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“Loving you was the most exquisite form of self-destruction.” Lexa will always have a place in my heart. RIP, Heda. ♥

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Lexa: Anya is my mentor. Clarke: *spits* Jus Drein Jus Daun!  Sorry. I just had to do this. Lol. 

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“You’re the Sun, I’m the Moon, We were never meant to collide.”

(I merely added the text in the gif, so, gif credits to respective owners. ♥)

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Fun fact:

I suppose everyone knew that the “I love you” was not in the script initially, Clarke added it herself because Lexa is the love of her life and she feels right to add that in, it is so sweet of Clarke, but this is not my point. 

My point is, the “I love you” was not added on the actual day when they were filming, it was only added after they filmed this scene, which explains Lexa’s ‘unresponsive’ reply. An “I love you” accompanied with “I’ll always be with you”? Yes, it’s acceptable, BUT, please be reminded that Lexa has always been in love with Clarke since the very beginning, I believe we can all see that from her emotions, her expressions, and her actions, all indicated that she is madly in love with Clarke. Remember that scene where Clarke needs to go back to Arkadia and before she left, they spent a passionate and iconic moment together? Lexa was shaking and her lips were quivering, she couldn’t believe that the love of her life was kissing her, and she allowed herself to let that single drop of tear to fall. A Commander isn’t allowed to show her weaknesses, but she constantly showed her vulnerability to Clarke, that goes to show Lexa’s love knows no boundaries when it comes to Clarke. Her love-struck eyes while looking up at Clarke who was standing in front of her, ready to acknowledge their love, I can never forget that expression. So can you imagine Lexa finally hearing an “I love you” from the love of her life? ... I’ll leave that to your imaginations. 

I was really disappointed by it because, if the “I love you” was added on the actual day that they were filming, Alycia would have given it a more appropriate reaction, we could have seen how Lexa would react when the girl she loves confessed to her, I mean, come on, all the past few episodes, she did an amazing job at portraying Lexa, who was unconditionally in love with a Sky girl. It would have been a hell lot more beautiful and touching, and I swear it would have given me the closure that I so needed. 

So, yeap, for those that didn’t know this. Let that sink in.

Credits: (YouTube) (Twitter) (Gif credits to respective owners ♥)

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I wonder if Clarke regrets saying “not yet” to Lexa. She might have feelings for Lexa after that first kiss, but she acknowledges it way too late, it was just right before Lexa was gone forever. Lexa loved her from the beginning, but Clarke loved her too late. Their relationship is a beautiful tragedy.

“If reincarnation exists, I hope we will meet again, and this time, I will recognize you first, this time, I will love you first. In another universe, without the burdens of our people, where I’ll be yours, and you’ll be mine. This time, I swear I will love you right.”

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I think I’m overly obsessed over Alycia/Lexa to the point where I need to stop. I’ve been looking up her gifs and pictures on Tumblr for hours now, not only today but for the past few days as well. I need more pictures and gifs of her some medicine or antidote to get me over this addiction. My blog is basically flooded of her images which I’m not complaining. Lol. ♥