American Elections Are Rigged and Abusive!
I was triggered by Supertuesday. I had a horrible panic attack, high blood pressure, depression, and anxiety. I was so sick and dizzy the whole night. As the results came in. I tried to avoid it the whole day because I knew my mental health couldn’t take it, but I was sickened before I knew the results. So I looked to put me out of my misery hoping I was just making myself sick for nothing, only for my nightmare to be confirmed. I nearly passed out.
I have removed myself from politics. My mental health can’t take any of it anymore. So much depends on Not Me Us, and watching the corruption, lying, manipulations, gas lighting, ignorance, and peoples’ privilege on display is doing me in. Our future is at risk, lives are literally on the line and there is just so much toxic BS. My mental health can’t look at this shit on the social media or corporate news anymore. I’m just not built for it. Commenting, or liking, retweeting, posting, and staying informed is too much. And I know it’s okay and right for me to step back.
I’ve donated to Bernie what I can, I’m voting soon in my state, and that’s all I am capable of, and I’m trying to be okay with that. I just feel defeated, lost, scared, hopeless, and almost a searing desperateness to be put out my misery. This movement is continuing the work of FDR, MLK, and other great activists and leaders. I don’t understand why this message is so lost on the BOOMERS over 45. I can understand the privileged, but other working class people, I can’t understand.
I know many are in the dark, I know many aren’t even aware of this movement. But my concern is why this movement isn’t reaching the people it should? Why people power isn’t working the way I feel it should? How can money in politics and a corrupt establishment be so powerful to truly silence any movement for the people by the people? What world am I living in?
Everything looks more and more different to me everyday. Maybe I’m having an existential crisis? All I see in entertainment, social media,TV, movies, Celebrities, Radio, and news is corporate/establishment manipulation and propaganda. What was once my escape for my mental health is being usurped by mistrust of the source. I also can’t unsee their betrayal of supporting this corrupt system that’s killing people, knowingly or unknowingly. I have a lot soul searching to do. This election has broken my brain, and my heart. The world I live in just seems more and more insane, scary, and broken beyond repair. I for now still have hope because it isn’t over yet. I’m choosing to do something different this time around in my life, and believe in something, and I believe in this movement, the people in it, and this future president, Bernie Sanders!