lmao so we’re moving soon and it’s gonna be in a whole new school district for my little sister and my dad went ‘i hope she won’t get depressed’ and he’s been so worried about it since we decided this was the house we wanted and
kinda wondering were that worry was when i was little?? i went to a total of 20 different schools and i never felt any of that concern. maybe it’s bc i seemed more quiet and idk lonelier?? than my sister does?? bc she goes to bday parties and all that but.... i still had friends.... i still had attachments....
and even now i wish i had that kind of worry from him bc i have begged him to take me to a therapist or a doctor so they could properly diagnose me with depression and he just ‘they’ll just give you pills like they did to me’ okay??? your point??? maybe they’ll help. maybe i wanna talk to someone who won’t yell at me when i start explaining why i’m probably depressed. maybe i don’t wanna talk abt my abuse TO my abusers
my dad has gotten a little better but there’s times where he’s no better than my mom and idk i’m just not Comfortable here 80% of the time and it sucks and i really wish i could still be treated like their kid despite me being an adult now. i’m kind of tired of seeing my sister get everything she wants and gets all of this worry put on her when i never got any of that
