❛ i felt your absence. ❜ // lg normal xiaoguang lmao
The helpless anger that rises in Lu Guang isn't as strong as he thought it'd be the moment those words wash over him. No, there's nothing in Liu Xiao's tone that aggravates him, nothing in the meaning of them themselves that provokes him. It's a simple truth, one that hangs effervescently between them before it fractures and fades away, just as much as the love they once held for one another.
And it hurts instead, doesn't it? Hurts that they could have stayed together, could have been each other's forever like they once promised, but that was never meant to be. They were never meant to be.
And Lu Guang doesn't regret it. Not his actions, not in the slightest, because it all lead to Cheng Xiaoshi in the end, and Lu Guang has never felt more intensely for anyone than he has for the man he calls his partner.
But despite it all, when faced with Liu Xiao, the sad truth is that they were once each other's everything, and it's a scar that will never fade, for for either of them.
"I know," Lu Guang whispers, because he does. He understands. He doesn't say it, instead implies it, because giving voice to the impossibility of them hurts more in the face of Liu Xiao's vulnerability.
Lu Guang swallows hard instead. He clenches his fists. Closes his eyes briefly, and cannot meet Liu Xiao's gaze.
I thought you were the one.
I missed you.
It hurt when I thought the empty space in the bed beside me could only belong to you.
"I know," he says again, because that's all he can say.
@fatealigned
