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[vartouhix-archive-blog]

The Last of Us - Sehun [for @definedbyproxy ]

Everyone’s afraid of me, so I’m untouchable, man.

You can call me monster.

[vartouhix-archive-blog]

How late they stay up ☻

(for an old meme I deleted when I got insecure and whiny lol /cringes)

Anyway... Vartouhi usually tries to stay awake until Jongin comes home from work, so she can sit with him while he eats something, let him shower, and maybe talk with him a little or watch one movie or listen to him read before she falls asleep. That’s anywhere from midnight-2 a.m., depending on when exactly he comes home and what exactly they do before they get into bed. When she hasn’t been getting enough sun, she’ll fall asleep earlier by accident--as early as right after she comes home from the flower shop, or around 6 p.m. on a day she’s not working.

When he’s away on business and she’s perfectly healthy, she tends to go to sleep at midnight, unless she’s staying with a friend. Then she will stay up to wait for them to get home. (Basically if she’s staying with someone she cares about, she wants to be with them a little before she sleeps.)

[jaenv]

👮👎👀

👮 Has my muse ever had sex in public? 

Given the fact that Leo likes taking care of his image, he wouldn’t do it unless something sparked within him that changes his mindset. He values himself well enough to know what he can and cannot do in public, although given the age that Leo is still practically a teenager, of course the interest that lies along the thought of excitement will always be there. It’s just that, he has this good sense of what is right and wrong, to do something out of line. 

👎 Would my muse ever cheat on their partner?

No. The tendency is, Leo may always be busy from time to time but he will never be tempted in doing something as bad as that, he understands that there are limitations to one’s relationship, and there’s never a perfect one, but for him, as he saw it on his parents’ relationship; loyalty lies on the person being granted with trust and if Leo ever pursues someone, they can be rest assured that he will never do it.

👀 Is my muse the type to sleep around?

Before, yes. Now, no. After his failed relationship, the first one, he found comfort in dealing with stress with sex and alcohol. Most of the time, he’s intoxicated, and those were the days that he felt utterly helpless, until his best friend, Taeyong gave him the time of the day to make him realize that there’s more to him than just that. He focused on his task afterwards, sometimes he gets tempted to do those when he first quit, but he managed to push the feeling away overtime and prioritized himself and his affiliation with his father’s business. 

[ofguardedhearts]

"It is not a feeling I wish to experience again."

( source: accepting. )

poppy leaned back in her seat, one arm wrapped around herself and the other holding up her cup, in which it’s rim was pressed against her lips. it was a rather slow day at work. people came in and out, but it wasn’t all that busy. it was never all that busy on a monday afternoon.

so she sat there, ten minutes into her thirty five minute break at the coffee shop across the street. lungs drinking in the fresh aroma that the place always had to offer and the cool atmosphere– a contrast to the heat that was beaming outside. she was there by herself, as per usual. never expecting any company so it came as a slight surprise to her once her eyes landed on a familiar face. they exchanged glances, and he offered her a soft smile. the female never smiled. she hasn’t smiled in years but she did greet him with a nod as he dragged his order and himself to sit across from her.

colored orbs twinkled with amusement and curiosity now that the woman had gotten a closer look at him. he looked worn out and disheveled. his face was flushed– an obvious sign that he’d been out in the sun for too long and he went on and on about his day and it’s activities as she sat and listened, sipping her iced coffee every now and then.

“It is not a feeling I wish to experience again.”

poppy chuckled softly. the first in a long time, though she hadn’t meant to. she was sure the situation meant a great deal to him but the way he described the events was just something that tickled her insides and triggered such a reaction. she took one last sip from her cup before placing it on the table and wrapping her other arm around herself, her eyes slightly crinkling at its corners.

“hm. sounds like someone needs a break.”

[ofguardedhearts]

purple. ORANGE. WHAT'S NEXT.

i was looking for a darker color omfg dont judge me.

[astcrismos-blog]

◈ ━ share some headcanons that you have for a muse of your choosing

( mun related )accepting !

well, i will choose sehun because i’ve got this or that headcanon thought about him... 

- he wouldn’t ever fall in love, he’d fall in.. something like, it’d be more like an obsession. he’d want that person all for himself and lord forbid someone got close to them, sehun would explode in jealousy and i don’t want to imagine what he’d do- i don’t know why, but for some reason i also see him in some sort of poly relationship... love is so foreign to him that, i suppose, in the end, he’d seek for it from various people and want them for himself- that being said, he’d be selfish and want to get all the attention and love, not share it with someone else- he showers three times a day, sometimes more [ when he feels dirty for certain reasons ]- as dumb and confused as he is, i think he would flirt with someone or at least try his best to do so-- or perhaps be very playful, but i’m sure that if he got used to a person and got comfortable with them, he could be like that- a fucked up part of him wants to return to the experiment only to get his hands on the people’s throats and kill them very, very slowly- would gladly, happily murder someone but then feel guilty and cry himself for days after- soft spot for animals, children and women

[yeojvn-blog]

HC + monster

◀┊ — Send me  “HC”  + a word and I’ll write a headcanon about it ! @definedbyproxy

“You’re a monster,” This was a phrase she often received. 

After the Hwa Yin Dong murder case had come to a close and taking her into custody, this phrase had become something she had gotten used to. From citizens to police men, from doctors to lawyers, and from children to underlings. 

It was a daily reminder of something she had to wear. To be labeled by authorities and people of something that she had done. To have her remember that she was typecasted as this person who ruthlessly slaughtered the same gender – daughters of all kinds – loved ones. 

“Why did you do it?” That was something even she couldn’t answer; why did she do it? She doesn’t recall any reasons to why she’d murder innocent lives nor can she recall any aggression she had towards the identified individuals. And again, why did she do it? Was it because she fed on the idea that the only way to feel alive was to kill? Was it because she had some sort of affiliation with them? 

Quite frankly, nothing comes to mind..Empty. No sense of evoke.

Some might say, why didn’t she retaliate against those words? If she, herself, felt like this was all wrong – why didn’t she retaliate?

“You’re such a monster,” they said in whisper filled with terror and fear as they gazed upon her. Yeojin knows she isn’t, she knows she isn’t, it just didn’t feel right to have a label that isn’t rightfully hers – and yet she responds – “I know.” 

After all, how can you testify against something that even you can’t remember?

[multifaricusarchive-blog]

hc + monster

                       .... ｍｏｎｓｔｅｒ

     the first time she heard someone call her monster, she’d laughed. not in that maniacal way that only further solidifies the label – it was sweet, amused; disregarding . monsters? what did they know of monsters? 

                        monsters were more than greed & lust; they were made of more than murderous intentions & chaotic minds. but what would mortals know of anything beyond EMOTION. blinded by imaginary woes of pity & fear.     no, safety found them in the form of IGNORANCE.

     if she recalls correctly ( she does – with stark clarity ) , the woman had been witness to an event best left forgotten. while no blood sullied her hands & the look of peace was etched into her victims visage, apparently the ( newly made ) widow found her a sight worthy of TERROR.

                  really, he was but one man. why must humans make such a big deal if she kills one here or there?                        – hundreds. thousands. how many had it been?

   she has seen MORE DEATH than any war. he was but an ant beneath her thumb.

   still, if only the lady knew what a monster she could really be.

   something far more terrifying than a woman with DARK HAIR & RED EYES..

   for her cheek, ferrari made sure the woman was made privy of the true meaning.