#depression x

[babygirlgalitzine]

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[communicationissues]

Too much of this chemical, too little of that. Oops, now you can't tell what's real. Do other people exist or am I sitting alone imagining a world around me? Reach out to touch the mirror. Who is that? That's not me. It can't be. Who is it? Who am I? Too much of this chemical, too little of that. Oops, now everything is overwhelming. There's barely any noise but it's too loud too loud. The light is too bright and the scent of food from the kitchen is too strong and I can feel my heart beating and it's too loud too loud. How long have I been curled up here trying to block out the world? Seconds? Years? I can't tell. I lost track of time. I lost track of everything except too loud too loud. Too much of this chemical, too little of that. Oops, now everything is scary. I can't I can't I can't go to school because if I pass in this paper it won't be good but if I don't pass it in they'll think I didn't do it and they'll look at me and know that I'm terrible. There's something behind me. There's always something behind me and I have to press my back against a wall so it won't hurt me. Too much of this chemical, too little of that. Oops, now you don't care. I'm empty. No one really cares about me. They say they do. They're lying. I cross the street without looking. A car beeps. Do you wanna get hit? Kind of, yes. That'd be nice. Maybe I'd feel something. Too much of this chemical, too little of that. Oops, your head is hell.

personal experience

[fucklestat]

[you-spilled-my-latte]

all i had to eat today besides school lunch was a half loaf of bread and i feel like crying

ive been listening to muse all week and i feel like crying

i might be pregnant and i feel like crying

i miss him so much and i feel like crying

i feel like something is always wrong and i feel like crying

my heart hurts from the stress and i feel like crying

i just want to go to sleep without worrying for once

[you-spilled-my-latte]

Gonna spend all night doing job applications and finishing up my online U.S. history class, basically trying to distract myself or else I will fall into the abyss again