Just forget me, it’s that simple
I hate that this bothers me like it does. I’ve had so much better than you could’ve ever been. Harsh? I’m kinda done even giving a shit after the way you handled things between us..
I’m beyond pissed off. I’m hurt. I can’t even talk about how I feel to anyone without immediately feeling the tears creep up through to my eyes.
It’s not all you though. I’ve been through so many fucked up situations in the last four years that it’s been building up, and building up. Now, I’m at this point where I’m just scared. Scared to fall in love again... It’s shitty. Considering that I’ve reached that point in my life where I believe that one of the biggest reasons we’re even on this planet is so that we can love one another.. I’m so content with myself, body, spirit, mind and the whole “why are we here” thing, that I have no doubt in my mind that things will all play out in our lives just the way they’re supposed to. But this?.. This was so unexpected. I mean, of all things, I asked you if you wanted to move in together.. You said that you wanted to but then continued to tell me about how you thought I was just gonna go out and cheat on you because I went to the fucking bar with you while I was dating another girl.
I should’ve known that it was never gonna work out the way we wanted it to. You’re too insecure to be happy and still have a lot to learn. Funny how age is just a number. You’re 23 and you act like you’re still in high school with all the drama you’ve caused these last couple weeks..
I’ll never forget when you said, “you would hurt me before I would ever hurt you..” That just shows how insecure you are. A relationship can’t be fuelled off of that type of outlook. So I hope you’re happy for shoving me away like you did. You said too much, and I didn’t say enough. Funny how the world works though. You broke my heart. Ironic, isn’t it?
