#deer.irl

[deermurdock]

me when i don’t get the math and science autism and instead i get the ‘daredevil drops tomorrow and im so anxious all the time because of it’ autism

[deermurdock]

i’m rewatching a comfort movie i loved as a kid bc i needed to disconnect from the internet a little (shoutout ocd) and the main character who i had the BIGGEST crush on as a kid just called another character ‘kiddo’ so i guess ive just always been like this :)

[deermurdock]

computer show me how to make your fictional boyfriend real so you don’t feel so devastatingly alone and afraid anymore

[deermurdock]

also i decided to start my sobriety journey today (lowkey became dependent on weed….) and uh. turns out even if you’re just casually dependent on it turns out it’s not easy to quit like im sure it’ll be fine but im freaking out bc im like anxious over how hard it’ll be???? haha anyways.

[deermurdock]

do any of my murdock circle friends play dnd……… anyone wanna talk about that………

[deermurdock]

and also another thing about me is i’ve been lowkey torn between i love being single and i love being alone AND oh my god why does no one want me will someone please kiss me

[deermurdock]

murdock circle friends today i come to you to tell you that im being brave and trying to make new friends (i went through a rough friendship break up recently) through a new dnd campaign i’m playing in but i’m really scared

but!!! my character is a cowboy inspired by charlie cox’s character in stardust, named after him as well! i love you tristan thorn and one day i will write about you <3

[deermurdock]

*mr beast voice* this weekend i set out to make as many collages as possible because im fucking depressed and stop myself from falling deeper into that hole by making up ocs