For the past 4 years I've suffered a deep depression. It's been in varying degrees, which I'm sure you can understand. But the thing that never leaves is that nothing feels real. & I don't know if I'm alone in this & I don't know how to explain it. I also struggle with seeing a point in anything. I'm constantly hearing things from christians and non-christians a like that "we are in the end times." which Is obvious. So what's the point in trying? It's hard to have a hope for a future on earth.
I have been where you are, so take heart because you're not alone. Depression is one of the toughest things a human being could ever have to go through- it suck the life out of you and leaves you with nothingness. So I understand what you mean when you say that nothing feels real; it's like you're in a funk that you can't shake. I have been there so I know the numbness you are dealing with. I understand the attitude of not seeing a point or meaning in anything...I get it.
But, you have to keep on trying. You need to keep battling each day. It may seem we're in the "end times" but no one truly knows that; people have thought that for centuries upon centuries, so put that aside. If anything when thinking about the end times you should feel a motivation to live with all you've got and to continue to spread the Gospel.
I understand how depression can be crippling, but you will never get through it if you don't try to fight it. I know that's harsh to say, but it's true. Dealing with your stubborn flesh is a constant battle, but praise be to God that He gives us the strength to fight. Amen? You must rejoice in hope...and by rejoice I don't mean you have to be happy and all cheerful. Sometimes the most genuine form of true joy isn't what people think joy to be at all- it's crying out in pain, and screaming to God in hope because you just want the suffering to end. Joy isn't always happy.
"Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer." - Romans 12:12
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope." -Romans 15:13
Prayer plays such a huge role in having a real vision of hope in front of you. The Lord of all wants to talk with you, to hear your heart, and to share His with you. If you believe that God will fill you with joy, peace, and hope- then He will fill you up!
The point of trying is to give you a powerful testimony on the Lord's goodness and faithfulness to tell the world! Isn't that a good enough reason to try? Hang on; He will deliver you. You have to want it though and you have to try. Seek Him. Hold fast & take heart, friend! I'm praying for you & am here for you.