#deity work.

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Blessed be.

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Meanwhile, I totally find it agreeable to consider Goddesses maternal or motherly. I think overtime I began to realize that my connection to Freyja is more so of kindred spirits (as she found me) and an older sibling and companion. I am the oldest of my siblings. I never had the nurture of an older sister– I love my mom, of course, but I never had someone to guide me and Freyja kind of fulfilled that role.

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I am considering becoming a devotee of Freyja. I just adore and love her so much. I'd do anything for her.

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My rune reading for the week:

Ansuz: Everything has significance, and appreciation of this will lead to understanding. Ensure you don't ignore the message because you don't like the content. All experience is a lesson that teaches that acknowledging the truth knowledge and wisdom will increase.

Wunjo: Happiness is yours if you are willing to work for it. You must strive for balance and harmony in your life. Always look for solutions rather than dwell on problems. For happiness to last, it must be founded on truth and honesty. Hide from the truth, and you hide from true happiness.

Thurisaz: You have the power within you to face anything. Fear nothing, for you have the authority to claim your destiny. Let no one deter you from your search for the truth.

Thurisaz is also just a rune of impulse and unbridled anger as well, but I hope for and wish for the best. The last two months have been dreadful. So I pray to the Gods that everything goes okay.

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I'm gonna make a playlist of tunes I think me and Freyja would enjoy together. Like even some of my 80s tunes I think she'd enjoy mixed with heathen bands still in the world.

this being one of them. ugh love this song.

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Gonna gather ingredients to make my own devotional oil for Freyja and especially for Fulla. Do an offering of chocolate for Freyja and then play some animal crossing.

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Hail, Freyja Gefn. 🍯

I was raised in a very contentious, high demand sector of the Christian faith. Who, like many of those, targets young ladies to be devoted mothers and tradwives. How I now view my practice is incredibly laxed not to an overarching degree. I think my love for Freyja is more so that She never truly demands things of me but my best efforts and growth. It doesn't mean I don't offer Her items and poetry and writings and more importantly my thoughts. My Norse Heathenry and Celtic path has offered me freedom. That may seem dramatic but when you're raised in practically a cult who, who despises the church from trauma, when a Goddess like Freyja reaches out it is freedom.

In one of my readings with her, about three or four weeks after my dad passed away, She said She was my steadfast companion and that Her protection surrounds me. I have felt it heavily, like fjaðrhamr surrounds me while we talk, when I tell Her my grief or when I just sit and cry to her. A lot of days I can't function, I feel like I'm stuck in knee high mud, trying to walk and trying to function. My grief counselor says that still trying to do chores and work is a process of grief, still doing those things despite how prickly it feels is grieving, is trying.

I felt Her there immediately when the hospital called at 330 AM telling me he passed. Especially when we sat in the lobby of the hospital. I think she didn't want me to see him in such a state because he was gone. That She protected me from seeing him like that, protected me and my mother from seeing him gone. Meanwhile I detested it, I wanted closure, I realized that She was right. She was aware of the downward spiral it would have sent me and for that I am grateful also.

This is just the end of my ramblings, my thoughts, maybe a little sad but to be expected. I just love and appreciate the Goddess, Freyja. My steadfast companion and an absolute companion to many of us.