I'm just here to say one thing. And you can like me or hate me for this but I myself am proud of how far I've come in the last year. This time last year I had lost all energy, wanted to die every single day of my life. I started collecting pills, grazed on the worst kind of food and stayed in bed even on the warmest of days. I gained a lot of weight which was actually one of my least concerns given the issues I was presented with. But weight gain for me is a detriment to my health. It means strain on the hardware in my back, breathing difficulties, chronic muscular pain and of course heightened sensitivity. In a way I was hoping it would be another way out of the planet. That maybe these health issues resulting from my lack of energy would consume me and I could finally stop being a burden to those around me. But after months of crying, owning up to the fact that I had a purpose in my life, seeking help and terrifying those around me, having added support and therapy to lift me up I finally was able to get back on track. I took control of my life again and yes I lost pretty well all of the weight I had gained. Not by far dieting. Not by taking hidden laxatives and starving myself. Not by signing up to a six month "health" program. By going out and doing what I LOVE. Riding, walking, running, I started hiking! It's been amazing! And I've never felt this alive and confident in a very long time. I'm here to say you don't need eight hours in the gym, you don't need to guzzle vitamins and live off 1000 calories. Hell, you don't even have to lose weight at all. Your health is your health and for me, I didn't want it (weight loss) to be the end all of my personality. But this is the result of me deciding not to die. That I wanted to stick around longer and see what else I could accomplish. ❤️ #selfie #me #mystory #depressiontag #myhealth #thatconfidencetho







