favorite hoodie. How long have you had it? What makes it unique?

It's not a hoodie but a t-shirt. Hubby used to wear it when we went to college together I always loved it on him. 4 years later we moved into together and he still had it, it's a Micheal Jordon black top with a gold MJ on it. It's no longer his 🤣🤣

20, What kind of math are you best at?

🤣🤣🤣 the kind where you don't have to do it! 🤣🤣 I hate maths and I'm shocking at it @aussieez helped me a few times when home Schooling in lock down 🤣🤣

24, Are you a good driver?

Well I haven't killed anyone! So I guess so! 🤣🤣 I think I am as long as hubby isn't in the car. He's the worst passenger driver ever!

Deep asks.

2, what is your preferred method of non-physical self destruction?

I doubt myself alot in everything! Especially being a mum, I would say I question if I am a good mum at least 100 times a day! 🤦‍♀️ I put myself down a lot!

4, tell me about your most vivid memory, good or bad?

I would say it was when I was like 7 years old. I had this teddy that was like over 5ft tall I moved it, so it was next to my bed near the top end. One night I woke up to go to the toilet. I came back I forgot I had moved it and was convinced someone was stood next to my bed (it was pitch black) I was to scared to turn on my bedroom light, so I got into bed the opposite side. Then it must have been a dream this old creepy guy was in my face the light from the crack in the curtains lite up his face and I woke up and pulled the light on to see it was just my Teddy 🤣🤣🤣

17, what was your favorite color as a child and what is your favorite color now?

Green and yellow because the left handed scissors my friend used in school were those colours. Now it's purple has been since secondary school.

20, tell me what you think others think about you?

I'm a bit of a tit! I have been told I'm very cold hearted, but that's only after I had reached my limit of bs I took from this person.

Thanks for the ask lonely and sorry I posted before I had finished 💜

[winterrose527]

alright, time for Deep Questions from Woodswit.

what do you consider your most recent “turning point”?

Ooh I love it.

There was something that happened with my father's girlfriend over the summer.

This has been a long saga over the past decade basically with period of extreme awfulness and others of just reluctant coexistence.

As someone who grew up with a narcissistic father, I am someone who puts a lot of blame on myself before blaming anyone else for anything, and constantly feel as though my feelings should be offered with a caveat. "This makes me feel xyz but it's like totally not a big deal because I also did this thing on a much smaller scale when I was six years old and so therefore probably shouldn't feel anything for the rest of my life." This wasn't helped that for a long while it was made very clear to me and my brother that we would either get with the new world order or, well... we could get with the new world order.

Anyway, after many many years of taking on more than my share of responsibility and blame and doing my very best to be perpetually pleasant, I had a situation this summer that changed everything.

I was sitting at the end of the dock with her and my father. She had been sitting there silently scrolling on her phone while my father caught me up on things I didn't really care about but that I felt like I should ask. With a great amount of casualness she said one of the ugliest things I've ever heard another person say. My father saw it and brushed past it and she returned to scrolling as though she had absolutely nothing to be embarrassed or remorseful about.

Though it was horrifying to the point that I almost got up and walked away, it was also one of the most freeing things that has ever happened to me. I realized that there was nothing, really, that I could do. If someone was capable of that amount of hate for someone they should love unconditionally, that there was nothing I'd ever be able to do to find a place in her heart, and that actually, it was rotten to its core.

Not a nice realization to come to, but certainly a turning point. It won't change the way I behave towards her, but it will change the way I treat myself about the state of our relationship.

[yacrimago]

5 and 17 from "deep asks that get uncomfortably personal"

So, here are the answers.

5. If anything, what would you change about your childhood?

Well, I feel like I had a happy childhood, I still love those memories, so I don't think I have something I'd like to change. Maybe in my teenage years I'd change a bit my behaviour with others.

17. What was your favourite color as s child and what is your favourite color now?

Blue!!! When I was a child I had this thing for vegeta from DBZ, and i always associated him with the color blue because of his suit, so I always wanted my things in blue, now i love the purple more, I think is a nice color in all its scales.

Thanks for asking ☺️

[yacrimago]

4 & 10 for the uncomfortable asks (if you want to)

Ok, so let's do this.

4. Tell me about your most vivid memory, good or bad

The first time I talked to my now best friend, i mistaken her for a guy. We were in the same HR class at the uni and she was in charge to the WhatsApp group, so she was asking numbers around, and she went to my sit and saw my folder with an anime front, and she immediately said that we were gonna be best friends. Tbh I didn't believe that at first, but after 7 years we are indeed best friends. Oh, and i didn't learn her name for about a month 👀 now that I think about that.

10. Tell me about an insecurity you overcame

One of the things I'll probably ever be insecure is that I'm not the kind of person people would like to befriend with. I had a hard time making friends in highschool and it was becoming harder in college but then I met people who made me feel welcome and made me feel more confident about myself. I think I've learned how to be friendly and how to express my feelings in a better way now, and I'm happy with that development, is still not easy to talk to new people for the first time, but I'm happy that so far I've met great people which I share hobbies.

Thanks for the ask ☺️