It's been forever.
It feels so weird to be back on tumblr, but I have actually missed it.
Things were going really well for me. I was in school and working two jobs, made some great friends, enjoying living on my own 8 hours away from "home" (CP).
But then my depression came back with a vengeance. I started failing school and made the decision that I didnt want to finish my science degree to work in microbiology my whole life. I quit one of my jobs. But then I found the best therapist ever in April.
Ive made one of the hardest decisions to leave the city and move home to CP for 10 months to save money. I got a really good job at my old high school, I'll be living with my parents so I won't have to pay rent. Which all sounds great...
But all my past trauma happened in CP. There are triggers around every corner. Including some in my parents house. This is what makes the decision incredibly difficult. I've been working on these things in therapy and now I have to leave my therapist. I see her today for the last time before I leave. I'm hoping we will be able to do Skype appointments. Or if I visit the city I'll be able to see her. She has already said when I move back she will start seeing me again. I'm just sad I have to wait 10 months for that.
I feel like this post is all over the place. But that's how my brain feels. 🤷